so today at work we listened to christmas songs and i really didnt want to listen tot hem b/c they were so slow. i'm tryong to build a set and work at a decent pace and then this music is playing and the tempo is serioulsy so slow. after lunch we listen to other stuff - sorta. at first it was REM and then Gordon put some guitar instrumental in ( Read more... )

so i really miss sara - as most people know - and i thought that i was going to be able to talk to her this weekend. i mean we cant talk much during the week b/c of cell phone minutes and limited text messages. but minutes are free during the weekend and i thought maybe we could talk or something. but we haven't been able to talk much at all. ( Read more... )

This is why i will never commit suicide - even though i have thought about and etc before. the pain and sadness that everyone feels is so terrible. i could never do that to the people i love. i don't feel differently towards Joe, no not all. i just know that i can't put the people i love through so much pain. i love yoou guys ( Read more... )

Sara just left for Cleveland. i feel so alone. all i can do is cry right now. i wish i could be with her right now. i don't care where we are, i just want to be with her and hold her in my arms. i'm happy in her arms, i just never want to let her go. she means everything to me. i don't what i would do without her. she's always been there ( Read more... )

so nobody really reads this do they. maybe it's b/c i dont ever get a chance to update. well hopefully that will change. but maybe not.

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so i was thinking today - how many people really read this?

eyes....heavy. falling...alseep. must....stay....awake. i...must....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now (even if we don't speak often), please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE-UP, FICTIONAL "memory" of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE ( Read more... )

so sunday was the most amazing day i have ever had.