I feel so fucking alone

I dont know why he is doing this to me... I feel like he playing with me. I tried to call him soo many times back but he was simply not asnwering. If I truly dint want to be there for him I would not even bother calling back or texting him. I just dont get the reason, if he really wanted to he would have answered and talk to me what ever was wrong ( Read more... )

People do certain things to either subdue there pain for get about someone... We all dont do the same shit. I got irritated yesterday, you should not feel like your working for something. I dont expect you to work up something for me, I dont expect it from anyone. If people are truly friends things shouldent feel like a job to keep a friendship. I ( Read more... )

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I went to a charity event the other day it was fun, it was 1 5K walk which equals to 3.2 miles. I ran it all the way but I started to get pains in my knee when I was almost done so I slowed down. I ended up getting 31 out of 300 some people... Hopefully next time I will do better... School is almost over im not sure how im going to take up summer. ( Read more... )

It nay seem like I am ok when I sound alright but inside I very much fucked up and hurt. I cant be walking around showing that to everyone. Then I would probably not get out of my house.. Being here alone in my house just makes things worse, I want to destroy myself I start over thinking. Insted I get out and suck the energy of the people around me ( Read more... )

My soul cries in the inside...

Spring break is over its back to school and what not... I feel mangled and battered. I kind of lost my apetite... its been hard for me to eat. Thinking other whise makes me loose my stomach. Everything is so quiet in my room I wish I could go to a nice public place with music and relax listen to people talk and enjoy myself. But we dont have none ( Read more... )

This has been by far the worst spring break and year ever... but things happen for a reason right?

I have lost everything... I dont have nothing. All because I loved and cared too much... deep inside of my I scream dont leave me..nothing will make it better.. my life has fallen into damnation. I have no purpose... to laugh or smile or wake up. There is nothing in the future for me too look foward too.. I hope I really do go to hell..