Oh my god, what can't I just leave and accept things are they inevitably are? Why am i stupid like that? Why can't I just stay in a good place and not get myself all worked up over things I have no control over? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. Why am I a stupid, selfish, jealous bitch? ACCEPTANCE is key. Fuck it. Fuck everything. Now I'm crying. FUCK ( Read more... )

and i don't like capital letters anymore. hey. what do you think of dreams? what do our dreams mean? how can i find out? the last dream i remembr i was at a friend's graduation party (she's a senior this year) and i was crying. all i did the whole dream was cry there, outside in the backyard type place. anyway. my brain is mushy from all- ( Read more... )

Life is slowly getting better. Unfortunately, I still see myself as a failure compared to my brother. I think I will always feel that way. "Oh Lauren, your brother is so smart!" "Oh Lauren, your brother is the smartest kid in the world." Ya know what? Fuck off, I don't want to fucking hear about my little brother anymore. I have to fucking ( Read more... )

"You don't care, I couldn't tell before/I'm gonna drop you cuz you don't want me you just want EVERYTHING ELSE ( Read more... )

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Aaah. I love Jon. (Lauren swoons and spins around in a happy dance). Hmmmmm...Yeah ( Read more... )

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please just look at my mood below.

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