My Obsession
Title: My Obsession
Pairing: Himup
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Himchan is obsessed with Jongup, but it’s not like the teenager minds it.
I wrote this for a fic exchange but they stole our work.
Nobody knows Moon Jongup like Kim Himchan. They don’t understand the way he talks or the things he wants, and Jongup honestly likes it that way. The older male gives extra attention to him because he knows that their other friends don’t have anything to offer. The others all think he’s dumb, but he’s just locked inside himself. Himchan thinks that he’s brilliant, but none of the others can see it.
One of Himchan’s favourite things to do is to go with Jongup to the dance studio and watch the teenager practice without the others. None of the others can keep up with him so most of the time he doesn’t get to dance the way he wants during practice, but even after constant practice he still wants to dance more. “I wish they wouldn’t say things like that, Hyung.” He mumbled when there was a pause in the music.
Himchan looked up at him, not sure exactly what the teenager was referring to this time. “Things like what?” He asked, leaning back against the wall as another American hip hop song started playing over the radio.
The younger male didn’t answer immediately; instead he started moving his body. As always, Himchan was more than impressed at the way the teenager moved, he wasn’t sure if the dance was choreographed or not but Jongup always moved exactly with the song. If he was improvising then Himchan figured he was the most talented person he had ever met.
Once the song ended Jongup came over to Himchan, dripping sweat and breathing heavy. If it had been anyone other than Jongup, Himchan wouldn’t have reached over with a towel to wipe his face. “They always say I’m hard to understand or that my brain doesn’t connect. It’s not my fault they don’t understand.” Himchan agreed with him. Just because the others didn’t understand something didn’t mean that it was wrong.
“I know that.” He smiled at the teenager and wiped at his sweat again. “Don’t worry about those guys, okay? They just don’t know any better.” He dropped the towel on Jongup’s head and eased himself up off of the ground. “Let’s go shower so we can go home and watch television.” He offered his hand for the sweaty teenager and pulled him up off of the ground. “I’ll even supervise you while you shower.”
The teenager allowed himself to be pulled up, smiling brightly as usual. ”You’re such a generous hyung.” He smacked at Himchan’s arm gently before starting to lead the way to the changing rooms. Himchan knew the younger boy didn’t mind if he watched, and that there was a good chance he would show off for his favourite hyung in the shower. It was a very fun game that they liked to play, at least that was how Himchan chose to think of it.
“I know it.” He let the teenager pull him to the bathroom and sat himself on the bench outside of the showers. “Hyung won’t let anyone other than himself see you naked~”
“Selfish?”
“Very.” He smiled, crossing his arms over his chest as Jongup started pulling his clothing off. He chews his lip as the teenager pushed his gym shorts down, showing that he - as usual - had foregone underwear for the day. “You really should start wearing boxers. The fans talk about it.”
“What if you suddenly decide you need a quickie and I’m wearing too many clothes?”
“The bigger problem would be getting my pants off and you know it.”
Jongup chuckled, reaching over to turn on the water to the shower. It would take a few minutes before the water was warm, but Himchan wasn’t going to complain about the opportunity to stare at Jongup nude for a little while longer. “One day Junhong is going to see you like that and I’m going to laugh as he teases you.”
The bigger risk to Himchan’s dignity would be if Daehyun ever caught them having sex. First he would mock Himchan endlessly about bottoming for someone so short and then he would take pictures to show the others and bring them in on the fun. Daehyun was an asshole that way. “Just start touching yourself or something?” He pouted just from the thought of the entire group teasing him for being a bottom.
“Why would I do that here?”
“Because you love your hyung.” He waved his hand in the general direction of Jongup’s crotch and waited for the young male to do something. “Give him a show. That’s how you show love to people.”
“That’s not how you show love Hyung.”
“Since when?”
“Since always~” He smiled and threw his sweaty tank top at Himchan before stepping under the water. Himchan watched as the water dripped down his torso, whining softly when Jongup didn’t touch any part of his body. “You know it’s not Hyung, you’re sappy as hell.” He couldn’t deny that. He loved to spoil Jongup and whenever he had the chance he bought him gifts or told him that he thought Jongup was perfection.
Himchan stuck his tongue out and crossed his legs in front of him on the bench. “Doesn’t mean you can’t give Hyung a gift.” He smiled, “Remember how much he invests in you Jonguppie?”
The younger boy just turned around and started lathering soap into his hair, apparently he wasn’t going to give Himchan a show. At leas the elder could think about the way Jongup’s hips rolled at dance practice when he got lonely at night. “We’re going to Singapore soon. Are we going to switch rooms?” He asked, scrubbing his scalp. “Or do you want to stay with Yongguk hyung again like in America?”
Himchan hummed softly. He had stayed with Yongguk on the world tour because he had thought that was what Jongup wanted him to do. “What do you want?”
“I always want to stay with you.” He turned around so he could rinse the soap from his hair, closing his eyes, and - in Himchan’s opinion - looking like the most beautiful thing that had ever existed on the whole planet. “I thought you were getting tired of me.”
The elder of the two scoffed slightly. The chances of him getting tired of Jongup were less than non-existent. The more likely scenario was that Jongup was going to get tired of Himchan and get annoyed with Himchan being a pervert. “I’m not going to get tired of you, Jongup-ah. You’re stuck with me. As long as you want me, I mean.”
Jongup shrugged as he stepped out of the shower. “I like being stuck with you. I like it when you come in and watch me shower. I like all of it.”
“You even like when I watch you sleep?”
“I even like when you watch me sleep.”
“Did you know that I watch you sleep sometimes?”
Jongup smiled, wrapping the towel around his waist and walking over to sit next to Himchan. “Junhong told me that he’s seen you wiping my drool.” He chuckled and rested his head on Himchan’s shoulder. “I love you Hyung, stop being all filled with doubt.” The elder of the two really loved the way that sounded coming out of Jongup’s mouth, far more than he ever liked it coming out of someone else’s mouth. “You’re exactly what I want.”
He wrapped his arms around his younger boyfriend’s waist. “You’re exactly what I want as well.”
“Not just because no one else would put up with how obsessive you get about things?”
“I’d even pretend not to be obsessive if it would make you stay.”
“Hyung, you are physically incapable of not being obsessed with something.” He chuckled a bit as he spoke. Although it might have been a true statement Himchan figured he could at least hide it a little bit more than he had been. It would take a lot of work but that didn’t mean he couldn’t. “It’s cute, don’t worry about it.”
Himchan whined and shoved Jongup gently. “Go get dressed so Hyung can feed you. The other members are probably eating more ramen with Yongguk, but you deserve better than that.”
It was the middle of the night when Himchan started feeling a little bit of separation anxiety. Jongup had been at the dance studio with Junhong all day and hadn’t even had time to call Himchan to tell him that he was alright. It was incredibly stressful and Himchan had been really proud of the way he hadn’t been freaking out and panicking. He had only thought about the possibility of Jongup leaving him four or five times. Maybe he was driving Yongguk a bit crazy, but it wasn’t his fault.
In order to combat the discomfort of not seeing Jongup all day he waited until everybody was asleep and then snuck into his boyfriend’s bed. Even if Jongup wasn’t awake that didn’t mean they couldn’t still be together. He just needed to be around Jongup for a little bit. “Hyung?” Jongup groaned, apparently he had been woken up. “If you’re going to sneak into my bed it’s better not to kneel on my hand.”
“Sorry Baby.” He apologised, climbing under the blankets to wrap his arms around Jongup’s body. The teenager knew better than to ignore Himchan all day and the elder of the two wanted to whine until he got an apology.
Jongup curled into his body, nuzzling his face against his boyfriend’s chest. “Just go to sleep Hyung?” He wrapped his fingers in Himchan’s shirt, pressing themselves as close to each other as he could manage. “Are you upset because I was gone all day?” At least he knew that he had done wrong, Himchan figured as he nodded his head. Jongup sighed softly and it made him regret getting into the bed at all. He could have just been like a normal person and that would have made things way better. He knew Jongup was going to get tired of his issues. “I’m sorry it took all day for us to get the choreography down, Channie…”
Himchan shook his head, feeling even more guilty for making Jongup say that he was sorry. He was his own person and he was allowed to exist outside of Himchan. “Don’t be sorry…” He tightened his grip on Jongup and kissed the top of his head. The teenager had done nothing wrong.
“I know how you get Hyung. I could have called you.”
“I was fine.” Himchan lied, “I was just having trouble sleeping so I decided to come join you. I didn’t mean to wake you.” He pet the back of the teenager’s head. He wasn’t about to make his boyfriend feel bad for doing his job, that wasn’t the kind of person he was. Not at all. “I just hung out with Guk-ah. We did music stuff. He wrote some songs and I didn’t really do anything because he didn’t want to give me any lyrics. The usual, you know?”
“Stop lying Hyung. I know how you get and I told you that I like it.” The teenager sat up and rolled Himchan onto his back, quickly moving to straddle the elder male before he could move to escape. “You make me feel special with all of it. Don’t feel bad, okay?” He bend down and carefully pressed his lips against Himchan’s, smiling a bit when Himchan relaxed.
“A whole day is really long…” Himchan looked down.
The teenager nodded his head, gently massaging Himchan’s 1q you do it.” He pouted a bit and rubbed his butt gently on Himchan’s crotch. “I should make it up to you.”
Himchan nodded, bringing his hands up to the younger male’s hips. “You should. Tomorrow though.” He nodded, surprised with himself even. “Too tired right now.” It was incredibly exhausting freaking out because one’s boyfriend was so far away. He was surprised he even stayed up long enough to get to see Jongup at all that day. “You owe me tomorrow though.”
The next morning Jongup was still in Himchan’s arms and that made him think the day was going to be a fantastic day. He knew they had no schedules and that meant that he and Jongup could just be together even if the others had to be around as well. He was great at ignoring the other members of the group. Especially that asshole Daehyun.
“You’re doing the watching thing again, Hyung.” He heard Junhong mumble from the other side of the room. He normally would have gotten upset at comments on his actions but he was trying to remind himself that Jongup didn’t mind and even claimed to enjoy it. “Come out and cook with me and then you can stare at Jongup hyung later.”
Himchan whined softly but unwrapped himself from Jongup’s body. “I wasn’t watching. I was just noting.” He mumbled once he had caught up to the youngest member of the group. He hadn’t been awake long enough for it to be watching.
“You don’t have to defend yourself, Hyung.” Junhong told him as he dug though the pantry to look for ingredients for breakfast. “Jonguppie hyung likes how you are, even if you’re addicted to him. My words not his.” He smiled and started scooping rice, beans, and spices into the rice cooker. “You aren’t going to have to share him today. We all agreed to let you two be alone for sex or whatever it is you do. We won’t even judge if you just stare at him from a distance.”
“I don’t do that Junhong.”
“You totally do that. Like every time you’re in the same room as him.”
Himchan felt his face flushing and he tried his hardest not to start getting upset. He wasn’t doing anything wrong. “You just don’t understand what it’s like.” There wasn’t really a better defence for him actions at this point. He wasn’t getting upset though. He was totally fine.
Junhong laughed a bit and reached over to pat Himchan on the shoulder. “He likes how you are, it doesn’t matter what you do as long as it makes him happy.” He smiled brightly. “Ignore the other hyungs, they don’t understand love I guess.”
“And you do?”
“Nope, not at all but I see the way you and Hyung stare at each other. Now cook.” He dropped the ingredients in front of Himchan and wandered back over to the rice cooker. “The others are going to want breakfast when they wake up. Make something special so you can charm Jongup out of his pants~”
After allowing himself to register the words coming out of Junhong’s mouth, Himchan chuckled softly and tossed some garbage in his general direction. “Yah~ you don’t know what you’re talking about. Stop being perverted.”
“Stop being perverted, Junhong-ah. You know it traumatised Bang Leader when you’re that way. Cook instead.” Daehyun’s obnoxious voice came across the kitchen and Junhong turned around to flip him the bird. “Hyung~ Junhonggie is being disrespectful to his hyungs~”
Pairing: Himup
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Himchan is obsessed with Jongup, but it’s not like the teenager minds it.
I wrote this for a fic exchange but they stole our work.
Nobody knows Moon Jongup like Kim Himchan. They don’t understand the way he talks or the things he wants, and Jongup honestly likes it that way. The older male gives extra attention to him because he knows that their other friends don’t have anything to offer. The others all think he’s dumb, but he’s just locked inside himself. Himchan thinks that he’s brilliant, but none of the others can see it.
One of Himchan’s favourite things to do is to go with Jongup to the dance studio and watch the teenager practice without the others. None of the others can keep up with him so most of the time he doesn’t get to dance the way he wants during practice, but even after constant practice he still wants to dance more. “I wish they wouldn’t say things like that, Hyung.” He mumbled when there was a pause in the music.
Himchan looked up at him, not sure exactly what the teenager was referring to this time. “Things like what?” He asked, leaning back against the wall as another American hip hop song started playing over the radio.
The younger male didn’t answer immediately; instead he started moving his body. As always, Himchan was more than impressed at the way the teenager moved, he wasn’t sure if the dance was choreographed or not but Jongup always moved exactly with the song. If he was improvising then Himchan figured he was the most talented person he had ever met.
Once the song ended Jongup came over to Himchan, dripping sweat and breathing heavy. If it had been anyone other than Jongup, Himchan wouldn’t have reached over with a towel to wipe his face. “They always say I’m hard to understand or that my brain doesn’t connect. It’s not my fault they don’t understand.” Himchan agreed with him. Just because the others didn’t understand something didn’t mean that it was wrong.
“I know that.” He smiled at the teenager and wiped at his sweat again. “Don’t worry about those guys, okay? They just don’t know any better.” He dropped the towel on Jongup’s head and eased himself up off of the ground. “Let’s go shower so we can go home and watch television.” He offered his hand for the sweaty teenager and pulled him up off of the ground. “I’ll even supervise you while you shower.”
The teenager allowed himself to be pulled up, smiling brightly as usual. ”You’re such a generous hyung.” He smacked at Himchan’s arm gently before starting to lead the way to the changing rooms. Himchan knew the younger boy didn’t mind if he watched, and that there was a good chance he would show off for his favourite hyung in the shower. It was a very fun game that they liked to play, at least that was how Himchan chose to think of it.
“I know it.” He let the teenager pull him to the bathroom and sat himself on the bench outside of the showers. “Hyung won’t let anyone other than himself see you naked~”
“Selfish?”
“Very.” He smiled, crossing his arms over his chest as Jongup started pulling his clothing off. He chews his lip as the teenager pushed his gym shorts down, showing that he - as usual - had foregone underwear for the day. “You really should start wearing boxers. The fans talk about it.”
“What if you suddenly decide you need a quickie and I’m wearing too many clothes?”
“The bigger problem would be getting my pants off and you know it.”
Jongup chuckled, reaching over to turn on the water to the shower. It would take a few minutes before the water was warm, but Himchan wasn’t going to complain about the opportunity to stare at Jongup nude for a little while longer. “One day Junhong is going to see you like that and I’m going to laugh as he teases you.”
The bigger risk to Himchan’s dignity would be if Daehyun ever caught them having sex. First he would mock Himchan endlessly about bottoming for someone so short and then he would take pictures to show the others and bring them in on the fun. Daehyun was an asshole that way. “Just start touching yourself or something?” He pouted just from the thought of the entire group teasing him for being a bottom.
“Why would I do that here?”
“Because you love your hyung.” He waved his hand in the general direction of Jongup’s crotch and waited for the young male to do something. “Give him a show. That’s how you show love to people.”
“That’s not how you show love Hyung.”
“Since when?”
“Since always~” He smiled and threw his sweaty tank top at Himchan before stepping under the water. Himchan watched as the water dripped down his torso, whining softly when Jongup didn’t touch any part of his body. “You know it’s not Hyung, you’re sappy as hell.” He couldn’t deny that. He loved to spoil Jongup and whenever he had the chance he bought him gifts or told him that he thought Jongup was perfection.
Himchan stuck his tongue out and crossed his legs in front of him on the bench. “Doesn’t mean you can’t give Hyung a gift.” He smiled, “Remember how much he invests in you Jonguppie?”
The younger boy just turned around and started lathering soap into his hair, apparently he wasn’t going to give Himchan a show. At leas the elder could think about the way Jongup’s hips rolled at dance practice when he got lonely at night. “We’re going to Singapore soon. Are we going to switch rooms?” He asked, scrubbing his scalp. “Or do you want to stay with Yongguk hyung again like in America?”
Himchan hummed softly. He had stayed with Yongguk on the world tour because he had thought that was what Jongup wanted him to do. “What do you want?”
“I always want to stay with you.” He turned around so he could rinse the soap from his hair, closing his eyes, and - in Himchan’s opinion - looking like the most beautiful thing that had ever existed on the whole planet. “I thought you were getting tired of me.”
The elder of the two scoffed slightly. The chances of him getting tired of Jongup were less than non-existent. The more likely scenario was that Jongup was going to get tired of Himchan and get annoyed with Himchan being a pervert. “I’m not going to get tired of you, Jongup-ah. You’re stuck with me. As long as you want me, I mean.”
Jongup shrugged as he stepped out of the shower. “I like being stuck with you. I like it when you come in and watch me shower. I like all of it.”
“You even like when I watch you sleep?”
“I even like when you watch me sleep.”
“Did you know that I watch you sleep sometimes?”
Jongup smiled, wrapping the towel around his waist and walking over to sit next to Himchan. “Junhong told me that he’s seen you wiping my drool.” He chuckled and rested his head on Himchan’s shoulder. “I love you Hyung, stop being all filled with doubt.” The elder of the two really loved the way that sounded coming out of Jongup’s mouth, far more than he ever liked it coming out of someone else’s mouth. “You’re exactly what I want.”
He wrapped his arms around his younger boyfriend’s waist. “You’re exactly what I want as well.”
“Not just because no one else would put up with how obsessive you get about things?”
“I’d even pretend not to be obsessive if it would make you stay.”
“Hyung, you are physically incapable of not being obsessed with something.” He chuckled a bit as he spoke. Although it might have been a true statement Himchan figured he could at least hide it a little bit more than he had been. It would take a lot of work but that didn’t mean he couldn’t. “It’s cute, don’t worry about it.”
Himchan whined and shoved Jongup gently. “Go get dressed so Hyung can feed you. The other members are probably eating more ramen with Yongguk, but you deserve better than that.”
It was the middle of the night when Himchan started feeling a little bit of separation anxiety. Jongup had been at the dance studio with Junhong all day and hadn’t even had time to call Himchan to tell him that he was alright. It was incredibly stressful and Himchan had been really proud of the way he hadn’t been freaking out and panicking. He had only thought about the possibility of Jongup leaving him four or five times. Maybe he was driving Yongguk a bit crazy, but it wasn’t his fault.
In order to combat the discomfort of not seeing Jongup all day he waited until everybody was asleep and then snuck into his boyfriend’s bed. Even if Jongup wasn’t awake that didn’t mean they couldn’t still be together. He just needed to be around Jongup for a little bit. “Hyung?” Jongup groaned, apparently he had been woken up. “If you’re going to sneak into my bed it’s better not to kneel on my hand.”
“Sorry Baby.” He apologised, climbing under the blankets to wrap his arms around Jongup’s body. The teenager knew better than to ignore Himchan all day and the elder of the two wanted to whine until he got an apology.
Jongup curled into his body, nuzzling his face against his boyfriend’s chest. “Just go to sleep Hyung?” He wrapped his fingers in Himchan’s shirt, pressing themselves as close to each other as he could manage. “Are you upset because I was gone all day?” At least he knew that he had done wrong, Himchan figured as he nodded his head. Jongup sighed softly and it made him regret getting into the bed at all. He could have just been like a normal person and that would have made things way better. He knew Jongup was going to get tired of his issues. “I’m sorry it took all day for us to get the choreography down, Channie…”
Himchan shook his head, feeling even more guilty for making Jongup say that he was sorry. He was his own person and he was allowed to exist outside of Himchan. “Don’t be sorry…” He tightened his grip on Jongup and kissed the top of his head. The teenager had done nothing wrong.
“I know how you get Hyung. I could have called you.”
“I was fine.” Himchan lied, “I was just having trouble sleeping so I decided to come join you. I didn’t mean to wake you.” He pet the back of the teenager’s head. He wasn’t about to make his boyfriend feel bad for doing his job, that wasn’t the kind of person he was. Not at all. “I just hung out with Guk-ah. We did music stuff. He wrote some songs and I didn’t really do anything because he didn’t want to give me any lyrics. The usual, you know?”
“Stop lying Hyung. I know how you get and I told you that I like it.” The teenager sat up and rolled Himchan onto his back, quickly moving to straddle the elder male before he could move to escape. “You make me feel special with all of it. Don’t feel bad, okay?” He bend down and carefully pressed his lips against Himchan’s, smiling a bit when Himchan relaxed.
“A whole day is really long…” Himchan looked down.
The teenager nodded his head, gently massaging Himchan’s 1q you do it.” He pouted a bit and rubbed his butt gently on Himchan’s crotch. “I should make it up to you.”
Himchan nodded, bringing his hands up to the younger male’s hips. “You should. Tomorrow though.” He nodded, surprised with himself even. “Too tired right now.” It was incredibly exhausting freaking out because one’s boyfriend was so far away. He was surprised he even stayed up long enough to get to see Jongup at all that day. “You owe me tomorrow though.”
The next morning Jongup was still in Himchan’s arms and that made him think the day was going to be a fantastic day. He knew they had no schedules and that meant that he and Jongup could just be together even if the others had to be around as well. He was great at ignoring the other members of the group. Especially that asshole Daehyun.
“You’re doing the watching thing again, Hyung.” He heard Junhong mumble from the other side of the room. He normally would have gotten upset at comments on his actions but he was trying to remind himself that Jongup didn’t mind and even claimed to enjoy it. “Come out and cook with me and then you can stare at Jongup hyung later.”
Himchan whined softly but unwrapped himself from Jongup’s body. “I wasn’t watching. I was just noting.” He mumbled once he had caught up to the youngest member of the group. He hadn’t been awake long enough for it to be watching.
“You don’t have to defend yourself, Hyung.” Junhong told him as he dug though the pantry to look for ingredients for breakfast. “Jonguppie hyung likes how you are, even if you’re addicted to him. My words not his.” He smiled and started scooping rice, beans, and spices into the rice cooker. “You aren’t going to have to share him today. We all agreed to let you two be alone for sex or whatever it is you do. We won’t even judge if you just stare at him from a distance.”
“I don’t do that Junhong.”
“You totally do that. Like every time you’re in the same room as him.”
Himchan felt his face flushing and he tried his hardest not to start getting upset. He wasn’t doing anything wrong. “You just don’t understand what it’s like.” There wasn’t really a better defence for him actions at this point. He wasn’t getting upset though. He was totally fine.
Junhong laughed a bit and reached over to pat Himchan on the shoulder. “He likes how you are, it doesn’t matter what you do as long as it makes him happy.” He smiled brightly. “Ignore the other hyungs, they don’t understand love I guess.”
“And you do?”
“Nope, not at all but I see the way you and Hyung stare at each other. Now cook.” He dropped the ingredients in front of Himchan and wandered back over to the rice cooker. “The others are going to want breakfast when they wake up. Make something special so you can charm Jongup out of his pants~”
After allowing himself to register the words coming out of Junhong’s mouth, Himchan chuckled softly and tossed some garbage in his general direction. “Yah~ you don’t know what you’re talking about. Stop being perverted.”
“Stop being perverted, Junhong-ah. You know it traumatised Bang Leader when you’re that way. Cook instead.” Daehyun’s obnoxious voice came across the kitchen and Junhong turned around to flip him the bird. “Hyung~ Junhonggie is being disrespectful to his hyungs~”