with *hugs* for all :-D
A wise man once said that those who are happy and busy do not write in diaries because they are too busy living, and I am glad to say that that has been the case for me recently :-)
I'm continuing to plan for my trip with nyarhotep to see Sandra up in the land of maple syrup on Oct 18-24, which is going to be wonderful I know, and so does she, as long as we can remember to let go of nervousness and expectations ;-) I continue to be grateful for her presence in my life, and just the thought of her thinking of me with love in her heart is a blessing for me in those times in which I feel lonely. And those times are coming less and less often, the more I think of her :-)
Work is going well, I'm very busy, and continuing to see that I am good at my job, even when I occasionally may be convinced that I am not, those periods of self-judgment are becoming gradually shorter and shorter. It was a few weeks early, but the store manager at my home store (which I've gotten to work at a few times for the first time in a few months) gave me a solid gold pin with the Walgreens mortar and pestle and the number 1 - because as of Oct 24, I will have been working at Walgreens for 1 year, which is a good milestone, one that I am proud to have reached :-)
I finished reading Gary Renard's new book titled Your Immortal Reality: How to Break the Cycle of Birth and Death. He is so wise, and irreverent and controversial and real...he shares his personal journey with A Course In Miracles, and has another series of talks with Arten and Pursah in this sequel to his first book The Disappearance of the Universe. He never puts himself forth as perfect, and he has a great sense of humor, along with being true to the nondualistic metaphysics of ACIM, along with its core of forgiveness, and I really appreciate him for his work. I just got a copy of his 2 CD set called The End of Reincarnation and I look forward to experiencing it :-)
Speaking of ACIM, another milestone for me - by the end of the week, I will have completed the workbook of A Course In Miracles! :-D This will have taken me approximately 2 years now to do all 365 lessons, which I have been told is a good speed for somebody my age *blushes* Anyways, I am again so grateful for Jesus for being this good work forth, it has had such a profound effect in my life, I have more peace, I am reminded to see others as they really are, perfect children of God instead of whatever my ego may be projecting upon them, not letting the outside world take my peace away...being calmer, and more centered, and more able to accept at times the infinite love and peace of God which we all truly deserve and which is flowing towards us in every holy moment...let me share with you these final lessons from the workbook, that are helping me to have a much more peaceful week than usual:
FINAL LESSONS
Introduction
1. Our final lessons will be left as free of words as possible. We use them but at the beginning of our practicing, and only to remind us that we seek to go beyond them. Let us turn to Him Who leads the way and makes our footsteps sure. To Him we leave these lessons, as to Him we give our lives henceforth. For we would not return again to the belief in sin that made the world seem ugly and unsafe, attacking and destroying, dangerous in all its ways, and treacherous beyond the hope of trust and the escape from pain.
2. His is the only way to find the peace that God has given us. It is His way that everyone must travel in the end, because it is this ending God Himself appointed. In the dream of time it seems to be far off. And yet, in truth, it is already here; already serving us as gracious guidance in the way to go. Let us together follow in the way that truth points out to us. And let us be the leaders of our many brothers who are seeking for the way, but find it not.
3. And to this purpose let us dedicate our minds, directing all our thoughts to serve the function of salvation. Unto us the aim is given to forgive the world. It is the goal that God has given us. It is His ending to the dream we seek, and not our own. For all that we forgive we will not fail to recognize as part of God Himself. And thus His memory is given back, completely and complete.
4. It is our function to remember Him on earth, as it is given us to be His Own completion in reality. So let us not forget our goal is shared, for it is that remembrance which contains the memory of God, and points the way to Him and to the Heaven of His peace. And shall we not forgive our brother, who can offer this to us? He is the way, the truth and life that shows the way to us. In him resides salvation, offered us through our forgiveness, given unto him.
5. We will not end this year without the gift our Father promised to His holy Son. We are forgiven now. And we are saved from all the wrath we thought belonged to God, and found it was a dream. We are restored to sanity, in which we understand that anger is insane, attack is mad, and vengeance merely foolish fantasy. We have been saved from wrath because we learned we were mistaken. Nothing more than that. And is a father angry at his son because he failed to understand the truth?
6. We come in honesty to God and say we did not understand, and ask Him to help us learn His lessons, through the Voice of His Own Teacher. Would He hurt His Son? Or would He rush to answer him, and say, "This is My Son, and all I have is his"? Be certain He will answer thus, for these are His Own Words to you. And more than that can no one ever have, for in these Words is all there is, and all that there will be throughout all time and in eternity.
LESSONS 361 to 365
This holy instant would I give to You.
Be You in charge. For I would follow You,
Certain that Your direction gives me peace.
And if I need a word to help me, He will give it to me. If I need a thought, that will He also give. And if I need but stillness and a tranquil, open mind, these are the gifts I will receive of Him. He is in charge by my request. And He will hear and answer me, because He speaks for God my Father and His holy Son.
~
*tears of joy*
Thank you, Jesus, for showing me the way to peace, for showing me that I am one with you, for smiling at me during meditation and for sharing your light with me and reminding me that that holy Light of Peace and Love and Joy is mine, has always been here in the deepest, truest part of my heart, and always will be with me, forever and ever, throughout all dreams of time and space, for the knowledge that I can never escape the truth of Who I Really Am, that I am a beautiful child of God, and that I am loved. Thank you. Thank you. Amen. And so it is.
I'm continuing to plan for my trip with nyarhotep to see Sandra up in the land of maple syrup on Oct 18-24, which is going to be wonderful I know, and so does she, as long as we can remember to let go of nervousness and expectations ;-) I continue to be grateful for her presence in my life, and just the thought of her thinking of me with love in her heart is a blessing for me in those times in which I feel lonely. And those times are coming less and less often, the more I think of her :-)
Work is going well, I'm very busy, and continuing to see that I am good at my job, even when I occasionally may be convinced that I am not, those periods of self-judgment are becoming gradually shorter and shorter. It was a few weeks early, but the store manager at my home store (which I've gotten to work at a few times for the first time in a few months) gave me a solid gold pin with the Walgreens mortar and pestle and the number 1 - because as of Oct 24, I will have been working at Walgreens for 1 year, which is a good milestone, one that I am proud to have reached :-)
I finished reading Gary Renard's new book titled Your Immortal Reality: How to Break the Cycle of Birth and Death. He is so wise, and irreverent and controversial and real...he shares his personal journey with A Course In Miracles, and has another series of talks with Arten and Pursah in this sequel to his first book The Disappearance of the Universe. He never puts himself forth as perfect, and he has a great sense of humor, along with being true to the nondualistic metaphysics of ACIM, along with its core of forgiveness, and I really appreciate him for his work. I just got a copy of his 2 CD set called The End of Reincarnation and I look forward to experiencing it :-)
Speaking of ACIM, another milestone for me - by the end of the week, I will have completed the workbook of A Course In Miracles! :-D This will have taken me approximately 2 years now to do all 365 lessons, which I have been told is a good speed for somebody my age *blushes* Anyways, I am again so grateful for Jesus for being this good work forth, it has had such a profound effect in my life, I have more peace, I am reminded to see others as they really are, perfect children of God instead of whatever my ego may be projecting upon them, not letting the outside world take my peace away...being calmer, and more centered, and more able to accept at times the infinite love and peace of God which we all truly deserve and which is flowing towards us in every holy moment...let me share with you these final lessons from the workbook, that are helping me to have a much more peaceful week than usual:
FINAL LESSONS
Introduction
1. Our final lessons will be left as free of words as possible. We use them but at the beginning of our practicing, and only to remind us that we seek to go beyond them. Let us turn to Him Who leads the way and makes our footsteps sure. To Him we leave these lessons, as to Him we give our lives henceforth. For we would not return again to the belief in sin that made the world seem ugly and unsafe, attacking and destroying, dangerous in all its ways, and treacherous beyond the hope of trust and the escape from pain.
2. His is the only way to find the peace that God has given us. It is His way that everyone must travel in the end, because it is this ending God Himself appointed. In the dream of time it seems to be far off. And yet, in truth, it is already here; already serving us as gracious guidance in the way to go. Let us together follow in the way that truth points out to us. And let us be the leaders of our many brothers who are seeking for the way, but find it not.
3. And to this purpose let us dedicate our minds, directing all our thoughts to serve the function of salvation. Unto us the aim is given to forgive the world. It is the goal that God has given us. It is His ending to the dream we seek, and not our own. For all that we forgive we will not fail to recognize as part of God Himself. And thus His memory is given back, completely and complete.
4. It is our function to remember Him on earth, as it is given us to be His Own completion in reality. So let us not forget our goal is shared, for it is that remembrance which contains the memory of God, and points the way to Him and to the Heaven of His peace. And shall we not forgive our brother, who can offer this to us? He is the way, the truth and life that shows the way to us. In him resides salvation, offered us through our forgiveness, given unto him.
5. We will not end this year without the gift our Father promised to His holy Son. We are forgiven now. And we are saved from all the wrath we thought belonged to God, and found it was a dream. We are restored to sanity, in which we understand that anger is insane, attack is mad, and vengeance merely foolish fantasy. We have been saved from wrath because we learned we were mistaken. Nothing more than that. And is a father angry at his son because he failed to understand the truth?
6. We come in honesty to God and say we did not understand, and ask Him to help us learn His lessons, through the Voice of His Own Teacher. Would He hurt His Son? Or would He rush to answer him, and say, "This is My Son, and all I have is his"? Be certain He will answer thus, for these are His Own Words to you. And more than that can no one ever have, for in these Words is all there is, and all that there will be throughout all time and in eternity.
LESSONS 361 to 365
This holy instant would I give to You.
Be You in charge. For I would follow You,
Certain that Your direction gives me peace.
And if I need a word to help me, He will give it to me. If I need a thought, that will He also give. And if I need but stillness and a tranquil, open mind, these are the gifts I will receive of Him. He is in charge by my request. And He will hear and answer me, because He speaks for God my Father and His holy Son.
~
*tears of joy*
Thank you, Jesus, for showing me the way to peace, for showing me that I am one with you, for smiling at me during meditation and for sharing your light with me and reminding me that that holy Light of Peace and Love and Joy is mine, has always been here in the deepest, truest part of my heart, and always will be with me, forever and ever, throughout all dreams of time and space, for the knowledge that I can never escape the truth of Who I Really Am, that I am a beautiful child of God, and that I am loved. Thank you. Thank you. Amen. And so it is.