Sleep, New, and OverSchedualing
Wow, I’m tired and I need sleep. So why you may ask am I up at 8am. Because I can’t sleep...My eyes are telling me to lay down and go back to sleep until at least 10am, but my brain feels as if it’s been put on overload for some reason. I don’t know what wrong with me lately. I have tons of thoughts flowing through my head and it feels like if I try to write them all down my hand will become sore, and I wont have enough time to go from one thought to the next. Which is why I am typing at the moment...maybe then I can get some of it out of my system. Not only can I not sleep because my brain is yelling at me to get up, even though my eyes are yelling at me to go back to sleep, but also because I keep waking up to me nose either being plugged, so it’s hard to breath out of my nose, or my nose is running, so I keep sniffling. Then there is my back which is killing me...I have no clue why it hurts so much, I woke up like this yesterday, and I thought that it was because I needed my back cracked, but I guess I was wrong, because it’s still killing me, and I just want it to stop. I need a neck rub, and a back rub...that would make me feel better. I think the reason that my nose is bugging me might be because of my allergies, I mean it’s sunny all the time now, and people keep mowing their lawns. Not to mention the dust that I can feel on my skin at this very moment when I’m in my house right now. But I can’t do anything about my allergies...because I ran out of my Zyrtec, and my mom can’t buy anymore yet, because she doesn’t get paid until next week.
I was just listening to the news and they are talking about the 4 yr old boy who went missing and that it was his grandma who killed him. I can’t believe that someone would hurt a little kid, or any kid for that matter. Even though the two kids across the street bug me a lot, I would never do anything to harm them. How can his grandma sleep at night after what she did. I was watching this story about that little boy since he went missing, something about it just told me to keep watching it, so I did whenever I was awake. It was kinda like the whole Miranda and Ashley (the two girls who went missing in I think it was NE Portland) Something inside of me just told me to keep watching, so I did, then on the night they found the bodies, I was watching for hours straight. I would wake up and be watching that channel, I would fall asleep watching that channel. I felt so bad for them, and their families, and now this little boy, who was only 4. I can’t imagine what the parents are thinking or feeling right now, and knowing that his grandma was the one that did it. I wish there was something I could do for them, but I don’t know what.
I feel as if I have over scheduled myself this month. I am hanging out at the mall later today with Kimberly. Tomorrow I will be going to Tiffany’s house. The next day I’ll be coming home after me & the other people at Tiffany’s house go and see a movie (Bewitched). I have my volunteering on Friday, and Saturday...on the 15th at like 10:30pm I’m going down to Clackamas Town Center, so that I can go and get my Harry Potter book, then I might talk to Craig before then and ask him if he could maybe come and meet me down there and give me a ride home. Otherwise I will be screwed. Then I would have to wait until the 17th before I got my Harry Potter book, which would really suck!!! Seeing as I am also going to Tiffany’s on the 16th for her b-day thing. She said that she invited Brandon to it, but I highly doubt that he will go. Lately it seems as if both Mike and Brandon are too busy with their jobs that they can’t have a social life. Mike wanted me to have Tiffany and everyone else drop what we were doing just to change the date of the movie on the 5th. Because he can’t go to it. So he was trying to get me to get people to go today, or on the 4th, or on the 6th, on a day that would work for him. But he didn’t get that we all already had other plans for those days. So his loss. Then he said that once he can drive other people in his car (which should be sometime in January) that he will hand out with me, & my group of friends, however I don’t think that he realizes that once January comes I will be back at school, and after this last school year, I’ll be super lucky if my mom lets me have a social life. I can already tell you that I am not going to be hanging out with anyone the whole school year, because I will be too busy trying to make sure that I do my homework. I am not going to let myself fail this year. I will let myself get a “D” but nothing lower!
My laundry stopped...so I must be going now. I will have a longer version of this in my Greatest Journal if you would like to know more of all the things going on in my head. Love you all. Stay cool.