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[iamspiffycarlie]

yet another month has passed without an u[date and i still have nothing to say.

but john reuben once said:
"I would like to be optimistic, but that doesn't line up with reality."
and i thought that went quite well with myself because people always tell me that i am pessimistic but that quote rationalizes it all.

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[iamspiffycarlie]

im not upset. and if being pessimistic is being upset then i've been upset fince i was at least eight or nine. evan used to tell me about it all the time, how i never looked at the positive stuff. theres no difference in who i am now and who i was before my dad died unless you go back a couple year and in that case i am a better person now.

john reuben also said:
"I remember when I used to be you before you became me." speaking of himself. that doesnt really tie in too well, but it was something that i liked when i frist heard it.

[utothe4th]

dude. don't listen to people.
i think that if you became a horribly optimistic person then you would be totally not cynical comment-ie and that's why i love you so much!!!
eeeeeee. my braaaaaain huurts.