I'm Gonna Stop Fighting IT

[ibatboi]

Yes... I am. half ways that is. I'm way too fucken paranoid about the whole relationship thing. But yeah.. i feel more mellow out now. Joshua is a good guy (i think i said that about all the others too) I just don't wanna get screwed over AGAIN. But dude!! This one is different, 'cause i known him a year now, all the others were like hi lets be b/

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[pdiotte]

*hands you cookies* Father can be annoying at times. Generally often :P

[ibatboi]

He's been in a very stupid, bad mood and he takes it on other people. Then he talks bad about gay people. i'm so fed up with it, i want to tell him. but my mom says no. so what the hell! anyway.. oh well, i will someday nobody stopping me. *hugs*

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[pdiotte]

That's terrible :( *hugs* You'll tell him eventually, and he'll have to live with it.

[anonymous]

never forget this:

when fear wins, love loses

when love wins, fear disappears

Good Stuff

[ibatboi]

Thanks for that little words of wisdom there. Your actually very right, and of course.. i known this for the longest ever time, but dude!! try to go through 7-8 relationships and think this way. anyway.. it scares me now, but i will eventually give all in and just let it flow, but thanks tons. kind, whoever you are. :D

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[anonymous]

its dudette actually :) I read your journal entry clicking from friends list to friends lists, and I had to post :)

and just try to think of things this way too: were the "relationships" you had earlier really that? or just flings? What you have with Josh now seems very real, and more of a realationship :)

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[ibatboi]

yeah. what i have now.. seems more clearer real everytime i go see him. :) thanks.
but the flings thing? uhm.. they were sopposebly relationship, like i had to actually go through the lets be boyfriends and and break up cycle. heh. yeah, but who cares now.. i'm giving this one a try. thanks.