i went to afterhours last night with tonia, and put it in my name that i was there. tonia and i were there for quite some time and who do i see come in; none other than the great JD ( Read more... )

JL picked me up after work last night. it was the first time we had officially met, and man, he was hot. i guess he must have thought i was hot too -- he could have easily walked right past me instead of saying hi and i never would have even known.

we came back to my room and went up to third floor to play brawl. we ended up playing brawl for like ( Read more... )

why are you so different around people? when you're around me, you aren't ever like that. you try so hard to be liked - i suppose you're always trying to impress, but last night just got annoying.

i think you're just upset.
because we didn't get to go out that one night you were planning for a long time.
because you don't see me as much as you used ( Read more... )

Libra: Can't make up your mind? It's okay! Don't be pressured into rushing a decision. .

sometimes my horoscopes are weirdly accurate. especially as of late.

boys decisions
next year decisions
tonight decisions

i'm not rushing.

 i had a dream where i was having some kind of party in the old house. JD and his cousin were there, but i barely saw the both of them until right around the end of the night. i saw them a few times briefly, but i guess i was busy talking to other people.  i remember seeing JD and knowing that everyone ws doing their part to hook us up by the end ( Read more... )

a round three was almost inevitable tonight ( Read more... )

i was so pumped to see JD last night. there was supposed to be an amazing pre-drink before the bar with the cousins. but JD never showed.

i was actually really disappointed. the idea was that i'd be able to progress forward. and instead, his cousin turned out to be seriously hot. but gay. and at the bar, was fresh meat - everyone wanted a piece. ( Read more... )

i had this dream where i was dating niagara falls steve.
weird.

JD and JL.

both cool, both good looking, and both want me.

how do i choose?

our critique began as all critiques begin, with doubt.

doubt became our narrative.

ours was a quest for a new story: our own.

and we grasp towards this new history driven by the suspicion that ordinary language couldn't tell it.

our past appeared frozen in the distance and our every gesture and accent signified the negation of the old world and the ( Read more... )