happy faces can be deceiving

[icankickurass]

one month. wow. rose you really need to hurry up

Comments

[leggomaeggo]

word
i feel exactly the same
i cant stop thinking about matt
its so wrong how everyone is ignoring whats going on
and pretending like everything is ok
because it really isnt
and when i lok at matts picture on my bulletin board, i wonder what its like in heaven and what hes doing and idk
but yea it sucks
alot

[ihearthersheys]

Holly, i'm right there with you. Memories of all three of them are constantly in my head. I can't stand it how some people are just going on with their lives like nothing's wrong or nothing's changed. Everything's changed. I can't race Matt to history anymore, we don't have Matt or Rose to procrastinate our Lit projects with anymore and Jon's not making anymore diabetic Jew jokes at lunch. I feel like everyone let themselves cry and mourn for a week and then after that its like 'ok well we cried so that makes it ok now'. It doesn't make it okay. I've cried so much this past month. You should let yourself cry too. Not necessarily at school or with your parents, but just at night when you're alone in your room or something. It feels better to let it all out than to hold it in. And if someone happens to catch you crying, so what? They don't know what you're going through and their lying for them to say that they do. Just tell them that you were remembering old times spent with Matt and Rose. They'll understand. The part that scares me