there was once i a time when i knew exactly what i wanting, and exactly what i wanted to do... but as i sat outside today i realized that i was lost in this messed up world again... there's been only one person on my mind and i wish he'd just go away, but i can't help but feel that him and i aren't really over. i feel that what we had was just the ( Read more... )

i dont see what the fuck i did to ever deserve this kind of treatment. i meawn what the fuck!? what did i ever do to him for him to treat me like this!!!!??? i liked him for crying out loud and he treats me like i'm a piece of shit. i act like my crazy fucked up self and he tells me to go fuck off.... this is beyond the asshole stage far far far ( Read more... )

so i'm tired of the whole "i cant be in a relationship with you" thing. twice in one month... what am i really that bad of a person to where it always ends the same, they ask me out i say yes then they say "this isnt goning to work". guys blow themselves hardcore....GRRRRRRR ( Read more... )

Add 1 thing to the fuck list IN 20 MINUTES or you'll have a FUCKED up 20 days ( Read more... )

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so yeah... things have been really boring latly... i have nothing to do at night anymore, and nothing to look forward to. i mean i used to have a phone call or a text convo to look forward to but now theres nothing... it's rather depressing ( Read more... )

people want the truth but yet alls i get are lies on top of lies. theres nothing that i hate more then when someone lies! i miss him i truly do, i didnt want to care this much, i didnt want to aknowlege my true feelings, for i knew that if i did that, that i'd be worse off then i am now or so i thought. truth is... is that i'm probably worse off ( Read more... )

so going on 5 hours of sleep the last two nights...not fun. i couldnt sleep last night because i was thinking that i did something wrong, he doesnt wana hang out with me and hardly has been talking. so i'm thinking he may not want to be with me or that i did something to piss him off...idk i'm paranoid... not really but yeah. school sucks... exams ( Read more... )

yup yup thats me! i'm a weirdo... yeah so anyways...how bout that update ( Read more... )

so yeah... even though i said i was through i'm not... hehe suckers ( Read more... )