Answer Me This:

[icecream4ciara]

Have I always had a moral code and a sense of honor? I'm not suggesting that I've had these in common with anyone else, but possibly my own moral code and sense of honor? 
I thought I was so  stong.
When did I begin to hear the word promise as a predecessor to a lie? When did I stop making promises?

I thought I was so strong. I keep wondering why I

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[orphanedmage]

Its the fallout of the relationship. I don't know how much this will help, but it does go away, you move on and when you find someone again the pain isn't there. It will always hurt, there will always be that pain of loss, but right now you are feeling it with every part of you, eventually it will only be when something poignant reminds you of them.
{hugs}
-Phil

Its not a breakup

[icecream4ciara]

Dude, thats not even the case. I'm dealing with more than just a break-up here. This is more than just a break-up. I wish I could tell the whole story. I want to spill the beans. But its been about 5 serious situations I'm dealing with. Yes there is a good chance I'll get over all of them. But I want you to know the breakup with Al, dispite his later harrisments, was the relief in the past few months

Re: Its not a breakup

[orphanedmage]

Sorry hun, that's just the only thing it seemed you've been posting about and the only thing I have personal experience with.
If there's anything I can do, please tell me.
{hugs}
-Phil

Re: Its not a breakup

[icecream4ciara]

Phil you're wonderful. But I think the only thing that I can really post about on Live journal is the breakup. The other problems are too much for people to know about or they involve parties with internet access. Before recently I've only ever hated one person. Now its like 3 and I seriously can't trust men ever ever again.
I'd hate to talk about it too much. I'd hate to trow any burden on those who would attempt to carry it. Thats not what I need. I wish I knew what I needed. I think I need a true friend, and real love, nothing to do with a lover or sex or men. But just to set my heart free.
The other day I was my self again for just a few short hours. And I need to find that more often.