because it is worth repeating.

[iceicekatie]

it's like we just met. when i pinned my bangs back for the very first time that year. & the homely girl warning me from her backseatrightwindow telling me you were nothing but trouble. says who. i've never known anyone to be so genuinely good. no poisons, no labels, no lies. red striped shirt, redeyeshadowcirclesaroundmyeyes. green below me &

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[redpopsicle]

that was fucking beautiful.

[whitelikeasaint]

it makes me feel not exactly uncomfortable to read the things you write because i see myself in them a lot, only i am the one who is just starting and nervous and wishing and you are the one who has been through it and came out laughing. how long has it been with you two, and how do you keep the beautiful parts from scaring you?

also, it mostly makes me sad to know that you know what i mean. in response to your note.

[iceicekatie]

everything that you said, i can counter it with feelings just like that. only you started later than me & i "came out laughing" though sometimes i also STILL coming out shouting & crying & swearing & right back down to laughing again. its been over two years now, two years & something -- though it seems so much longer. when youre young, two years is such a chunk of your life; SO MUCH happens in that span of time & so much will continue to happen. the beautiful parts dont scare me half the time but they captivate me if anything & leave me scribbling on random envelopes & waking up to see a hair or two of his on the pillow next to me & aching for him to be there again. it reminds me of ME three years ago with my idle rockstar crush staring (&imeanit) at cd linings & leaving entire albums on repeat just to hear his voice & being amazed how that somehow molded into the rest of my life by a chance meeting. look at me rambling, wow. but you, meg. are a great girl.

[whitelikeasaint]

what i'm afraid of is that eight months means we sometimes fight about whether or not hatchets and tomahawks are the same thing, and who directed the black cauldron. i begin to wonder if we're doomed because he doesn't like baseball. in fact, i think about the word doom all the time. and all i can do is try to turn off my head and be kissy faced and have a good time but we are both born worriers. it makes me feel happy to see you so happy and surviving all the silly bad parts and being so strong. because i just want to zap forward a few years and be able to look back and sigh and say, "those were the days," with him.

anyway, you're inspiring and all. gosh i am ridiculous.

[newinfection]

i was going to post something wise-sounding but it always sounds weird and "duh"... so i'll just say it like this: don't think about it... the days, the months, etc, the time in general, and the scary moments are never as scary. In the immortal words of Lennon/McCartney, let it be.

i'm almost at 3 years now. that's over 15% of my life. sometimes i share him with scott and allow them to go on dates. i'm a liberal girl. haha.

Re: thats was a really good journal baby

[iceicekatie]

are you implying, scott doyle, that i do not have enough character to fend for myself whilst gapless? you of all people should know better. :) & yes. i smell amazing starting in 11 (!!!!) days. ilervyou. tomorrow can we hang outtt. you & your practicing all the time. bluh.

somebody better put me back down

[iceicekatie]

i was so happy when i was explaining everything to you & then i saw that i didnt even need to because you understood. you understood everything, you remembered & knew & goodness...youaresowonderful.

[localkid]

awwwww, makes me want to poop my pants. i wish some girl would write that about me. and then makeout with me too.

[stumbaline]

just to let you know, the skullfuck jesus picture I posted wasnt there because I thought it was "cool," or "funny." I thought it was the most inane thing I've ever seen, and thats why I put it there. Maybe, I should have wrote "look at the stupidest thing ever!" underneath.

--but I figured people would get the idea.