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Titled : My medicine…
Author : IchLiBeDi
Pairing ; Yoosu (of course… ^^)
Type : One Shot
Rating : PG
Summary : when Chunnie was sick and JunSu didn’t visited him and then YooChun ends up with a silly thought. (just read it by yourself) -> mostly from YooChun P.O.V
Titled : My medicine…
Author : IchLiBeDi
Pairing ; Yoosu (of course… ^^)
Type : One Shot
Rating : PG
Summary : when Chunnie was sick and JunSu didn’t visited him and then YooChun ends up with a silly thought. (just read it by yourself) -> mostly from YooChun P.O.V
Oh.. BTW… ehm… it was true that when Chunnie was sick JunSu didn’t visit him. I read this a long time ago, and as I remembered, it was before their debut. (it was posted somewhere, I forgot it where, sorry ) But for this time just consider they already debuted, to make it much easier. And remember, it’s just a fiction. All the scene that I make is not true. It’s just my imagination.
still un-beta-ing.. sorry for any grammar mistakes and all...
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I’ve been staying at the hospital for three days now, and he didn’t visit me, even made a call for me? What is happening here? How can he do that to me? I am his boyfriend, right? But why does he not even care about me? Does he tire of me? No, he will not, and he can’t be, I won’t allow it. But what about if it is true and he really wants to break-up with me? How can I live without him? He’s everything to me. I don’t want to break up with him.
This afternoon JaeJong hyung, YunHo and ChangMinnie were visiting me, but where he was? Where was JunSu? How come he didn’t visit me again? He must be know that I’m sick and have to stay at the hospital, right?
I asked YunHo, “Where’s JunSu?” and he just said that he was busy with his comeback at some show.
Some show? Yes, he is. He is set up by LSM to accompany the new artist Jang Li In to enter Korean market and to gain the popularity here in Korea.
I’m crying silently this time. I know it is silly for crying of something that I really don’t understand. But I don’t care, besides I am at the VIP room right now, no one will know. I’m crying not because I’m sad, but I feel like he is abandoning me over his popularity. I feel like I’m no-one to him, too. How dare he do this to me since every time he was sick I always stayed by his side, took care of him and everything. But what do I get right now? Nothing! I guess he is much happy performing with Jang Li In than take care of me. I know he’s not like that. He won’t leave me to some popularity but I need something to be blame of. I’m not a selfish boyfriend, but is it that hard just to give me a call?
I really didn’t know what to do right now! I’m stressed and I hate being at the hospital like this, crying like a baby who looses his mom. My family is in the USA. I don’t tell them that I am at the hospital. I don’t want to make them worried ‘bout me. I have no one here. I only have DongBang members here in Korea, and I’m glad with that. They are my family right now and they are precious to me. As JaeJoong hyung just like my umma, YunHo hyung like my appa, and ChangMin as my little brother. Well Junsu, he’s everything to me. He’s the most precious among four of them to me.
Actually, I’m a sensitive guy. I couldn’t live without no one besides me. I hate the feeling of being alone. I’m sure JunSu knew ‘bout that clearly, still he’s the one who does this to me. I can feel emptiness somewhere inside my heart. What I need exactly is not the medicine or my other members’ visit. What I want is just him. I want him to stay besides me and I just want him to take care of me.
I don’t know for how long I’ve been frowned with my thoughts. I’m startled when someone touches my arms.
“Chunnie… YooChunie… what are you thinking about?” Well, it’s him. It’s JunSu. He is visiting me finally but I can feel my anger is rising too when I see him. After abandoning me for three days, why all of a sudden does he appear in front of me?
“Huh! What? What are you doing here Mr. Kim JunSu? I think you are busy performing.” Oh, gosh… He looked good in my eyes though I still can sense the tiredness on his face. I feel I want to hug him, put him in my embrace. Just by feeling him can make me feel better.
“What are you talking about Chunnie?” I can see baffle in his roman.
“Nothing and Why are you here?” what a stupid, silly question is that? But I don’t care. I’m angry with him right now.
“I’m here to visit you of course. Are you alright?” He smiles brightly and sits at the chair besides my bed. I really miss his smile. His smile can bright my days, make me forget all the pain I have. but still, there is some angry left in me.
“Okay... So you already visit me right. You may as well go home now.” I don’t mean to be sarcastically but I don’t want to confront him right now. I feel tired suddenly.
“Chun… What are you talking about? I want to accompany you tonight since I’ve been busy with my schedule this past two days. But I have a break now so I want to take care of you of course.”
“No! Just leave me JunSu. I’m tired and I want to get some sleep.” I prepare myself to sleep, hoping that Junsu will leave me alone.
“Okay then, just sleep and I will stay here. I can sleep at the couch. It’s okay. Sleep well then.”
“NO! JUNSU! Don’t you understand my words? I don’t want you here. Just leave me alone.” I know I’m yelling at him right now, and he looked shock because it’s my first time yelling at him. But I don’t care, I just don’t want to see him here because it makes me love him even more, and I’m afraid that he will ask to break-up with me. Why am I saying like this? Because I can see the clue, (1) he didn’t visit me from day 1 till day 3 though he visit me now. (2) he even didn’t call me to say that he couldn’t visit me though at that time he got some works to do. (3) I just knew it.
“But…..” He is trying to give some excuses.
“No but JunSu! JUST LEAVE!” I become impatient. “You understand what I’m saying right?” and he just nods and gives me that looks, hurting look. I feel a bit guilty for him. But I’m mad at him. I know I need him and I can’t live without him. It’s just… I’m angry, disappointed and I’m afraid of being dumped by him.
“Okay, I’ll comeback tomorrow then.” he says almost whispering, and leaves me alone.
I feel like I want to chase him, hug him tightly and say I am sorry. But I quickly erase that from my mind. He deserves that, after ignoring me for three days and he even didn’t call me at all. With that thinking on my mind, I am easily falling asleep since I can’t sleep for two days just because he didn’t visit me and when he does tonight. I know I will sleep like a dead person this time
- TOMORROW MORNING -
Ugh… what time is it? As I think and reach the table besides me to see what time is it, the clock shows 6 o’clock in the morning. Wow… cool! 6 o’clock? I try to go back to my slumber when suddenly I see someone is sleeping on the couch.
So I just go down from my bed and walk through the room to the couch to see who is sleeping there. I am shocked knowing that it is him. It is JunSu who sleeps there. He looked so cute and innocence when he is sleeping. I feel sorry for him after such a yelling I did to him yesterday. I was just tired yesterday, and I hate doing nothing at hospital.
“Ya! JunSu-ya… JunSu… Wake up!” as I say as I gently shake his shoulder.
“Ugh… I’m tired just let me sleep 15 more minutes, JaeJong hyung” He mumbles. I just smile hearing him. He thinks that he is sleeping at the apartment.
“Ya… JunSu… Wake up! Move to my bed then if you still sleepy!” I still shake his shoulder, but he keeps sleeping.
Since I know that sleeping on a couch isn’t comfortable enough I lift him from the couch and rest him on the bed. He’s so light. Huff… I guess I have to make sure he eats properly next time. Since I can’t sleep anymore, I walk to the bathroom and take a shower. I change the hospital gown with my ordinary clothe, my own cloth. I don’t want to wear the hospital pajamas. I feel much better with this. I guess I’m ready to get out from the hospital this time. Talking about him, he really heals me by just being there for me. I can’t stop smirking, thinking about Junsu who is now sleeping peacefully at my hospital bed.
When I’m finished my shower and get dressed, I get out from the bathroom. I can see JunSu is still sleeping so I just sit at the chair besides the bed and watch him, well… exploring I guess. It’s not my first time exploring him actually. I know him inside and outside so well. But still I never get bored looking at him. He is a sweet boy and I love him. I love the way he is, his gesture, his pouting, his presence around me, his touch, his smile, his stubbornness, everything… I know I love him deeply and that is why I’m afraid of loosing him or even more scary if he stops loving me. I try not to think that way again, but the way he was ignoring me this past two days makes me think again ‘bout that. I’m just afraid that he stops loving me, and he will ask for a break-up with me. I can’t face the world if he do that to me. I don’t know how to live when he’s not with me.
I’m still exploring him when I see him slowly wake from his sleep.
“Good morning JunSu.” I say and smile at him.
“Good morning Chunnie.” He says and smiles. Suddenly he wakes up and goes down from the bed. I wonder he finally remembers that we’re not in our apartment.
“Why am I sleeping on the bed? As I remembered last night, I was sleeping on the couch? Are you alright right now?” He looks at me, confuse. I try to hide my laugh and put a serious look at him.
“By the way JunSu, as I remembered last night I asked you to leave. How came you slept on that couch? Didn’t you understand the words that I said?” I say, pointing the couch and pretend to be angry.
“Ugh… Chun… I’m… I’m…. “
“Yeah… What JunSu?”
“I didn’t want to leave you; I knew that you asked me to leave. But I miss you. I didn’t want to go back to the apartment and had no you on your bed. I want to see you when I woke up and when I’m going to sleep.” I can tell that his face suddenly becomes red when he adds the last sentence. That makes me happy. So he still concerns about me and loves me right.
“Huh! Really? You’re lying to me.” I’m pretending again. I want to see his reaction to this. “Don’t say you miss me. What were you doing this past three days? You never came to visit me nor gave me a phone call. NO JunSu, you didn’t do it!” I said sarcastically.
“I DID Miss you YooChun… I DID and I DO! I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you a phone call but I lost my phone and I didn’t have a time to buy the new one. I didn’t want to use someone’s phone to call you since I knew you would never answer that call if you didn’t know the number. But I did visit you every night.”
“Okay… Okay… Never mind ‘bout that phone call… You are right. I don’t like answer a phone whose number I don’t familiar with.” Interesting. “But… You visited me every night? When? Why Did I never see you?” I am the one who confuse this time. Did he visit me? When? How could I don’t know?
“At night Chunnie… When you were sleeping, I always came at midnight after the performance and the activities were finished.” He says with a low tone. “And I always went before you woke up because we needed to have a rehearsal in the morning, and then performance at the night. That’s why you didn’t see me.” He says almost choked. “But I DID Chunnie… I did see you before I was going to bed and when I woke up. I meant it when I said that I wanted to see you right before I was going to bed and when I woke up the next morning.” He tries his best to not break in front of me. “You know what? I can’t live without you and that’s true… You mean everything to me. Do you think I’m okay when I knew you were at the hospital? I was worried ‘bout you.” He makes a pause. “But you know I also had a job to do… And finally I can get a day off today, so I got a plan to stay with you the whole day.”
WOW… I’m shocked hearing all his explanation… So he really did visit me? Really? Or did he just lie?
“Chunnie… You don’t believe me right. Do you?” I can see right in his eyes that he is not lying. He never lies to me.
“It’s just… I thought you don’t love me anymore, so you never visited me, and I’m nothing to you, so you never called me when I was at the hospital. I just… I just… I just can’t believe it. But why didn’t you wake me up when you visited me? At least you should let me know that you were there for me.”
“YAH! How could you think of something bad like that?” He is angry now but not really angry. “Stop thinking like that! I love you Chunnie. You are everything to me. Don’t doubt my feeling, even my love for you. Don’t you dare to doubt it.” His voice becomes soften. “I didn’t wake you up because you were sick Chunnie. You needed more rest, that was why I never woke you up when I was here.” As he said that, he hugs me tightly like he’s afraid of loosing me, but before I can speak, he begins to speak once again.
“I Love you, Chunnie… I love you from the bottom of my heart. You are my world and you are my life. Don’t leave me, ever.”
I can’t say anything when he says those words to me. I don’t know I mean that much to him.
“I miss you Su…” I kiss his forehead. “It’s like years I don’t see you,” and I hug him tightly and give him a light kiss on his lips. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Chunnie” We kiss again, but this time it is a passionate kiss.
He is the best medicine for me when I’m sick. Just knowing that he cares about me and he stays beside me, that’s enough. And with that, I know I will face my new life with him. Knowing how much he loves me and how much I care for him, I will make him happy. I promise to myself that I will never leave you, ever.
I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIVE JunSu…
I will….
-End-
How?? Is it nice? Any comment??
The last part.. I don’t know, how I ended up like that... but it was okay i think.. XDXD
Author : IchLiBeDi
Pairing ; Yoosu (of course… ^^)
Type : One Shot
Rating : PG
Summary : when Chunnie was sick and JunSu didn’t visited him and then YooChun ends up with a silly thought. (just read it by yourself) -> mostly from YooChun P.O.V
Titled : My medicine…
Author : IchLiBeDi
Pairing ; Yoosu (of course… ^^)
Type : One Shot
Rating : PG
Summary : when Chunnie was sick and JunSu didn’t visited him and then YooChun ends up with a silly thought. (just read it by yourself) -> mostly from YooChun P.O.V
Oh.. BTW… ehm… it was true that when Chunnie was sick JunSu didn’t visit him. I read this a long time ago, and as I remembered, it was before their debut. (it was posted somewhere, I forgot it where, sorry ) But for this time just consider they already debuted, to make it much easier. And remember, it’s just a fiction. All the scene that I make is not true. It’s just my imagination.
still un-beta-ing.. sorry for any grammar mistakes and all...
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I’ve been staying at the hospital for three days now, and he didn’t visit me, even made a call for me? What is happening here? How can he do that to me? I am his boyfriend, right? But why does he not even care about me? Does he tire of me? No, he will not, and he can’t be, I won’t allow it. But what about if it is true and he really wants to break-up with me? How can I live without him? He’s everything to me. I don’t want to break up with him.
This afternoon JaeJong hyung, YunHo and ChangMinnie were visiting me, but where he was? Where was JunSu? How come he didn’t visit me again? He must be know that I’m sick and have to stay at the hospital, right?
I asked YunHo, “Where’s JunSu?” and he just said that he was busy with his comeback at some show.
Some show? Yes, he is. He is set up by LSM to accompany the new artist Jang Li In to enter Korean market and to gain the popularity here in Korea.
I’m crying silently this time. I know it is silly for crying of something that I really don’t understand. But I don’t care, besides I am at the VIP room right now, no one will know. I’m crying not because I’m sad, but I feel like he is abandoning me over his popularity. I feel like I’m no-one to him, too. How dare he do this to me since every time he was sick I always stayed by his side, took care of him and everything. But what do I get right now? Nothing! I guess he is much happy performing with Jang Li In than take care of me. I know he’s not like that. He won’t leave me to some popularity but I need something to be blame of. I’m not a selfish boyfriend, but is it that hard just to give me a call?
I really didn’t know what to do right now! I’m stressed and I hate being at the hospital like this, crying like a baby who looses his mom. My family is in the USA. I don’t tell them that I am at the hospital. I don’t want to make them worried ‘bout me. I have no one here. I only have DongBang members here in Korea, and I’m glad with that. They are my family right now and they are precious to me. As JaeJoong hyung just like my umma, YunHo hyung like my appa, and ChangMin as my little brother. Well Junsu, he’s everything to me. He’s the most precious among four of them to me.
Actually, I’m a sensitive guy. I couldn’t live without no one besides me. I hate the feeling of being alone. I’m sure JunSu knew ‘bout that clearly, still he’s the one who does this to me. I can feel emptiness somewhere inside my heart. What I need exactly is not the medicine or my other members’ visit. What I want is just him. I want him to stay besides me and I just want him to take care of me.
I don’t know for how long I’ve been frowned with my thoughts. I’m startled when someone touches my arms.
“Chunnie… YooChunie… what are you thinking about?” Well, it’s him. It’s JunSu. He is visiting me finally but I can feel my anger is rising too when I see him. After abandoning me for three days, why all of a sudden does he appear in front of me?
“Huh! What? What are you doing here Mr. Kim JunSu? I think you are busy performing.” Oh, gosh… He looked good in my eyes though I still can sense the tiredness on his face. I feel I want to hug him, put him in my embrace. Just by feeling him can make me feel better.
“What are you talking about Chunnie?” I can see baffle in his roman.
“Nothing and Why are you here?” what a stupid, silly question is that? But I don’t care. I’m angry with him right now.
“I’m here to visit you of course. Are you alright?” He smiles brightly and sits at the chair besides my bed. I really miss his smile. His smile can bright my days, make me forget all the pain I have. but still, there is some angry left in me.
“Okay... So you already visit me right. You may as well go home now.” I don’t mean to be sarcastically but I don’t want to confront him right now. I feel tired suddenly.
“Chun… What are you talking about? I want to accompany you tonight since I’ve been busy with my schedule this past two days. But I have a break now so I want to take care of you of course.”
“No! Just leave me JunSu. I’m tired and I want to get some sleep.” I prepare myself to sleep, hoping that Junsu will leave me alone.
“Okay then, just sleep and I will stay here. I can sleep at the couch. It’s okay. Sleep well then.”
“NO! JUNSU! Don’t you understand my words? I don’t want you here. Just leave me alone.” I know I’m yelling at him right now, and he looked shock because it’s my first time yelling at him. But I don’t care, I just don’t want to see him here because it makes me love him even more, and I’m afraid that he will ask to break-up with me. Why am I saying like this? Because I can see the clue, (1) he didn’t visit me from day 1 till day 3 though he visit me now. (2) he even didn’t call me to say that he couldn’t visit me though at that time he got some works to do. (3) I just knew it.
“But…..” He is trying to give some excuses.
“No but JunSu! JUST LEAVE!” I become impatient. “You understand what I’m saying right?” and he just nods and gives me that looks, hurting look. I feel a bit guilty for him. But I’m mad at him. I know I need him and I can’t live without him. It’s just… I’m angry, disappointed and I’m afraid of being dumped by him.
“Okay, I’ll comeback tomorrow then.” he says almost whispering, and leaves me alone.
I feel like I want to chase him, hug him tightly and say I am sorry. But I quickly erase that from my mind. He deserves that, after ignoring me for three days and he even didn’t call me at all. With that thinking on my mind, I am easily falling asleep since I can’t sleep for two days just because he didn’t visit me and when he does tonight. I know I will sleep like a dead person this time
- TOMORROW MORNING -
Ugh… what time is it? As I think and reach the table besides me to see what time is it, the clock shows 6 o’clock in the morning. Wow… cool! 6 o’clock? I try to go back to my slumber when suddenly I see someone is sleeping on the couch.
So I just go down from my bed and walk through the room to the couch to see who is sleeping there. I am shocked knowing that it is him. It is JunSu who sleeps there. He looked so cute and innocence when he is sleeping. I feel sorry for him after such a yelling I did to him yesterday. I was just tired yesterday, and I hate doing nothing at hospital.
“Ya! JunSu-ya… JunSu… Wake up!” as I say as I gently shake his shoulder.
“Ugh… I’m tired just let me sleep 15 more minutes, JaeJong hyung” He mumbles. I just smile hearing him. He thinks that he is sleeping at the apartment.
“Ya… JunSu… Wake up! Move to my bed then if you still sleepy!” I still shake his shoulder, but he keeps sleeping.
Since I know that sleeping on a couch isn’t comfortable enough I lift him from the couch and rest him on the bed. He’s so light. Huff… I guess I have to make sure he eats properly next time. Since I can’t sleep anymore, I walk to the bathroom and take a shower. I change the hospital gown with my ordinary clothe, my own cloth. I don’t want to wear the hospital pajamas. I feel much better with this. I guess I’m ready to get out from the hospital this time. Talking about him, he really heals me by just being there for me. I can’t stop smirking, thinking about Junsu who is now sleeping peacefully at my hospital bed.
When I’m finished my shower and get dressed, I get out from the bathroom. I can see JunSu is still sleeping so I just sit at the chair besides the bed and watch him, well… exploring I guess. It’s not my first time exploring him actually. I know him inside and outside so well. But still I never get bored looking at him. He is a sweet boy and I love him. I love the way he is, his gesture, his pouting, his presence around me, his touch, his smile, his stubbornness, everything… I know I love him deeply and that is why I’m afraid of loosing him or even more scary if he stops loving me. I try not to think that way again, but the way he was ignoring me this past two days makes me think again ‘bout that. I’m just afraid that he stops loving me, and he will ask for a break-up with me. I can’t face the world if he do that to me. I don’t know how to live when he’s not with me.
I’m still exploring him when I see him slowly wake from his sleep.
“Good morning JunSu.” I say and smile at him.
“Good morning Chunnie.” He says and smiles. Suddenly he wakes up and goes down from the bed. I wonder he finally remembers that we’re not in our apartment.
“Why am I sleeping on the bed? As I remembered last night, I was sleeping on the couch? Are you alright right now?” He looks at me, confuse. I try to hide my laugh and put a serious look at him.
“By the way JunSu, as I remembered last night I asked you to leave. How came you slept on that couch? Didn’t you understand the words that I said?” I say, pointing the couch and pretend to be angry.
“Ugh… Chun… I’m… I’m…. “
“Yeah… What JunSu?”
“I didn’t want to leave you; I knew that you asked me to leave. But I miss you. I didn’t want to go back to the apartment and had no you on your bed. I want to see you when I woke up and when I’m going to sleep.” I can tell that his face suddenly becomes red when he adds the last sentence. That makes me happy. So he still concerns about me and loves me right.
“Huh! Really? You’re lying to me.” I’m pretending again. I want to see his reaction to this. “Don’t say you miss me. What were you doing this past three days? You never came to visit me nor gave me a phone call. NO JunSu, you didn’t do it!” I said sarcastically.
“I DID Miss you YooChun… I DID and I DO! I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you a phone call but I lost my phone and I didn’t have a time to buy the new one. I didn’t want to use someone’s phone to call you since I knew you would never answer that call if you didn’t know the number. But I did visit you every night.”
“Okay… Okay… Never mind ‘bout that phone call… You are right. I don’t like answer a phone whose number I don’t familiar with.” Interesting. “But… You visited me every night? When? Why Did I never see you?” I am the one who confuse this time. Did he visit me? When? How could I don’t know?
“At night Chunnie… When you were sleeping, I always came at midnight after the performance and the activities were finished.” He says with a low tone. “And I always went before you woke up because we needed to have a rehearsal in the morning, and then performance at the night. That’s why you didn’t see me.” He says almost choked. “But I DID Chunnie… I did see you before I was going to bed and when I woke up. I meant it when I said that I wanted to see you right before I was going to bed and when I woke up the next morning.” He tries his best to not break in front of me. “You know what? I can’t live without you and that’s true… You mean everything to me. Do you think I’m okay when I knew you were at the hospital? I was worried ‘bout you.” He makes a pause. “But you know I also had a job to do… And finally I can get a day off today, so I got a plan to stay with you the whole day.”
WOW… I’m shocked hearing all his explanation… So he really did visit me? Really? Or did he just lie?
“Chunnie… You don’t believe me right. Do you?” I can see right in his eyes that he is not lying. He never lies to me.
“It’s just… I thought you don’t love me anymore, so you never visited me, and I’m nothing to you, so you never called me when I was at the hospital. I just… I just… I just can’t believe it. But why didn’t you wake me up when you visited me? At least you should let me know that you were there for me.”
“YAH! How could you think of something bad like that?” He is angry now but not really angry. “Stop thinking like that! I love you Chunnie. You are everything to me. Don’t doubt my feeling, even my love for you. Don’t you dare to doubt it.” His voice becomes soften. “I didn’t wake you up because you were sick Chunnie. You needed more rest, that was why I never woke you up when I was here.” As he said that, he hugs me tightly like he’s afraid of loosing me, but before I can speak, he begins to speak once again.
“I Love you, Chunnie… I love you from the bottom of my heart. You are my world and you are my life. Don’t leave me, ever.”
I can’t say anything when he says those words to me. I don’t know I mean that much to him.
“I miss you Su…” I kiss his forehead. “It’s like years I don’t see you,” and I hug him tightly and give him a light kiss on his lips. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Chunnie” We kiss again, but this time it is a passionate kiss.
He is the best medicine for me when I’m sick. Just knowing that he cares about me and he stays beside me, that’s enough. And with that, I know I will face my new life with him. Knowing how much he loves me and how much I care for him, I will make him happy. I promise to myself that I will never leave you, ever.
I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIVE JunSu…
I will….
-End-
How?? Is it nice? Any comment??
The last part.. I don’t know, how I ended up like that... but it was okay i think.. XDXD