so for the entire 45 seconds that i talked to jeannie today i somehow managed to be more of an asshole than i have been all week. not sure how i managed it and i realized that's how i act around her. im not sure what it is about her, but for some reason i get the urge to be as much of a fuck as i can be. it doesn't make any sense at all, when it ( Read more... )

so i finally found something that can take care of my ADD and it's freakin amazing. for once i actually got some shit done. on a side note i freakin love emo and indie chicks, for some reason they are so god damned cute, fuck the preppy chicks, crazily enough they have more issues then the emo ones lol ^.^

now i have to start living life sober :*( life is better as a drunken blur, but sometimes you have to deal with the pain and move on. that time is now. im gonna go home for thanksgiving, get my shit straight and do what i do best.

i dont get it at all. im single, im well off, life is so easy its not even funny. my roomate and i have both just gotten 2 ps3s and we will both be banking. my parents are in japan making serious cash and i have free vacations wherever i want to go. everyone tells me how lucky i am. i know so many people. truly i am living the good college life. so ( Read more... )

as i write this i have been drinking all night at parties, but it does nothing for me. i am so crazy. what is it about me that causes so much strife about myself ? i could pick up so many chicks in tally, but why is it that it feels so wrong. jeannie you bitch, what makes you so special. i was at the clubs and i met this chick that was chinese and ( Read more... )

it's a pity that i am so god damned picky when it comes to my chicks >.

it's so weird seeing alot of my friends failing out of college and figuring out what to do. college is so weird now, i just feel like a dead body floating on with the tide of life. i really want to wake up and start swimming, but im not really sure. as much as i like single life i'm beginning to be tempted to date again just to get some variety in ( Read more... )

fuck this shit. im tired of hanging out with people who do nothing. i need to get out and do shit. if these mother fuckers aren't goin out then im doin it alone. i can't stay at home like this and do nothing. i hate my apt cause i spend so much time being miserable here. and after all the shit that is goin on now i can't afford to be this miserable ( Read more... )

so my class load has gotten rediculous. i have a test in every single class this week and at this moment i should be studying. but i can't. i can't get my mind to focus on any one thing. it seems like my brain has been scattered to the 4 corners of the world and it feels like nothing will bring them back into one. as i've said before you don't ( Read more... )

I'm stupid , you're smarter ( Read more... )