sometimes it feels like i am barely scraping by. but today, i can say, i am actually satisfied (almost completely) with who i am. and that wasnt given to me by any fucking person i know, but me. so fuck most of you, and the few that actually give a shit what i feel like, or truly listen to my problems, even when you are busy with your own shit - ( Read more... )

fuck. i dunno why. i had A Lot of fun today at school, just because. and ive realized something... everyone gets hurt, but for years i have tried to fix all the problems, and when i couldnt, it made it worse, but i kept trying and failing at erasing all the pain. then i figured out that that pain is part of life, and that i have to accept it. i ( Read more... )

im over dramatic. but that doesnt make this any easier. i dont understand why it is that i am so hurt by all this, nobody did a damn thing wrong. its my own fault for not saying how i felt before. this is hard, i get so lonely sometimes, and i dont understand why, i feel like i dont mean as much to people as they do to me, and that sucks. i just ( Read more... )

seriously, fuck today. and tommorow. i hope it never comes.

damn man, when it rains it fucking pours. i wish i wouldve known it was pointless, it wouldve made it easier. i envy you, ya fucker...

oh shit, its like 215 am, and i have NOTHING better to do than update, or actually i could go to sleep, seeing as how i have to get up at 730, fuck that sucks...anyways, since im on, heres how turkeyday went ( Read more... )

happy thanksgiving to all! today was a lovely day, and i am enjoying my stay here in the ever-so-lovely detroit (or warren to be precise). i hope everyone in peoria is managing ok without me...haha, im sure that they are. anyways, overall im feeling better, ive decided to just relax and let things come as they will - which is hard, but for the best ( Read more... )

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you ( Read more... )

a chill breeze through the broken windows ( Read more... )

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