Gratitude and Sorrow

[idahophoenix]

Thank you so much for all the comments. I'm still just posting from phone...will reply individually when I get to a computer and will create the filter for talking about S and my experience. For now, trigger warning for pit bull attack and discussion of trauma

Comments

[krissypoo21]

Wow, bb. The repercussions will be long-lasting, I'm sure.

Lots of people love you both. If you ever need to talk, don't be afraid to call me. (If don't don't still have my number, message me.)

[idahophoenix]

Thanks so much sweets! I wouldn't hesitate to call...but actually am a little overwhelmed with the number of calls right now. We are blessed with incredible support.

[krissypoo21]

I'm so glad to hear that.

[indyakasha]

It's disorienting when something like this happens that changes so much so quickly, and your world does in fact stop for a little while, and you're kind of looking through a window at your life and all the things there you need to deal with. But those things will wait for you to get back to them. Take care of the credit card - one less thing on your mind - and the rest can wait.
Sending prayers that the pain and flashbacks will get better very soon.

[idahophoenix]

Disorienting is right. I got a full night's sleep last night and in some ways woke up more disoriented this morning without the adrenaline carrying me through. But this afternoon, I'm doing well and my beloved is sleeping. Yay.

[indyakasha]

Yay! So glad to hear you're both able to get some sleep. Best thing for healing, though it probably felt pretty surreal when you woke up. Still keeping you both in my thoughts. *hugs*

[sweet_poeia]

This too shall pass. Just focus on S (and ok, maybe just a quick call about the credit card). The other stuff will keep, and I don't think you'll hold what happened against all dogs any more than you would hold an individual human crime against all humans.

Call me if you need to talk. Love you, bb.

[idahophoenix]

Sweet_poeia--thank you so much. It really helped to hear that comment about dogs. A love for animals is so at the core of S's way of being in the world--I would hate to see that taken from her! She is really one tough amazon. I'm kind of in awe of her right now.

I'm doing pretty well. Love you too!!!!!!

[cathalin]

Oh man, I can so relate to all the mundane detail things that fly around in one's head... and I'd be right there with you on the messy house/procrastinated details on stuff/what did I leave out lol. Well, no one cares, bottom line. They're focused on big picture stuff, just as you are.

continuing thoughts with you both as you get through the next few days...

[idahophoenix]

C--thanks. Boy do you know this crisis mode stuff, yes? It is true that this experience really is cutting through all the B.S. and I find that we are being more real than ever with our friends and family about our life--our strengths and challenges. The amount of support we are getting is unbelievable. We were feeling really isolated in this community--and also as I've written about, dealt with a lot of homophobia. Well, not a whiff of it through this whole experience. People have been generous, loving and respectful to us both. Feeling such gratitude.

Sending big love and good energy your way. And hey, still let me know if you want that beta, it might actually be a good attention out thing for me.

[katekat1010]

this is part of the process too, bb. even the over thinking part. try and be as gentle with yourself as you can - i know you're doing that for Sparrowrhawk too. *massive massive hugs*

(also, don't worry about responding to comments ok? we will keep, seriously)

[idahophoenix]

Hon--it was actually really helpful to be reminded that responding to LJ comments probably didn't need to be another pressure I take on! I'm just having a quiet moment in the hospital and it feels good to connect. Sparrowhawk and I will both gladly accept the massive hugs!