now what?

[idiot_v]

I dunno. I don't want to get depressed. And if I do, it's worse on her because she picks up on these things (if I get sad, she feels even more sad, etc.). I suppose I could try going back to being Uncomfortably Numb..... a time when I could feel nothing, neither pleasure nor pain... but that's not living. And I dunno how that'd affect her

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*sighs* honestly

[kougadesu]

yeah i will admit im falling for someone but dont you know anything about long distance relationships? they rarely ever work out... *sighs* that upsets me... but this isnt about me, ...

you act like no one wants you. i just have to say that as much as i like you and wish to be friends, its just theres something missing. something that just cant work out that i feel i need in a relationship. dont ask me what i need. i do not know... i just feel certain vibes from Tosh that just makes me feel happy and i bet this upsets you to hear it but its better to come clean than to just beat around the bush.

im sorry, i really am that we couldnt make our relationship work but youmust go out and try again. you know someday there will be the perfect person for you. and dont tell me that i am that person because im not... i have my own issues and you dont know all of my feelings that i have.. no one does....

well please before you rip yourself apart, go out and find someone to make you happy and please dont say that person is me...