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Aug 17, 2005 12:33

I really don't enjoy how people have to tell me things through other people, especially when it's Melonie telling me these things. I'm sure you dramatized enough and then you had to tell Melonie, the person who would twist everything up even more just for the juicy factor eventhough she's not involved in it in any way. Why can't you just tell me ( Read more... )

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xandir1 August 18 2005, 04:44:49 UTC

well, thanks...i thought you really cared about us...and the relationships we had...we cared about you...tried as hard as we could and almost went crazy when we tried to help you with your "depression" always thought you'd be there to listen and understand....just as WE DID FOR YOU...and NEVER second guessed you or thought your opinons were garbage...but then again, you never voiced them or lied about them...sure, we all thought a few opinons we all had were stupid or odd...but everyone does...but hearing everything just now makes me feel like i've wasted so much time

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 04:51:09 UTC

I never lied, I just never spoke up so we could all avoid confrontation. I would never tell you that your opinions were garbage even now, but I'm happy you can tell me that mine are. You really think you guys helped me through anything...I felt like you guys just let me be about everything even the cutting, you just left me alone with it. I'm a little bit glad that you did though, because I know that I'm, now, strong enough to depend on myself. &I did at one point really care about you all, before I took my blinders off.

bettycantstop August 18 2005, 05:34:43 UTC

I left you alone with the cutting because YOU KNEW IT WAS STUPID.
It's called, "DOING IT FOR ATTENTION"
You know completely well that's the only reason.
There's no way to stop a cutter.

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 16:16:55 UTC

It was NEVER for attention. It was the only way I knew of to take the anger I had for myself out on myself. &one day I decided I would change the parts I hated instead of killing myself over them...that was my cutting experience.

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xandir1 August 18 2005, 04:45:39 UTC

what am i doing?

wasting my time

it ended badly

lets leave it at that

bye

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 04:47:27 UTC

Alrighty. Just don't be surprised if in school I'm civil and corgial with you. Because I never intended for it to end like this, or end so abruptly and completely. But it won't work out partially so this is how it needs to be...Bye Jimmy.

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 04:54:12 UTC

Eventhough you're "done" why on earth would you believe Melonie and use Melonie as a source for any kind of information? You've always hated her and you've always known she's full of bullshit...she'll sell anyone out for drama and a piece of the drama. good luck.

xandir1 August 18 2005, 05:04:20 UTC

and i only hated melonie because of you....i trusted your thoughts on her, but i never got the full story from the other side...and now i see the pieces of the puzzle coming together.

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xandir1 August 18 2005, 04:57:04 UTC

because im an asshole

i want to bring down your life

I never cared

i just used you

Im christian

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO HEAR? NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, NO EXPLAINATION

dont be cordial to me okay? dont act like you dont care? I want you out of my life

because again, its shit like this that makes me unhappy

YOU

xandir1 August 18 2005, 04:59:28 UTC

I wanted SOME clue as to what was going on in your life...BUT YOU NEVER TALKED to us anymore

you had nothing to say! And when we try to talk about it YOU GET DEFENSIVE. and if we try to close it, YOU GET DEFENSIVE, WHAT CAN I DO????

IF I DIDNT CARE, I WOULDNT RESPOND

xandir1 August 18 2005, 05:03:07 UTC

but now i dont know who you really are, because you never were you...and all we did was bring you down....so whats there to be done?

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 16:19:18 UTC

Was that supposed to make me feel guilty?

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bettycantstop August 18 2005, 05:39:26 UTC

I really don't understand how you can just all of a sudden stop caring.
Just give up.
I dont understand how the past 4 years could have been a lie.

idle_emotion August 18 2005, 16:21:19 UTC

It wasn't all of a sudden.
&It took me a while before I gave up and realized that I'm happier now.

Wow. spacewooly August 18 2005, 07:30:51 UTC

Well, I don't want to get into what is goin on here, I was just wondering why i have been getting blown off all summer. I think you are a cool person krystal and it is great to hear your opinions and have conversations with you. you seem like you would make a good friend and you said you wanted to be friends. Have you lost interest in being friends?