( The Smashing Pumpkins. )

I woke up this morning with a terrifyingly powerful migrane. I haven't had one like this since I was in fifth grade. School tomorrow, for sure. I feel terrible, I was actually sick today. So I shouldn't feel bad, but I do.

It's the color of your eyes.
The wanting you give me.
I just wish I could keep you.
&you could walk with me forever.

I won't stop. No way.
You're everything I need.
It's simple. Say yes or no.

I won't stop. No way.

o.O Can you feel it? It's sneaking up on me, but I know it's there...change can be a great thing if you allow it.

I went shopping today.
I bought Manda & Julie's gifts & they're nothing special, but they're cute and I almost bought Julie a barbie.
I purchased one pair of jeans that came with a teal-ish blue belt, a light green cardigan, a kelly green sweater, an orange half-zip polo, and two undershirts to wear under things; duh.
I also bought a tote & a cd; ( Read more... )

I had to wash my eyes so I could see clearly.

I'm not worth believing in...am I?

>.<

( I should have went. )

Agenda Suicide ( Read more... )

An appointment on Tuesday the 8th at 4 o'clock.
I'm glad I made it.
I need it.
I need something.
Everything's so wrong right now, why? How do things get this way? How did I let it happen? WHY did I let it happen?

Vomit. x.x

I think I need to go back to therapy. x.x
I'm sick of trying to fix myself, myself. If that makes sense...whatever I try is always temporary, I need something long term, something I can believe in, something that works. No more bull sugar. No more.

You all knew I couldn't do it...and right now I just don't fucking care.
This isn't right; I should care.

It's New Year's Eve, I'm in Glendora ( Read more... )