im not really sure how much of the last few weeks im going to put in here. but i just feel like i need to write. so bare with me ( Read more... )

i just got pinched 2 times. and i have explosive "poo water". and i just spent a week out in the middle of no where. im doing great. well, i guess that about all i have to say today.

well before people start freaking out, which i see coming, i ended up not going home. so britani, dont think i came to austin and didnt call or didnt see you cause...well, i never got there. im probably buying a car in the next 2 days. just thought id throw that in there. well, i have to go sit in the arms room now...all alone.

well, im leaving today to go home for the weekend. leah is heading to virginia so im riding with her then im coming back to ft bliss sunday with my friend keith. hes already in austin. i cant wait to see my family again. my sister being all married and stuff. it makes me sad though that leah will be gone when i get back here. weve become such ( Read more... )

well i cant seem to get warm this morning. im at work again. same thing everyday. i have this nagging feeling that yesterday was the last time im going to see someone very special to me. but, of course its not the first time ive felt like this. so maybe im just being over dramatic. i pulled my groin running this morning. well, i guess ill go ( Read more... )

well, things are better i think. at least im dealing with them better. my emotions are still on a constant rollercoaster. that means they are going up and down a lot. ive found the importance of patience though. thats a plus. i have now voted myself to be the most patient person IN THE WORLD! i think i want to have my heart removed. that should ( Read more... )

well, the last 4 weeks have been the most amazing and the most horrible weeks of my life. i cant remember the last time ive been this not-happy. its amazing how one person can make the the happiest then 20 minutes later make me want to die. theres only one thing that i will allow to have that much control over me. and that is nicotine. and ( Read more... )

well, this morning wasnt one of my best. but hey, life goes on...i think. i had an amazing 4th of july weekend. it couldnt have been more perfect. except i didnt get to see steph, beth, xavier...and i think thats it. yep, thats it. i just got done doing more hard labor. thats 2 days in a row. its insane. my hands are all dirty. i hate that. well, i ( Read more... )

im realizing were the same. down to the eyes ( Read more... )

i was gonna go home this weekend. but, i got fucked today. and not in the good way. i have to work friday and saturday now. i was so excited about going home this weekend. AND i slept through lunch so i didnt get to go eat. oh yeah i have to work late tonight too. DAMN THE WORLD! well, not the whole world...just where i am. anyway, i just need to ( Read more... )