we strive for what we always wanted
when we get it we hold it dear
sometime we lessen our grip
sooner or later we hold it with 1 hand
we take what we wanted so much for granted
Now we want something else
cant we ever be happy with what we have
and when we get exactly what we want
why cant we keep it
and feel the way when we wanted it so much.

im fuckin sick of it everywhere i look people ruin such good things over stupidity or insecurities. its makin me sick n i hate it :( i really wonder if i want a relationship now.

All is well in andrewville. no poems tonight. no inspiration.

i dont think ill ever find a girl that has everything i want i think im gonna end up alone because i want such a specific girl. like i expect the girl i want to be ambitious. to be into photography and i would love if she knew how to play the piano really well. i want a girl who knows herself. and knows how it is to be romantic and happy with the ( Read more... )

The wet spit on the finger that drags ( Read more... )

One by one i place my fingers
on these scars that seal my past
no matter how i hate you so
ill never want you gone
i have past shame
i touch you with pride
yo show everyone i have survived.

Gods been keeping happiness out of my life
You will be sent to me one day
Till then i am a lost soul
Find me my soulmate
Find this lost soul
I am Waiting...

Negativity is the essance of my being
i hate those around me
even tho when the sun comes up
this destructiveness dies
i still know the beast of burden is with in me
waiting for the night fall
when it comes out
the hate returns
the lonely ness takes over
and my soul blackens more.

i miss when i looked forward to seeing kelcie. and stuff now its just ergh. i hate when i find out how people really feel about me because it always bothers me. i guess its time to move on. im goin to job corp. i hope i see u all soon or w/e idk what im gonna do. im so scared to be honest. im scared of being a no time for anyone adult.

my heart always skips a beat ( Read more... )