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[ifshecouldspeak]

i don't update this very much anymore & when i do it's song lyrics or quizzes or excerpts from chats i have with brice. sometimes i go through livejournal, search my interests, etc. & i guess i hope to find some cool people, other than the friends i have, & somehow i end up finding these completely closed-minded people who are anti-everything but

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[emofuck]

hi!

[fasttrack]

you hurt my feelings :(

[ifshecouldspeak]

i'm sorry. those weren't my intentions. though lately i've been doing things to people that i did not intend to do; likewise people have been hurting my feelings, but maybe they actually intended to do so. or maybe i'm just over-sensitive when it comes to certain things & people. yet. amazingly cold when it comes to others.

i'm sorry, i didn't mean to hurt your feelings.

[fasttrack]

it's okay, you didn't really hurt my feelings, ya know.. ;)

i understand where you're coming from and i'm sorry you're going through a bit of a hard time.

i, on the other hand, do care so don't feel like the whole world [or the lj community that is heh] is against you.

[withdrawal]

people can pretend to care and don't really do, yes, but some really care. and sometimes i do as well. and then i have times when i don't care at all. but i still think. and i want to ask you some things...
you come here to post chat-excerpts, quizzes and song lyrics. alright. i know that. but i'm sure you have something to say and i wonder why you don't do it? is it because you don#t like the people on your freinds list? or because they have hurt you? or because you don#t feel welcome here after all? (that's not criticism or something, i'm just asking questions to understand why you are so sick of lj)

maybe you would like it here if you would let your feelings out here? of course, chat stuff and lyrics can describe your feelings as well. but why not put down just a though you had?
i'm sure you think about lots of stuff.
maybe you share?

[ifshecouldspeak]

actually. i'm finding more & more i don't have that much to say that i don't just outright say to the people directly, you know?

& i love the people on my friend list, you guys all rock. i have respect & admiration for all of you & love having you as internet friends.

i've been posting at livejournal since last year & it's like it's a big joke now. which sucks. because people like you & i come here to actually post about something OTHER than who we think "is the bomb" or whatever & it's still mocked. it's stupid. people just get to me sometimes, even when they shouldn't, you know?

ah i dunno. maybe i'm just spewing stupid thoughts from my head. ones that make no sense. i'm not sure.

thank you for trying to understand though. i appriciate it.

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[withdrawal]

i think your thoughts make sense.
in times as these i always withdrew from livejournal. you may just think about it and what you really want to do here. what you want to write about. or you should come here if you think "well, that was so damn important, i gotta put it down"...

things like lj are starting to become worthless if you just force yourself to write something which doesn't mean much to yourself. because, foremost, you are writing here for yourself.
:)

your should get clear about your intends to use your account.

*hug*
take care,
teresa