I'll Win Your Heart! (7/25)
Pairings: KyuMin
Raiting: G (I think...)
Genre: Romance; Angst (a bit at some points of story)
Summary: Kyuhyun transfers to new school, to be closer to his best friend Yesung, but there he meets Sungmin, who is ready to do anything to win Kyuhyun's heart, although Kyuhyun doesn't want relationship, how long will he be able to resist Sungmin!?
Kyuhyun was sitting under the tree in schools garden with a really sad face, Yesung didn't attend school today 'cause he had to go to hospital for a checkup.
And Kyuhyun wasn't sad just 'cause his friend wasn't at school and he was alone, in normal circumstances that probably would be quite good reason, but those weren't normal circumstances and Kyuhyun had bigger reason to be sad, he couldn't stop thinking about the reason why his friend needed that check up, why he so often couldn’t attend school, why he was in pain…
Truth was Yesung hadn't much left, and no matter how much it hurt Kyuhyun, there was nothing he could do for his hyung, 'cause there were no way to heal Yesung - he had leukemia and his days were counted.
Kyuhyun knew that soon he will lose his best friend, and he could also see, that Yesung got weaker and weaker every day, he often had headaches, he lost weight even though he ate properly and he would often start to bleed with seemingly no reason...but of course there was reason - that damned illness he had.
Soon Yesung probably even won't be able to attend school at all, which he insisted on doing for unknown reasons to Kyuhyun, and will need to stay at hospital. What saddened Kyuhyun was that Yesung wasn't going to go to hospital to get better, no, he will go to die there, 'cause Yesung already signed papers that he doesn't want medical help, if his heart or breathing would stop doctors couldn't even give him CPU... 'cause Yesung wanted to die, he didn't want to fight. And no matter how much Kyuhyun had cried and begged him, Yesung didn't change his minds.
But Kyuhyun wasn't ready for that, he wasn't ready to lose Yesung - he cared about him more than anyone else in this word, not even his family, or more like what was left form it, was so close to him how Yesung was, and he couldn't imagine his life without him. He didn't want to be left alone.
Tears slowly rolled down his face and he wasn't even trying to stop them, he always tried to be strong to not cry, and he never did in front of Yesung, but when he was alone, he couldn't hold them back anymore, he often cried himself to sleep, 'cause time that they had left was too short.
If only Yesung would have accepted treatment, he could have lived longer, Kyuhyun knew that even medical help couldn't save him anymore, but at least he wouldn't leave Kyuhyun so soon. But Yesung reject any treatment doctors offered him, Kyuhyun nearly convinced him to go for a checkup's although Yesung said there's no need for that, but Kyuhyun insisted 'cause at least that's how Kyuhyun knew... knew how much there's left.
At first Yesung actually had accepted treatment, even though he had to go through a lot of pain, he did everything to survive, to make his time longer, that was when he still talked, still smiled even though he knew he'll die he was still happy.
But then it all changed, Yesung refused to take any further treatment and his condition got visibly worse, years doctors predicted him was reduced to months....
And it all was Ryeowook's fault, if only he wouldn't have left Yesung...then...then Yesung would fight, he would do anything to survive even one day more, just to be with Ryeowook, and he... he would even talk, smile and laugh. He would spend his last month’s happy and without pain he felt 'cause he refused to take even medicine that could substitute his pain.
Yes, Kyuhyun blamed Ryeowook - he blamed his brother for leaving Yesung, for not being with his lover when Yesung needed him the most.
But at the same time, he knew how stupid it was from him, how miserably stupid it was to blame Ryeowook...'cause it really wasn't Ryeowook's fault. He couldn't blame Ryeowook that Yesung got that damned illness, and it also wasn't Ryeowook’s fault that he...he...had to leave Yesung.
Kyuhyun knew that Ryeowook really loved Yesung and that he wanted to make Yesung as happy as possible, although he was broken after getting to know Yesung's condition - Kyuhyun remembered how his brother cried and asked him what to do, how Ryeowook cursed everything and everyone for taking away Yesung, and how he cursed himself that he didn't notice faster, that he didn't drag Yesung to hospital when there's still would have been hope... But Ryeowook fastly collected himself and was strong in front of Yesung, determined to make man he loved happy, to make him enjoy time he had left.
And Ryeowook did perfectly good job with that, although Kyuhyun saw that inside Ryeowook is broken and he didn't knew how much his brother still could handle, he knew that Ryeowook often cried when he thought no one could see him, but Kyuhyun saw, he saw how his brother suffered ‘cause he couldn’t do anything to save his lover. But later Ryeowook was smiling again, he was laughing, doing aegyo and thanks to him Yesung was happy, despite his illness he was really happy and enjoyed life - he was that funny, dorky Yesung that Kyuhyun missed so much.
But everything changed when Ryeowook suddenly wasn't by Yesung's side anymore, it took away all Yesung's happiness, all wish to live. Kyuhyun found ironic that Ryeowook always said how much he loved Yesung's smile and voice, and now together with Ryeowook, Yesung's voice and smile were also gone.
And Kyuhyun really hated his brother for that, but he hated himself even more for hating Ryeowook, 'cause it really wasn't Ryeowook's fault, it wasn't Ryeowook's fault that he... he had to leave.
Kyuhyun hugged his knees and put his head on them, he silently sobbed, 'cause there was nothing he could do to help Yesung, like he couldn't do anything for Ryeowook. He hated to be so helpless, so helpless against fate.
Kyuhyun continued to cry, he had to let it out, so that later he could face Yesung with a smile.
"Kyu, are you okay?" - Kyuhyun was startled he didn't even notice that someone approached him, he looked up and saw really concerned looking Sungmin.
"Can you please just leave, I really need to be alone!?" - Kyuhyun answered, hoping that Sungmin would listen and just leave.
But instead Sungmin sat next to him, and put his arm around Kyuhyun's shoulder.
"I think what you need is a shoulder to cry on." - Sungmin said, gently squeezing Kyuhyun's shoulder.
Kyuhyun hesitated, he usually never cried in front of others, he tried to be strong and don’t let anyone know if he was hurt, only people that had seen him breaking down was Yesung and Ryeowook.
Sungmin pulled Kyuhyun closer so that Kyuhyun’s head rested on his shoulder - "I don't know why you're like this, Kyu, but I want you to know that I'm here for you, I won’t leave you alone." - Sungmin said and Kyuhyun just gave in, there was something about Sungmin that made him trust other, made him feel safe.
Kyuhyun found himself snuggling deeper in Sungmin's hug, Sungmin in return put his other arm around Kyuhyun and started to gently stroke his hair, and it made Kyuhyun want more to feel more of Sungmin, so he put his arms around Sungmin's waist and nuzzled his head in others neck. Sungmin just smiled and hugged Kyuhyun tighter.
Being hugged like that, feeling Sungmin so close and feeling his gentle, calming touches was exactly what Kyuhyun needed and it made Kyuhyun cry even harder, his silent sobs turned into loud cries, he felt like something opened in him, and it brought out river of tears, all those emotions he kept inside - all sadness, desperation, hurt - finally got out, so he tightly held on Sungmin and cried... cried for what seemed to be hours, until there were no more tears left and he felt exhausted from all the crying, his eyes and throat hurt, he felt that Sungmin's shirt is completely wet from his tears, but he really couldn't care about that now that.
Sungmin's body warmth and strong arms around him made Kyuhyun feel protected and he slowly fell asleep in Sungmin's embrace.
Sungmin noticed that Kyuhyun's breathing got calm and steady, and it didn't take long for him to realize that Kyuhyun is sleeping. He looked at the boy in his embrace and felt strong urge to protect him, to make him happy and take away all his sadness, if only Kyuhyun would let him, if only Kyuhyun would admit that he needed Sungmin. Unintentionally Sungmin tightened his grip around Kyuhyun.
Sungmin had planned to keep distance from Kyuhyun, to give other some time to realize that he wants Sungmin to be by his side as much as Sungmin wants Kyuhyun to be by his side.
But then he found Kyuhyun crying and he couldn't just ignore it, and although Kyuhyun asked him to leave, there was no way he could leave younger like that, he wasn't sure Kyuhyun would accept his offer to be a shoulder to cry on, but he was happy when he did, 'cause it meant that he had at least some trust in Sungmin, and that he didn’t hate Sungmin’s company like he claimed.
Sungmin kept gently caressing Kyuhyun’s hair and he couldn't stop thinking why was Kyuhyun crying in the first place, what had happened that he cried so hard? Those wasn't just tears of sadness, it had felt more like desperate cry for help.
Raiting: G (I think...)
Genre: Romance; Angst (a bit at some points of story)
Summary: Kyuhyun transfers to new school, to be closer to his best friend Yesung, but there he meets Sungmin, who is ready to do anything to win Kyuhyun's heart, although Kyuhyun doesn't want relationship, how long will he be able to resist Sungmin!?
Kyuhyun was sitting under the tree in schools garden with a really sad face, Yesung didn't attend school today 'cause he had to go to hospital for a checkup.
And Kyuhyun wasn't sad just 'cause his friend wasn't at school and he was alone, in normal circumstances that probably would be quite good reason, but those weren't normal circumstances and Kyuhyun had bigger reason to be sad, he couldn't stop thinking about the reason why his friend needed that check up, why he so often couldn’t attend school, why he was in pain…
Truth was Yesung hadn't much left, and no matter how much it hurt Kyuhyun, there was nothing he could do for his hyung, 'cause there were no way to heal Yesung - he had leukemia and his days were counted.
Kyuhyun knew that soon he will lose his best friend, and he could also see, that Yesung got weaker and weaker every day, he often had headaches, he lost weight even though he ate properly and he would often start to bleed with seemingly no reason...but of course there was reason - that damned illness he had.
Soon Yesung probably even won't be able to attend school at all, which he insisted on doing for unknown reasons to Kyuhyun, and will need to stay at hospital. What saddened Kyuhyun was that Yesung wasn't going to go to hospital to get better, no, he will go to die there, 'cause Yesung already signed papers that he doesn't want medical help, if his heart or breathing would stop doctors couldn't even give him CPU... 'cause Yesung wanted to die, he didn't want to fight. And no matter how much Kyuhyun had cried and begged him, Yesung didn't change his minds.
But Kyuhyun wasn't ready for that, he wasn't ready to lose Yesung - he cared about him more than anyone else in this word, not even his family, or more like what was left form it, was so close to him how Yesung was, and he couldn't imagine his life without him. He didn't want to be left alone.
Tears slowly rolled down his face and he wasn't even trying to stop them, he always tried to be strong to not cry, and he never did in front of Yesung, but when he was alone, he couldn't hold them back anymore, he often cried himself to sleep, 'cause time that they had left was too short.
If only Yesung would have accepted treatment, he could have lived longer, Kyuhyun knew that even medical help couldn't save him anymore, but at least he wouldn't leave Kyuhyun so soon. But Yesung reject any treatment doctors offered him, Kyuhyun nearly convinced him to go for a checkup's although Yesung said there's no need for that, but Kyuhyun insisted 'cause at least that's how Kyuhyun knew... knew how much there's left.
At first Yesung actually had accepted treatment, even though he had to go through a lot of pain, he did everything to survive, to make his time longer, that was when he still talked, still smiled even though he knew he'll die he was still happy.
But then it all changed, Yesung refused to take any further treatment and his condition got visibly worse, years doctors predicted him was reduced to months....
And it all was Ryeowook's fault, if only he wouldn't have left Yesung...then...then Yesung would fight, he would do anything to survive even one day more, just to be with Ryeowook, and he... he would even talk, smile and laugh. He would spend his last month’s happy and without pain he felt 'cause he refused to take even medicine that could substitute his pain.
Yes, Kyuhyun blamed Ryeowook - he blamed his brother for leaving Yesung, for not being with his lover when Yesung needed him the most.
But at the same time, he knew how stupid it was from him, how miserably stupid it was to blame Ryeowook...'cause it really wasn't Ryeowook's fault. He couldn't blame Ryeowook that Yesung got that damned illness, and it also wasn't Ryeowook’s fault that he...he...had to leave Yesung.
Kyuhyun knew that Ryeowook really loved Yesung and that he wanted to make Yesung as happy as possible, although he was broken after getting to know Yesung's condition - Kyuhyun remembered how his brother cried and asked him what to do, how Ryeowook cursed everything and everyone for taking away Yesung, and how he cursed himself that he didn't notice faster, that he didn't drag Yesung to hospital when there's still would have been hope... But Ryeowook fastly collected himself and was strong in front of Yesung, determined to make man he loved happy, to make him enjoy time he had left.
And Ryeowook did perfectly good job with that, although Kyuhyun saw that inside Ryeowook is broken and he didn't knew how much his brother still could handle, he knew that Ryeowook often cried when he thought no one could see him, but Kyuhyun saw, he saw how his brother suffered ‘cause he couldn’t do anything to save his lover. But later Ryeowook was smiling again, he was laughing, doing aegyo and thanks to him Yesung was happy, despite his illness he was really happy and enjoyed life - he was that funny, dorky Yesung that Kyuhyun missed so much.
But everything changed when Ryeowook suddenly wasn't by Yesung's side anymore, it took away all Yesung's happiness, all wish to live. Kyuhyun found ironic that Ryeowook always said how much he loved Yesung's smile and voice, and now together with Ryeowook, Yesung's voice and smile were also gone.
And Kyuhyun really hated his brother for that, but he hated himself even more for hating Ryeowook, 'cause it really wasn't Ryeowook's fault, it wasn't Ryeowook's fault that he... he had to leave.
Kyuhyun hugged his knees and put his head on them, he silently sobbed, 'cause there was nothing he could do to help Yesung, like he couldn't do anything for Ryeowook. He hated to be so helpless, so helpless against fate.
Kyuhyun continued to cry, he had to let it out, so that later he could face Yesung with a smile.
"Kyu, are you okay?" - Kyuhyun was startled he didn't even notice that someone approached him, he looked up and saw really concerned looking Sungmin.
"Can you please just leave, I really need to be alone!?" - Kyuhyun answered, hoping that Sungmin would listen and just leave.
But instead Sungmin sat next to him, and put his arm around Kyuhyun's shoulder.
"I think what you need is a shoulder to cry on." - Sungmin said, gently squeezing Kyuhyun's shoulder.
Kyuhyun hesitated, he usually never cried in front of others, he tried to be strong and don’t let anyone know if he was hurt, only people that had seen him breaking down was Yesung and Ryeowook.
Sungmin pulled Kyuhyun closer so that Kyuhyun’s head rested on his shoulder - "I don't know why you're like this, Kyu, but I want you to know that I'm here for you, I won’t leave you alone." - Sungmin said and Kyuhyun just gave in, there was something about Sungmin that made him trust other, made him feel safe.
Kyuhyun found himself snuggling deeper in Sungmin's hug, Sungmin in return put his other arm around Kyuhyun and started to gently stroke his hair, and it made Kyuhyun want more to feel more of Sungmin, so he put his arms around Sungmin's waist and nuzzled his head in others neck. Sungmin just smiled and hugged Kyuhyun tighter.
Being hugged like that, feeling Sungmin so close and feeling his gentle, calming touches was exactly what Kyuhyun needed and it made Kyuhyun cry even harder, his silent sobs turned into loud cries, he felt like something opened in him, and it brought out river of tears, all those emotions he kept inside - all sadness, desperation, hurt - finally got out, so he tightly held on Sungmin and cried... cried for what seemed to be hours, until there were no more tears left and he felt exhausted from all the crying, his eyes and throat hurt, he felt that Sungmin's shirt is completely wet from his tears, but he really couldn't care about that now that.
Sungmin's body warmth and strong arms around him made Kyuhyun feel protected and he slowly fell asleep in Sungmin's embrace.
Sungmin noticed that Kyuhyun's breathing got calm and steady, and it didn't take long for him to realize that Kyuhyun is sleeping. He looked at the boy in his embrace and felt strong urge to protect him, to make him happy and take away all his sadness, if only Kyuhyun would let him, if only Kyuhyun would admit that he needed Sungmin. Unintentionally Sungmin tightened his grip around Kyuhyun.
Sungmin had planned to keep distance from Kyuhyun, to give other some time to realize that he wants Sungmin to be by his side as much as Sungmin wants Kyuhyun to be by his side.
But then he found Kyuhyun crying and he couldn't just ignore it, and although Kyuhyun asked him to leave, there was no way he could leave younger like that, he wasn't sure Kyuhyun would accept his offer to be a shoulder to cry on, but he was happy when he did, 'cause it meant that he had at least some trust in Sungmin, and that he didn’t hate Sungmin’s company like he claimed.
Sungmin kept gently caressing Kyuhyun’s hair and he couldn't stop thinking why was Kyuhyun crying in the first place, what had happened that he cried so hard? Those wasn't just tears of sadness, it had felt more like desperate cry for help.