Today I've felt unbearable pain. I've felt neverending sorrow and I don't think it's gonna go away. Many people fuck up...they make a mistake, it changes their life and then they get on with it. Omar isn't the same...he makes a mistake, it changes his life and then he does it again. I love him so much...but I can't take mistakes like this anymore. ( Read more... )

Hey there, nothing important or out of the ordinary happened today. I went to class, I played hackey sack with Chris<3, and then I went to class again. Hurray for me. Oh yea and I saw Omar..yay!!! Umm, I talked to Ryan last night and today online. And I talk to my kitty Cat yesterday too, I can't wait til she comes down. OH YEA!!! CARVAGGIO GOT ( Read more... )

Hello there people. I'm once again grounded but I'm doing pretty good. I went out today with my mom and I bought The Da Vinci Code, some stuff for my hair, and some new Chucks. Omar and I are doing better...we're becoming friends again so thats cool. I'm not mad at Ryan anymore..*sorry about that*. I'll meet you soon though. I still haven't seen ( Read more... )

Yesterday sucked so bad...I was too fucking depressed to speak, so I wrote this instead. Deprive me from my one true sanity Execute me, kill me Don't make me go through the pain I feel. Don't make me slip away anymore. Don't make me miss him more. Don't deprive me from my one last breath. Don't decide what I need to do. I can make up my own mind I ( Read more... )

Yo, yo, yo people. I know that only consists of about 3 people but w/e. I did absolutely nothing all day and I'm totally down with that..weird. I'm going out tomorrow..hopefully with Ryan *wink*


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Hey there. I just woke up from a very long nap. I had a shot of vodka and a shot of something else, then I came home and tried to write but everything came out like shit..eh, so I went to sleep. I'm feeling good now though. I knew a drink or 2 was all I needed. Still feeling a bit gloomy. Today I have to wake up and clean my house, but I'm honestly ( Read more... )

*Hmph* 5:27 PM and I've done nothing productive all day. I'm in such a weird state right now, I just want to be drunk and pass out. I'm talking to Cat right now and she might be coming down next month..YAY!!! Hah...Caravaggio is playing at my aunt's bf's b-day party and I'm going. So happy. *You're just like an angel..your skin makes me cry* Sorry ( Read more... )

So yea...my life is a blur right now, but I'm seeing it better than I ever did before *kinda weird*. I'm completely emphatic. I'm completely bored. I want to do something totally random that won't get me grounded. I know exactly what I want to do, but I can't do it. I want to go to the beach again..early in the morning..I want it to be different ( Read more... )

I love you Cat...with all my heart.<3


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hey there. Happy Anniversary to you-know-who!! i got this thing because everyone else has one and i'm a follower not a leader. anyway, i went to the beach today with chris and i had fun. i hadn't been out somewhere other than the movies for a long, long time. i guess i'm finally doing things i've always wanted to do. i got into deep shit when i got ( Read more... )