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an old journal entry of mine that i re-read today... it helped me to see things more clearly and it helped to remind me of some things.
but now i want to share with you my feeling on love. now this one i've thought about so much that its almost indescribable. but i will try to share what i've learned. i have learned about my self that i am sometimes not so self-controlled. im definately a romantic. and i always follow my heart over my head. and i've recently learned about myself that i LOVE romance movies. they take you away to loves you've never had, feelings you've dreamed about sharing with someone. dreams of a love that is so strong that it overcomes all, and it takes your heart away to a place where love is perfect, where lovers share a world together where only they exist, and everything is absolutely perfect. i've dreamed of waking up next to the one that i would spend my life with, hearing 'i love you' in the morning. looking out onto a beautiful sunrise through huge glass doors, cracked a little, feeling an ocean breeze sweep up onto the bed, lifting the sheets to expose you holding your lovers hand, reaching for a kiss as the one laying beside you tells you how beautiful you are while he's gazing deep into your eyes, really looking inside, and seeing nothing but YOU, you gaze right back into the eyes of your soulmate and knowing that THIS is the person that you cant live without, THIS is the person that you love.
that was something kinda random that just kinda popped out. but its so much more than that. like when you're young like me, like teenagers, you dont really know what love is, you cant truely love someone because unless you meet the one that you'll marry, then its not love. love is enriching, love is spirit, love is spending the rest of your life with someone just wanting to make them happy, love is sharing that common bond, that common want to make eachother happy, and to enrich eachothers lives. to fit together like a puzzle piece. i look at my dad and my step mom and what i see is love. i got them a book of national parks for christmas. and as they were both looking at it, i just saw their eyes light up. they talked about their travels to the different parks. and their hopes of seeing new things, of experienceing new places, and i kind-of saw a little kid inside them, joined together. the smiles they beamed, when they looked up into eachother's eyes, i could see it. i could see the love they radiated. the bond that they shared with one another. and its just such an awesome thing to see, to see the joy in each others eyes. it makes me remember this story that i read on susannas lj. it was something having to do with an old couple and the joy they had together and this just seems so real for me. i dream of having a love such as that. yes im a dreamer. some of you may not know it but i dream of romance. romantic walks on the beach. falling asleep next to your love on a blanket on the beach with a candle lit. i dream of a romance like the movies. like garden state. if you look at movies today, almost all of them have some sort of love story in them. and in a way it gives me hope. when i look at people like emily and siram, it gives me hope that maybe, i might be so lucky to find someone that i cherish so much and that cherishes me as they do one another. i know that i may be a dreamer who dreams of loves that could never happen but living in the movies is what ive always wanted to do. a long time ago, i had written out something about love that i would one day put in livejournal, however, i have lost track of the paper but if it came from my mind, im sure i've pretty much summed it up. there was also something i wrote in a journal not too long ago. a few months ago. it read: maybe people are right when they say kids like us dont know what love is, i just wish i could prove them wrong.
but now i want to share with you my feeling on love. now this one i've thought about so much that its almost indescribable. but i will try to share what i've learned. i have learned about my self that i am sometimes not so self-controlled. im definately a romantic. and i always follow my heart over my head. and i've recently learned about myself that i LOVE romance movies. they take you away to loves you've never had, feelings you've dreamed about sharing with someone. dreams of a love that is so strong that it overcomes all, and it takes your heart away to a place where love is perfect, where lovers share a world together where only they exist, and everything is absolutely perfect. i've dreamed of waking up next to the one that i would spend my life with, hearing 'i love you' in the morning. looking out onto a beautiful sunrise through huge glass doors, cracked a little, feeling an ocean breeze sweep up onto the bed, lifting the sheets to expose you holding your lovers hand, reaching for a kiss as the one laying beside you tells you how beautiful you are while he's gazing deep into your eyes, really looking inside, and seeing nothing but YOU, you gaze right back into the eyes of your soulmate and knowing that THIS is the person that you cant live without, THIS is the person that you love.
that was something kinda random that just kinda popped out. but its so much more than that. like when you're young like me, like teenagers, you dont really know what love is, you cant truely love someone because unless you meet the one that you'll marry, then its not love. love is enriching, love is spirit, love is spending the rest of your life with someone just wanting to make them happy, love is sharing that common bond, that common want to make eachother happy, and to enrich eachothers lives. to fit together like a puzzle piece. i look at my dad and my step mom and what i see is love. i got them a book of national parks for christmas. and as they were both looking at it, i just saw their eyes light up. they talked about their travels to the different parks. and their hopes of seeing new things, of experienceing new places, and i kind-of saw a little kid inside them, joined together. the smiles they beamed, when they looked up into eachother's eyes, i could see it. i could see the love they radiated. the bond that they shared with one another. and its just such an awesome thing to see, to see the joy in each others eyes. it makes me remember this story that i read on susannas lj. it was something having to do with an old couple and the joy they had together and this just seems so real for me. i dream of having a love such as that. yes im a dreamer. some of you may not know it but i dream of romance. romantic walks on the beach. falling asleep next to your love on a blanket on the beach with a candle lit. i dream of a romance like the movies. like garden state. if you look at movies today, almost all of them have some sort of love story in them. and in a way it gives me hope. when i look at people like emily and siram, it gives me hope that maybe, i might be so lucky to find someone that i cherish so much and that cherishes me as they do one another. i know that i may be a dreamer who dreams of loves that could never happen but living in the movies is what ive always wanted to do. a long time ago, i had written out something about love that i would one day put in livejournal, however, i have lost track of the paper but if it came from my mind, im sure i've pretty much summed it up. there was also something i wrote in a journal not too long ago. a few months ago. it read: maybe people are right when they say kids like us dont know what love is, i just wish i could prove them wrong.