I'm getting cynical. Finally, I'm getting over those childhood feelings that the world cares about me, and yes this loner role is good for me but I don't like being forced into it.

Crazy-ass week. Amanda and I came back from Tampa and I went to work on a dance concert with a group from New York. I had no idea what I was walking into. At least 100 sound cues (compared to the usual 10 that are spaced and simple) that I had to call myself while watching the performance, reading my notes, watching the mixer, watching the track ( Read more... )

I miss Louisville ( Read more... )

"One night of love don't make up for six nights alone. But I'd rather have one than none; I'm flesh and bone. Though sometimes it seems she aint worth the trouble at all, she can be worth the world if somehow you can touch her at all."

Waylon Jennings rules, even though he's nasty towards women. What can you do? Nothin.

I follow the sun around the apartment like a cat. In the morning, it starts in a window seat, then goes to the porch, where I open the door to let it in, then it comes to me and Kat's room and I open one shade to warm up the room, quickly closing it when the sun is gone to keep the cold out. We have saran wrap over all the windows, but when the ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm not fair to men these days. I doubt it, but maybe. I read these old emails, however, and I get angry all over again. I'm blown away. I can't believe it ( Read more... )

What will people be eating a thousand years from now, if there are people?

Damn.
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I wrote this in my journal back in May. Ric and I got in a big fight about it because he wanted to tell the story in his journal, and after that I was too irritated and self-conscious about the comparison of our writing to finish it. I found it yesterday while packing. I'm still a little self-conscious, but you're all going to read my Division III ( Read more... )

dance in the darkness
slow be the pace
surrender to the rhythm
of redeeming grace

I've been loving my old music lately.