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This is a totally long shot, and I'm just wasting a bunch of time doing this, but hey..it's my time, and if you choose to read it, it's you're time too but right there it said if you CHOOSE to read it. So you're choosing to waste you're time. Go you :).
I miss you. Not just you but the actual Paula. I'm sure you've heard this time and time again, but since Andys been in your life, I feel I've lost a best friend. Tiffany feels she lost a best friend AND a brother. You've lost touch, you've lost intelligance, you've lost your best friends, you've lost everything...all for Andy. What's gonna happen when Andys no more? Who are you gonna turn to? You'll have no one. Because you've pushed us all away. And I know you hate me because I guess some shit was said between me and Alisha, but in all reality - I swear on my life, and all my best friends lives, that this is the god-honest truth - that I heard all that stuff from Fitzwater. Yes, I thought you or Alisha had told me something, but I was wrong. I was told by Fitzwater. And I swear on my life that is the truth. I don't care if you don't believe it, but I know what's true and what's not. And I hope you'll believe me. Because I miss you, so fucking badly. I'd give up just about anything to just have you back as a friend. I think you were my greatest loss out of this whole deal.
And also - what happened? We were like the best of friends...we were in-fucking-seperable for months. I went stupid and yelled at you for stupid shit and I'm so fucking sorry for that and if I could go back and take those couple of days back, I would.
Now don't get me wrong, it may sound like I have a crush on you, but I don't. I just want my Paula back...the funny, great girl that used to be like a best friend to everyone. The girl that no one could hate. The smart, intelligent Paula. The one I met a year ago, and couldn't help but love because she was just so funny and a great person to be around.
I miss you.
Marc
I wouldn't even consider taking time out of my day to say anything to you, cuz I really just didn't care.
Until I came across old conversations we had.
My god, Marc, we were nearly the best of friends too! From all the fights we had, it's better off we just keep away from being friends. Because apparantly, it just doesn't work. We've fought over everything - friends, guys, sex, name it and you and me have probably fought over it.
But I just want to put this to rest. We are not compatible as friends, but if we ever decide to talk, the least we could do is be civil. I've said my part, even though it was stupid and useless, but it's out and I'm completely done.
The next 2 will never see this, but I know Tiffany talks to them *bats eye lashes* Kindly direct them here?
Alisha
I fucked up. I said shit I shouldn't have, I did things I shouldn't have, I fell in love and I shouldn't have, I got jealous and I shouldn't have. But I didn't do one thing - I didn't lie. And I promise you, I swear on my life on all my friends lives, on my sisters life, on my favorite rock stars lives, on all the cast members of The L Words lives, on Shanes life (because she is not a cast member, she is a character :)), on anyone who means a lot to me...on anything and everything, I swear to you I did not lie. I can't keep most true stories straight, how am I gonna keep a lie straight? That involves story upon story upon story. And I just hope, that this one time, you'll believe me. Because I am telling the god-honest truth.
Now, I know you guys, and I know that this will just merely get a laugh out of you and all you will say is 'leave us alone.' And I already stated before - it's a really long shot and I'm wasting my time. But the fact I'm willing to do that, has to mean something.
This is one fight. A friendship isn't normal without fights. How could me and Sarah have gotten this far if we gave up when our first fight happened? What about me and Paul? If all of me and my friends gave up after our first fights, I'd have close to no one. And I'm sorry, and even if we're just acquantinces, ok that's fine. And I'm bringing out a line from Shrek here 'because that's what friends do, they forgive each other.'
Nick
Read the whole first paragraph of Alishas, it's to you too. But I fucked up even worse with you. But it's not exactly all my fault.
I constantly asked you if what I did was annoying, or if it pissed you off, or if I was too clingy, or if I should stop anything I did. You would always say 'no.' And everytime you and Yajaira had a conversation about me, she'd tell me what you said. Every part of it. She'd show me the notes you guys had, she'd tell me everything. And there was 2 times (once in a note, and once just talking) she told me that you said I'm perfect. I told you I wasn't. And you have gotten to see the worst side of me....and the side of me you saw, I didn't even know existed. I give thanks to Alisha for telling me what that side of me was - it was a side of me that happens when in love. I didn't want to believe it, because I never believed in love. EVER. I thought it was stupid. Sure, I only knew you a short while, but you'd be surprised what goes on inside my head. You'd be surprised if you knew who I really was and how I really am.
I'm sorry for getting so jealous. For being so protective. For everything I did. I'm sorry I took the chance and ran with it. And ran way too far, out of reach from the chance. I'm sorry I fell so hard. And didn't take the hints I should have taken. I'm sorry I fucked up so badly. Given the chance, I wouldn't do it again. And I'm over you in a more-than-friends way, in case you needed that assurance
Tiffany
If I ever get in a fight with you over a guy again, slap me? Well actually...don't make me want to get in a fight with you over a guy!! Hehe, because we know Stephanie is a possessive, jealous, bitch. But...then again, which one of us isn't? ("us" as in...you, me, Ashlie...basically the REALLY old group. Before Marc). So keep that in mind!! Hehe. But really, besides making me get jealous and fight with you, and not giving my boots back right away and making me yell and bitch to get my shirt back that one time, you've done nothing to me. You've been there, and especially now when you're one of the only ones who knows about certain things. So I thank you :)
Ashlie
She won't see this for a damn long time! But it's here anyways.
What can I say? We've had a little fight, but could it even count as a fight? We yelled at each other...a lot, but then got over it and by the end of the day were like 'I LOVE YOU!' You're always the first one I call when I want to go somewhere, because you always go with me hehe. My sister and dad may not think that you are the greatest friend, but in my mind, you really are. You're the only one (besides Ariel) who's stuck by me for this whole year with all this crazy bullshit going on. You've been there through thick and thin. You listen. And most of the time, it actually seems like you do care about me. I love you, Ashlie. You really are an amazing friend and person and I hope I never lose you.
Daria
I love you! SO much. I wish I could see and talk to you more. I'm really sorry about the other day, I was rushed. But I promise, the next time we're on at the same time, I'm gonna sit there and talk to you about anything and everything, ok? When you get back from Poland, CALL ME!!! And we HAVE to hang out. And like Ashlie, you've stuck by me and been there with everything. You are also an amazing friend and person, and I cherish your friendship SO much. You mean a lot to me, and I may not show it as much as I should, but I promise you do. I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Anyone else who I forgot (unless you're Jose) - I love you a ton and you mean a lot to me, I just don't have anything seperate to say to you (well, unless you were Jaime, but he doesn't see this. And if he does, he just needs to yell at me and I'll add him in there.).
OH WAIT I LIED!!!!!!
Jenni
This will sound a lot like the comment on your GJ in the annonymous post, and I also made that. Even though you weren't supposed to know that but oops?
I've known you online for what? 2 years? ATLEAST! And I love you so much. Every time we'd talk, you'd make me happy. So happy. You were basically the reason I had no life, heh. Because all I wanted to do was sit at the computer and talk to you. Ask Sarah, it's why we drifted apart for a little bit. But it was my choice. You have changed my live, my views, my perspective on so much...and I cherish that. You have got to be one of the greatest people I've ever..EVER met. I'm grateful we still talk a little, but I miss talking to you for hours everyday. I don't know what I did wrong, but if I could go back in time, and take that all back just so we could talk again, I would.
I love you and I always will. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Stephie
I love you, babe. We stopped talking for a little bit, because I couldn't think of what to say. But don't ever, EVER think for even just a SECOND that just cuz we stopped talking means I stopped caring. Cuz I never did. NEVER. I wish we talked more, and we need to see each other again because that day was great fun :). I still remember it clearly.
I love you forever and always. Bffeaeaeaeae (remember that? hehe.) I love you, YouStephie <3.
I pity you if you sat through that and read it if you don't know me offline or if you aren't Stephie or Jenni. Haha cuz that is hella long.
I miss you. Not just you but the actual Paula. I'm sure you've heard this time and time again, but since Andys been in your life, I feel I've lost a best friend. Tiffany feels she lost a best friend AND a brother. You've lost touch, you've lost intelligance, you've lost your best friends, you've lost everything...all for Andy. What's gonna happen when Andys no more? Who are you gonna turn to? You'll have no one. Because you've pushed us all away. And I know you hate me because I guess some shit was said between me and Alisha, but in all reality - I swear on my life, and all my best friends lives, that this is the god-honest truth - that I heard all that stuff from Fitzwater. Yes, I thought you or Alisha had told me something, but I was wrong. I was told by Fitzwater. And I swear on my life that is the truth. I don't care if you don't believe it, but I know what's true and what's not. And I hope you'll believe me. Because I miss you, so fucking badly. I'd give up just about anything to just have you back as a friend. I think you were my greatest loss out of this whole deal.
And also - what happened? We were like the best of friends...we were in-fucking-seperable for months. I went stupid and yelled at you for stupid shit and I'm so fucking sorry for that and if I could go back and take those couple of days back, I would.
Now don't get me wrong, it may sound like I have a crush on you, but I don't. I just want my Paula back...the funny, great girl that used to be like a best friend to everyone. The girl that no one could hate. The smart, intelligent Paula. The one I met a year ago, and couldn't help but love because she was just so funny and a great person to be around.
I miss you.
Marc
I wouldn't even consider taking time out of my day to say anything to you, cuz I really just didn't care.
Until I came across old conversations we had.
My god, Marc, we were nearly the best of friends too! From all the fights we had, it's better off we just keep away from being friends. Because apparantly, it just doesn't work. We've fought over everything - friends, guys, sex, name it and you and me have probably fought over it.
But I just want to put this to rest. We are not compatible as friends, but if we ever decide to talk, the least we could do is be civil. I've said my part, even though it was stupid and useless, but it's out and I'm completely done.
The next 2 will never see this, but I know Tiffany talks to them *bats eye lashes* Kindly direct them here?
Alisha
I fucked up. I said shit I shouldn't have, I did things I shouldn't have, I fell in love and I shouldn't have, I got jealous and I shouldn't have. But I didn't do one thing - I didn't lie. And I promise you, I swear on my life on all my friends lives, on my sisters life, on my favorite rock stars lives, on all the cast members of The L Words lives, on Shanes life (because she is not a cast member, she is a character :)), on anyone who means a lot to me...on anything and everything, I swear to you I did not lie. I can't keep most true stories straight, how am I gonna keep a lie straight? That involves story upon story upon story. And I just hope, that this one time, you'll believe me. Because I am telling the god-honest truth.
Now, I know you guys, and I know that this will just merely get a laugh out of you and all you will say is 'leave us alone.' And I already stated before - it's a really long shot and I'm wasting my time. But the fact I'm willing to do that, has to mean something.
This is one fight. A friendship isn't normal without fights. How could me and Sarah have gotten this far if we gave up when our first fight happened? What about me and Paul? If all of me and my friends gave up after our first fights, I'd have close to no one. And I'm sorry, and even if we're just acquantinces, ok that's fine. And I'm bringing out a line from Shrek here 'because that's what friends do, they forgive each other.'
Nick
Read the whole first paragraph of Alishas, it's to you too. But I fucked up even worse with you. But it's not exactly all my fault.
I constantly asked you if what I did was annoying, or if it pissed you off, or if I was too clingy, or if I should stop anything I did. You would always say 'no.' And everytime you and Yajaira had a conversation about me, she'd tell me what you said. Every part of it. She'd show me the notes you guys had, she'd tell me everything. And there was 2 times (once in a note, and once just talking) she told me that you said I'm perfect. I told you I wasn't. And you have gotten to see the worst side of me....and the side of me you saw, I didn't even know existed. I give thanks to Alisha for telling me what that side of me was - it was a side of me that happens when in love. I didn't want to believe it, because I never believed in love. EVER. I thought it was stupid. Sure, I only knew you a short while, but you'd be surprised what goes on inside my head. You'd be surprised if you knew who I really was and how I really am.
I'm sorry for getting so jealous. For being so protective. For everything I did. I'm sorry I took the chance and ran with it. And ran way too far, out of reach from the chance. I'm sorry I fell so hard. And didn't take the hints I should have taken. I'm sorry I fucked up so badly. Given the chance, I wouldn't do it again. And I'm over you in a more-than-friends way, in case you needed that assurance
Tiffany
If I ever get in a fight with you over a guy again, slap me? Well actually...don't make me want to get in a fight with you over a guy!! Hehe, because we know Stephanie is a possessive, jealous, bitch. But...then again, which one of us isn't? ("us" as in...you, me, Ashlie...basically the REALLY old group. Before Marc). So keep that in mind!! Hehe. But really, besides making me get jealous and fight with you, and not giving my boots back right away and making me yell and bitch to get my shirt back that one time, you've done nothing to me. You've been there, and especially now when you're one of the only ones who knows about certain things. So I thank you :)
Ashlie
She won't see this for a damn long time! But it's here anyways.
What can I say? We've had a little fight, but could it even count as a fight? We yelled at each other...a lot, but then got over it and by the end of the day were like 'I LOVE YOU!' You're always the first one I call when I want to go somewhere, because you always go with me hehe. My sister and dad may not think that you are the greatest friend, but in my mind, you really are. You're the only one (besides Ariel) who's stuck by me for this whole year with all this crazy bullshit going on. You've been there through thick and thin. You listen. And most of the time, it actually seems like you do care about me. I love you, Ashlie. You really are an amazing friend and person and I hope I never lose you.
Daria
I love you! SO much. I wish I could see and talk to you more. I'm really sorry about the other day, I was rushed. But I promise, the next time we're on at the same time, I'm gonna sit there and talk to you about anything and everything, ok? When you get back from Poland, CALL ME!!! And we HAVE to hang out. And like Ashlie, you've stuck by me and been there with everything. You are also an amazing friend and person, and I cherish your friendship SO much. You mean a lot to me, and I may not show it as much as I should, but I promise you do. I LOVE YOU!!!!!
Anyone else who I forgot (unless you're Jose) - I love you a ton and you mean a lot to me, I just don't have anything seperate to say to you (well, unless you were Jaime, but he doesn't see this. And if he does, he just needs to yell at me and I'll add him in there.).
OH WAIT I LIED!!!!!!
Jenni
This will sound a lot like the comment on your GJ in the annonymous post, and I also made that. Even though you weren't supposed to know that but oops?
I've known you online for what? 2 years? ATLEAST! And I love you so much. Every time we'd talk, you'd make me happy. So happy. You were basically the reason I had no life, heh. Because all I wanted to do was sit at the computer and talk to you. Ask Sarah, it's why we drifted apart for a little bit. But it was my choice. You have changed my live, my views, my perspective on so much...and I cherish that. You have got to be one of the greatest people I've ever..EVER met. I'm grateful we still talk a little, but I miss talking to you for hours everyday. I don't know what I did wrong, but if I could go back in time, and take that all back just so we could talk again, I would.
I love you and I always will. Thank you for being a part of my life.
Stephie
I love you, babe. We stopped talking for a little bit, because I couldn't think of what to say. But don't ever, EVER think for even just a SECOND that just cuz we stopped talking means I stopped caring. Cuz I never did. NEVER. I wish we talked more, and we need to see each other again because that day was great fun :). I still remember it clearly.
I love you forever and always. Bffeaeaeaeae (remember that? hehe.) I love you, YouStephie <3.
I pity you if you sat through that and read it if you don't know me offline or if you aren't Stephie or Jenni. Haha cuz that is hella long.