i'd like to say that i am wise and i could share my wisdom with everyone who would read this but idk if i am just stupid or if i figured out something deep sometimes, like the other night...i cried and i felt better and then the next night i didnt get to cry and i felt like shit and it made me think crying is like throwing up, u dont wanna do it ( Read more... )

some things in my life are done i think, i am sad and confused but i guess God knows best and things happen for a reason. i cried so hard yesterday, in front of my friends and i kinda felt like a damn fool but for one of the first times i didnt care who saw me i was just heart broken...i had good friends to stand up for me tho and thank u much ( Read more... )

i do stupid things for people who wouldnt do stupid things for me. that's pretty fricking gay lol but really i dont want to try anymore to run after someone who would never run after me except to bring me down. i am speaking of one specific person but if that person was to read this, this person would probably be so thick headed they wouldnt even ( Read more... )

lately things have been all jumbly and funked up hehe i dont know whats going on with anybody lately because nobody does!haha i feel like a bad gf cuz josh doesnt mind when i go out with other guys(friends) but i get all nervous and jealous if he hangs out with Jon and Bryan cuz they always hang out with a group of girls from Griffith...i cant help ( Read more... )

"I'll remember that old place until my dying end These thoughts are like old photos that I cannot throw away On the quest for normalcy, the grass on the other side All my hopes and my fucking dreams I left burried there, somewhere far behind I'll push it down and turn my back no matter how I try Who I was and what I wanted comes flooding to my mind ( Read more... )

hey i haven't posted in a while partly because i dont know what to say ( Read more... )

i'm a freak, i'm a freak, i'm a freak.

hey what's up? I'm on the phone with Liz and I just saw Josh and I don't have to work so today is a good day=) lol tomorrow Ron is supposed to get his car but we'll see about that. and just for the record...Olivia hates me but I know why and she's stupid and Eric is a pedifile. anyhow, SOMEBODY PICK ME UP!jk don't ask (David) so I'm supposed to go ( Read more... )

hey everyone i just got off work and i am POOPED! lol its crazy then i have to wake up at 9 tomorrow to go back=( *sniff* anyways summer is going good so far, and i've had a crap load of stuff on my mind lately...its weird. i need to re-evaluate some things in my life and get myself back on track. anyways, i burned myself at work today=( lol i have ( Read more... )

hey i haven't posted in a while but soon i have to get off cuz im picking up my mommy from the bus stop from the airport (she was in FL) josh is in 6 flags and i really wanted to go but i can't=( *sobs* schwader played the other night and they were so kick ass! gabby was there and she is so pretty=) anywho...i miss the highland crew we went to ( Read more... )