me & R literally spent the whole day together yesterday.
beside school, i was always with him.
a funny thing happened, though.
we ran into B when we went back to his apartment.
B seemed a little down or something.
so i guess he told junior that he had some strong feelings for me.
okay.
i don't get men.
& now junior is going to tell R what B said ( Read more... )

okay i just made a good entry & the f-cking computer didn't update it.
but this sums up how i feel...
hey my friend ( Read more... )

last night yesterday was f-cking crazy.
every little thing about it.
no more boring life for haley, which i assumed to happen, according to my last post.
i went to school for half a day.
chapel was long, but i secretly enjoyed some of it.
shhh.
i went over to Brittany's & chilled for like an hour ( Read more... )

last night = boring.
i hate boost mobile.
i like my new ecko shoes.
maybe a party tonight?
babysit for a couple of hours.
white oleander the book is amazing.
back to the way things were, i suppose.
shallow & empty once again.
i want a ciggarrette.

wow, last night was f-cking nuts.
R called me out of nowhere & the first thing he said was ..
.."You're not supposed to pick up the phone, i wanted to leave a message"
i go sarcastically, "Ok.. you want me to hang up?"
dumbass.
so basically that set the tone for the rest of our conversation.
brief synopsis = R accused me of saying to people that we ( Read more... )

i feel like crap. i should, right?
this is the process of letting go and moving on.
it hurts.
JP wants to get back together with me, i'm pretty sure.
me & brit hung out with him last night ( Read more... )

i haven't felt pain like this in a long time ( Read more... )

f-ck everything.
R called last night.
he said he wanted to talk because it was weird not talking to me & he hadn't talked to anyone all day.
i hate B.
f-cking gay rich faggot.
do i wait for R to get over her ( Read more... )

last night was so freakin weird.
so weird.
i went over to R's house after school & we talked ( Read more... )

R is amazing.
i'm not even close to doubting what i just stated.
R is beyond what i thought someone could be.
i am so relieved, so thankful, so grateful..
he could of walked away.
i almost walked away with his friend.
he came back.
thank God for that.
last night was bad...
i moved back in & my mom got mad at me for having people over.
R told me ( Read more... )