1. shit - i feel like i have to :x ( Read more... )

I guess I don't know my own strength... note to self: punching floor is worse idea thab punching computer monitor. I think I broke my pinky knuckle. I need a better way to vent frustration T_T

I'm 21

BITCHES!

Welp, RO is back up (FINALLY), so don't expect to see me ever again :D

I miss Ryan T_T, did I make the right decision??

I'M JUST SO FRUSTRATED. I understand that Ryan has to work to pay bills and do well in school, but he can't fucking find any time for me whatsoever. Even if I had been trying to make this work all along, it's starting to look like it wouldn't have anyway. Sure I wanted someone responsible, but Jesus Christ... live a little. I wonder how he even had ( Read more... )

You look at a scuffed up wooden floor and think it's a profoundly beautiful thing.

I was talking to Ryan about this some earlier tonight. Lately I don't feel in control of my emotions anymore. Normally, I can smile and melt away anger or jealousy, but now I can't. It all just keeps boiling inside. I think I'm getting depressed again. I can literally feel the depression in my head, but I try to block it out and stay positive. It ( Read more... )

not single again :p

ohhhh i'm seasick...

( I don't get it O_o )

Single again :p