they say time heals everything but im still waiting.

[iigoblockaodii]

Today, I just want to break down and cry every single tear that is in my body and have it pour out of me because that is the only thing I can do. I can’t come up with words to describe the hurt in my heart and denial in the depth of my soul. I refuse to believe that today marks a year since my grandfather passed away and I still can’t get over it.

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[allyjax13]

"It’s hard for me to believe that a year ago, on this exact day, my life was great and I didn’t know what it meant to be so deeply hurt."

It's hard to believe that 10 years ago-more than half of my life, my life was great, and I had no idea what was about to hit.

I'm really sorry I'm not home so we could make an emergency NB Diner run :( It sucks, and there prolly will never be a day that goes by where you don't think of him. I'm not an expert and don't know what a "healthy" amount of thinking is, but i don't think there is such a thing. You'll always think of him, most likely in everything you do, but i'd say invest that time you didn't get to spend/say what you want to your grandfather in your other family. (although I guess I'm not the perfect example of that either) But then you won't regret anything in the future.

idk if any of this made sense but long story short, I know EXACTLY what you mean. And there's really no way of...accepting it...just...dealing with it on a day to day basis.

[___tonight___]

i love you very much, and i hate for you to be so upset. i guess this is one of those things that will never fully make sense, and we really need to put our trust in god and those around us to hwlp pull us through.
that being said, i miss you very much, and i wish i could be with you through all of this. i hope you know i love you very much and i am praying for you all the time. please remember that, and i cant talk to you soon enough!

[iigoblockaodii]

i love you twooo<33
i miss you guys so crazyyyy