I really hate my life at times. I find myself again at a point in my life, when I have no other choice. I have to make an extremely difficult decision. I have no other option, but one. Things have to be worked out, and discussed...because I have fucked up, leaving myself no alternative.

Sorry All...

he he he he he I am at wills house...he he he he he

Well...job searching is slow and tedious. Going better than I thought it would. More Applications to fill out...I'm sick of writing my name but ohhh well.

Random Things I've Done:

Had another one of my Dreams...this one involved my brother, getting jumped in Boston and me dealing with the bad people...the usual way (this time involved a ( Read more... )

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Almost did it last night...but struggled through the last bit of the hell i called life ( Read more... )

I hate myself and want to die...this pain in my head has gotten worse...so bad that I am dizzy and its making me sick to my stomach. I've already almost puked twice...which would be a mess because we have no water for some reason...

god i need medical coverage....

::whispers in my head::

Please don't let Derrick be there...Please don't let Derrick be there...

Rules Phred...


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One more day left...from my week of hell... 10 days strait without a day off...
ends tomorrow at 8...i don't know when I'll be getting out...

Then Christmas with the Families...Mortenson's, Bolte's, and the 74WcW

Then Marciemas...she has NO idea :)