Torture
Went to the dentist again to get a root canal. Again. Third Saturday I had to go there. He didn't give me as much novacaine stuff as last time because I reacted so badly to it. As a result, once he drilled close to the roots there was an explosion of horrible agony. I managed not to jerk my head or scream but could not stop my leg from kicking out and knocking some stuff over and humming angrily at him. So he stops and tries to figure out a solution. I'm already feeling sick from the novacaine stuff and this makes me feel worse. He decides it will be quicker to just drill all the way in to the roots and inject them directly instead of making me sicker with more shots in the gums. He instructs me to not move at all. Jesus fucking christ. I don't think I moved, at least not much. I want to scream and cry but I somehow manage not to and just groan out "AHHHHHH" as quietly as possible. Everything is fading fast and I can't breathe and I just want the pain to stop. Then he stabs the needle into the roots one by one which makes me really need to throw up. Then the pain is gone and I don't really feel any better. I am in fact feeling worse but at least there won't be any more pain. He drills some more and then FUCK AGONY AGAIN. The direct injection should have completely numbed the root. He doesn't know what else to do. He asks me if I'll be able to hold still. I guess I said yes because I held still while he filed the roots out. It was horrible agony I never want to experience again. God please never again.
I vaguely remember him sitting the chair up slowly so I didn't pass out and him asking if I was okay. Looking out the window and seeing snow when the forecast is sunny and there was no sign of snow when I went in. I said yeah and asked him if it was snowing and he looked at me like I was crazy then looked outside at the blizzard. It was sunny again with no sign of snow when I left so I'm not sure if that actually happened.
I remember trying to talk to the guy at the desk about my insurance to see how much is left after I get this one fixed. Then I was passing out and had to sit in a chair. I sat there for a long time trying to focus because my hearing was gone and I had tunnel vision and I couldn't breathe.
I have an appointment card for next saturday and a note that says I owe them $16 so I guess my insurance is all used up. My temp fillings should last a month before I need buildups and crowns which should be about $1000 each. Like that is happening.
I want to thank Arkhanis for being there for me while I was severely in need of someone and desikitteh for sending her support. I really needed it. Love you guys <3