i dont even know where to start... so... i just will ( Read more... )

ive been meaning to update. i dont know why i have not ( Read more... )

Everyone is moved in. All is well... for now ( Read more... )

... im so ready for my emotional rollercoaster to end.

gettin a lil woozy from the up downs.

last day of preseason is tomorrow.

i feel like all ive been doing is

eat
sleep
breathe
play field hockey

my attempt at a social life is weak... because after all that... i am weak.

shin splints suck.

thats all.

i dont even know what is going on in my life anymore.

its friday. a week of preseason has gone by... i feel like im dying. every day is a struggle to get out of bed... to eat... to keep up with the person in front of me. preseason is always depressing... i hate having stress.

wahtever... i cant even deal. im going to bed.

arrived at merrimack today.
i have pink and black hair and i love it.
i feel like im not going to make it thru preseason.
i have no choise.
i pray that this year will be like no other.

thats all.

oh... and there are not words to explain how blown away i am by glen. incredable.

and when i look at myself i see a mistake. i see someone that shouldnt even be here. how is it possibly possible for me to continue to fuck up so many times... i am that kid. i am the rotten egg of the family. kris fucked up once... ya know... whatever he was younger, and now hes a good kid... micah has not reached that point in her mills life ( Read more... )

you facinate me ( Read more... )

what the hell am i really gettin myself into ( Read more... )

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