wow i really don't know what to do anymore. the mystery girl that scotty has been talking to is rabecca fucking hoyt. the huge slut of pioneer that gives it up to anyone and takes it up the ass. i just want to die. i really want to end it all. i know in a few weeks i won't feel the same but right now, this very second i would pay someone to just ( Read more... )

yeah ... soo all this time i thought that the tough decision for scotty was between me and his current girlfriend, michelle, no her name is not kayla like i thought. BUT no, there is another girl in the picture. fantastic huh?

well yeah .. this is how my splendid day went.

well, me and scotty PLANNED on going to the flea market this afternoon, ( Read more... )

alrighty, well it's friday night now, and last time i wrote was on tuesday.. SOO.. the past couple of days : nothing really too exciting has gone down ( Read more... )

hello =] so yeah, today was a new day. much better for me actually. last night ended up going pretty shitty. as i wrote, scotty mentioned that he wanted me to go to darien lake with him yesterday but he couldn't get away from the whore. so i thought it was unfair that he couldn't go just because she didn't have money. SO me, being the nice person i ( Read more... )

blah, i just woke up from such a bad dream. i decided to take a nap and had a bad dream about scotty and i. i don't remember it by detail now, i'm sure as the night goes on it will come to me. but it sucked, and i love my mommy for waking me up =] hehe ( Read more... )

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it just amazes me how much of a liar dan is. daniel joseph jennings jr. is posibly the most insane liar ever. this is actually quite funny, haha. ok so for starters, the other day or whenever it was that he showed up.. basically the first thing he did was show me all kinds of business cards, saying that those were the people he worked for and ( Read more... )

err, i hate it when i go a few days without updating this bitch. well the last day that i updated was the 18th, monday evening. well that night i ended up talking to scotty. he actually answered his phone, so that was cool. he was obviously being a dickhead to me about everything. and then i asked him if this was how it was going to be, and he said ( Read more... )

i absolutely hate my life, more than anything. i have never met a girl that has cared or given as much as i have to her loved one. i give it all up, and get fucked in the end, EVERY TIME. these are one of those days where i want to just crawl in a whole and die. there is nothing that is good in my life.. i mean, it could obviously be so much worse ( Read more... )

this is getting to be fuckin pathetic. anyone that may possibly read my journal must think i am about 12 years old. i swear, every mother fuckin day shit changes. one day, things are fuckin incredible, then the next, i'm ready to kill myself. it's pathetic. shit changes so much with scotty that it's not even funny ( Read more... )