Comments | illoeanta: que sera sera

illoeanta

que sera sera

Aug 09, 2005 15:58

Just letting you all know as of next week I am terminating myself from LiVEJOURNAL. If you have some wish to know what I'm up to, I'll be at myspace.com I'm not hard to find if you know how to find me.

Ciao forever!

~ Le Chat Noir

Comments 8

If you say so... anonymous August 13 2005, 13:44:45 UTC

Often you say things and a lot of the time you don't really mean them. If you're going to do it, then do it. Oh, and another thing, I know you pretty well, you're just like me, but you would never see it the way you judge me. You've been judging me since the moment I said the word hello, and after all this time I've finally learned to judge you right back. I tell you this though... no matter what you have endured in life, someone else has gone through it too, and the snide comments you make or the things that you do can affect some people- forever. You're a good person Ryan, but I don't think you could see what another person is like without first judging them and that is beyond pitiful. Ciao...

Re: If you say so... illoeanta August 13 2005, 20:40:01 UTC

I'm not a good person. I've tried to be, and I make ammends now, but for whatever reason, I just want to start all over again. I've completely forgotten everyone and there are just a few things left to erase before I can start anew again. You may or may not understand, in any case, I don't care what anybody thinks. Also, it's unfair to say I "judge", I may impartially but mostly I just react to how people treat me. As of late it's been rather poorly. I don't see things getting any better, but I'll atleast try.

You Don't Judge??? anonymous August 13 2005, 22:43:59 UTC

Really! That's about the oddest thing I've heard all year long. You don't know me well enough to know what my favorite color is but apparently you know me well enough to tell the man that I love to break up with me. Funny, because I could have sworn that once I attempted to explain my life to you, and you shrugged it off like so much nothing. Still, I do know enough of you to understand there is some good in there somewhere-otherwise you wouldn't care so much, would you? At any rate, you should understand that there is an entire world out here beyond your own and if you opened your eyes and saw things for what they were, saw the good, the bad, the sorrow, the misery, the pain, the joy, the love in other people's lives, you might be overcome with more emotion than you could ever feel for yourself. I'm not saying I want your pity, and I'm certain no one else does either, but it would be nice if you stepped down off of your woe-is-me pedestal and joined the rest of us back down here on Earth. It would be great if someone could get ( ... )

Re: You Don't Judge??? illoeanta August 14 2005, 10:04:51 UTC

I still don't know what you're talking about and as far as I'm conserned the only people I've condemned are those who betray me. I've seen the world already, it's a wonderful thing, though everything you noted of what makes human kind just irritates me. I can't stand looking at other people. There's not a damn good thing about me and I will tell you that you will never meet anyone more faitless nor foolish than I and if you do please tell me so that I may speak with them. There are but few things people as cynnical as I could say to eachother. In any case I never encouraged any kind of breakup. That's a stupid thing to say. I've never even connotated that to anyone. I may have told people that they need to get out of town eventually. if they took it the wrong way, that's not my fault. On the lighter side of me I have dreams and I know everyone does. Mine have nearly come true already and all I encourage is that people pursue their dreams before anything else. You were right about one thing though. I care, maybe a little too much and ( ... )

What's the point? anonymous August 14 2005, 15:58:24 UTC

What exactly is the point of arguing with me about this? Have I no right to express my opinion? I understand that this is your journal, yet I don't think you know what I really mean by seeing the world. I couldn't care less if you feel more for others sometimes. If you understand that those feelings are wasted, then maybe you should use them on people who actually care. As for encouraging people to follow their dreams, what if they already found them? Maybe to some people, even if they are trapped in a small town, being with the one they love is following their dream, and if I thought for one second that I was the only reason he is here you better believe I would care enough to send him away, because I love him more than you can conceive of. Also, if you want to know about worldly events I'll trade you lives any day of the week. Sit there and tell me you are going through dramatic events right now- fine- do it, but understand that I am too. All I wanted from you was the right to express my opinion, but you know what, I see ( ... )

Re: What's the point? illoeanta August 14 2005, 20:27:59 UTC

I'm going to respond anyway to say this: because I am arraogant and have no feelings left inside of my pitiful little body. It's heartbreaking what you went through, and while I can't sympathize, I can somewhat empathize. In any case it wouldn't matter to you. I figured as much because what I have to say is just words, and mine don't seem to matter much to anyone. As for people who truly care about me. There are few and they grow less with each passing month. In any case, I don't thing it's poignant to compare lives. I've seen my fair share of death and I've had pain inflicted upon me. Not all of them may have been the ones I love, but in any case, I used to have compassion for everyone. You seem so angry at me and I really can't figure out why. I've done nothing directly to you and how I feel about myself is my business. I've been looking a long time for somebody to talk with and somebody who could empathize with me. I'm not about to let that happen. I'm too tough on myself to find help and even though I think of a permanent end to ( ... )

name anonymous August 16 2005, 15:38:05 UTC

Evelyn.

An honor illoeanta August 17 2005, 10:10:20 UTC

I have enjoyed communicating with you Evelyn. I request that you e-mail me at illoeanta@rock.com. I want to shut down my livejournal account. I believe that communication between us two is important. I figure it this way. There's nothing more important to me than my brother's happiness. (By the way he is NOT my step-brother, to me he IS my brother.) I personally only care about his well-being in life and he is one of the few people I will give my life for. I haven't judged you or your relationship to him. As I told him myself, young love is a wonderful thing and I wouldn't want anything to come between that. I've been there before. You need not my blessings to do as you please but if at all it helps you do have them. If you are not savy with myself, than by all means this is something we muct work on. Seeing as you're with my brother, it means that perhaps one day you shall join me in sibblingship. I cannot have disputes with either brothers or sisters. it is a very dishonerable position. I've been an outcast for long enough, and I'd ( ... )