So, I'm about to leave and go to Alaska. It is a place that I've never been to before, I know nobody there and it is almost completely isolated. I say to the average person it doesn't get any more scary than that, but by now, I'm used to traveling to places I've never been to before, adjusting to things I've I've never had to before, etc. How do I ( Read more... )

What do I have to say to the next batch of failures in life? Probably what I'm about to say. First of all everyone who just graduated, congratulations. Second of all you've no idea how scary the world truly is until you've lived in it. Even though that be the case a lot of you all still won't go out into the world. I break it down in percentages of ( Read more... )

Friday the twenty-second. . .the swallows have returned to Petaluma from the south. They make their nests under the eaves of the buildings here. Every morning as I stand at attention during colours, I can see them flying overhead in the hazy sky. As I look and watch them fly in formation I realize how like my life their movements are. It is all so ( Read more... )

Hello all! I know you all have probably heard different things from different people about my time here. . .the truth is, is that I tell everyone something different. I wonder if anyone ever even really cares what goes on with me anymore. I'm sure some do. I know there's atleast one person that's made it their mission in life to try to hate me no ( Read more... )

I'm not gone yet, in fact, this will be my second entry for the day. In that. . .let me tell you about my day. It was all mostly pleasant. The only bad part about it was that I cut myself pretty bad shaving this morning. It looks as if I took a chunk out of my upper lip. . .well, gotta be more careful next time I s'pose. That's what I get for being ( Read more... )

So far so good today. I'm feeling really well, a little sad, but I blame it on the hormones. I just realized that there's not much holding me to California anymore. There is but a couple of people and I feel that they wouldn't mind if I move on. The only problem I see with moving on is where I want to live in the future. I'm thinking about leaving ( Read more... )

Reason, reason is a real funny thing, and most people only seem to want to reason when they are in trouble. Most people only seem to ask deep questions when their life turns to shit. I'm not going to say anything about these people. I'm not going to look down on them or bad mouth them or do anything of a kind because I used to be one of them. I've ( Read more... )

I'm back, atleast for a little bit. To spare all of the graphic details, BOOTCAMP was alright. They just about killed me on the stationary workout bikes but all in all, it was a good experience.Plenty of funny things happening but I'm so sick of talking about it all really. Here's my advice to all of you, if you wanna know all the details. . . .GO ( Read more... )

I find it funny that hardly anybody checks my messages anymore, they all probably forgot about me. That is after all, my number one fear. In any case, I feel a little enlightened. While there is a part of me that wants to approach everyone that has ever made me feel uncofrtable and tell them to fuck off, there is another part of me that doesn't ( Read more... )

There will be people that will complain of an impropper goodbye. There will be those who are content with what I have to say to them. Then there are those whom I chose to ignore completely. I wonder if anyone ever wondered why I stopped going to Water Canyon on Sunday nights. It isn't just because I wanted to spend time alone with Jennifer. It isn' ( Read more... )