I was amazed when I got online at how many women friends have suffered from depression. Obviously it's different for everyone.
I was eating a lot of sweet stuff too. Cream buns. And salty salami. My body wanted carbs!
I was prescribed some pills, but the thought of taking them scared me. At about that time I was offered a transfer at work, I took it, moved house - and a lot of my tensions eased. I got a whole bunch of new ones, but I coped.
And can still feel it creeping around the edges sometimes. Losing my Dad last year, my sister-in-law this year. Health problems. I survive by being a bit selfish, taking care of myself first, odd as that seems. I do a lot for others, work, care for my mum, but I still put myself first. If I think I can't cope with something I don't do it.
Take care of yourself. Be as understanding with yourself as you would be if this was happening to someone you love. It is!
I think we under estimate the effect work can have on us. So much of our lives spent there. I found a lot of pressure eased for me when a co-worker changed shifts. A good day now is when I don't even see her! I hadn't even realised how much of a drain such a negative person can be.
I understand what you're going through must be very painful for you, even if you don't want to see it that way with so many people in life suffering as well. I just wanted to tell you that, depression isn't such a minor thing itself
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It will get better, you will find the right treatment, whether it's the correct medication or therapy and it will ease, I promise. It just might take a little trial and error to find the right one but when you do you will be surprised what a difference it can make. And you are most definitely worth it, so keep going hun. As a very dear friend once told me, as long as you are still breathing there is more right with you than wrong.
And never, ever, let anyone tell you depression isn't a real problem. Just because it doesn't show up on an x-ray doesn't mean it isn't a real illness and the effect it has on you isn't valid. Consider telling your family about it hun, I know it's a hard thing to talk about but it may help - if nothing else, I'm sure they will have noticed changes in you and knowing the cause, knowing you are getting help, may really put their minds at ease.
I know it seems hard to believe now, but this will pass. And you will be you again.
hello there its been a long while. i understand how you feel, i really do. when i am depressed(not just an offhanded 'depressed' too suicidal thoughts and all...), i feel bad because there people out there with real problems and im here feeling sorry for myself. i almost wish that someone with real problems can switch so i'd have something to be really depressed about. u understand? I dont know...i just understand how you feel.
I really believe its getting better - I'm taking my medication, I've attended counselling and the woman said I was already doing the things she'd recommend - I've recognised that just curling up in a ball in my bed alone in my room doesn't make me feel better in the long run, I've moved jobs, I FORCE myself to go out and socialise even I don't feel up to it - and often I end up having fun! I've signed up for a course in an attempt to get me into a planned form of forced socialisation - she's hoping it will also help my confidence - making me talk to people outside my circle of friends.
Once again, thank you so much for commenting. Thanks to LJ and the few RL ppl who know, I know I'm not alone, and what I've been going through it alot more common than I knew.
I hope you're feeling better, and feel free to email if you ever need someone to talk to.
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I was eating a lot of sweet stuff too. Cream buns. And salty salami. My body wanted carbs!
I was prescribed some pills, but the thought of taking them scared me. At about that time I was offered a transfer at work, I took it, moved house - and a lot of my tensions eased. I got a whole bunch of new ones, but I coped.
And can still feel it creeping around the edges sometimes. Losing my Dad last year, my sister-in-law this year. Health problems. I survive by being a bit selfish, taking care of myself first, odd as that seems. I do a lot for others, work, care for my mum, but I still put myself first. If I think I can't cope with something I don't do it.
Take care of yourself. Be as understanding with yourself as you would be if this was happening to someone you love. It is!
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I think we under estimate the effect work can have on us. So much of our lives spent there. I found a lot of pressure eased for me when a co-worker changed shifts. A good day now is when I don't even see her! I hadn't even realised how much of a drain such a negative person can be.
Best of luck! I'm sure everything will be fine!
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And never, ever, let anyone tell you depression isn't a real problem. Just because it doesn't show up on an x-ray doesn't mean it isn't a real illness and the effect it has on you isn't valid. Consider telling your family about it hun, I know it's a hard thing to talk about but it may help - if nothing else, I'm sure they will have noticed changes in you and knowing the cause, knowing you are getting help, may really put their minds at ease.
I know it seems hard to believe now, but this will pass. And you will be you again.
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i understand how you feel, i really do. when i am depressed(not just an offhanded 'depressed' too suicidal thoughts and all...), i feel bad because there people out there with real problems and im here feeling sorry for myself.
i almost wish that someone with real problems can switch so i'd have something to be really depressed about. u understand?
I dont know...i just understand how you feel.
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exactly!! I totally understand!
Thank you so much for commenting.
I really believe its getting better - I'm taking my medication, I've attended counselling and the woman said I was already doing the things she'd recommend - I've recognised that just curling up in a ball in my bed alone in my room doesn't make me feel better in the long run, I've moved jobs, I FORCE myself to go out and socialise even I don't feel up to it - and often I end up having fun! I've signed up for a course in an attempt to get me into a planned form of forced socialisation - she's hoping it will also help my confidence - making me talk to people outside my circle of friends.
Once again, thank you so much for commenting. Thanks to LJ and the few RL ppl who know, I know I'm not alone, and what I've been going through it alot more common than I knew.
I hope you're feeling better, and feel free to email if you ever need someone to talk to.
Thanks again.
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thank you
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