my cat has been gone for 2 days!!!! and i am not there to go search for him!!!!!!! im going nuts here. he really is like my child. it hurts my stomach to know he could be hurt or picked up by someone or a shelter and ben better go search for him as much as i would! oi....

so i overreact.....things are better...i'm still coming home for a week or so. i was supposed to come wednesday but things happened, not bad things, and i probably won't until saturday or sunday. i miss hk chinese food and hot weather at night....and going to the beach and not being cold.

i am coming home....i have failed...life is not good.

i think that is what i should have been.

if i ever have kids....they are either gonna be a ballerina....or play the cello.

....or an artist. :o)

so i got fired yesterday from my job. my manager told me it was because of my appearance and because she thought it just was not working out...even though i had been there for 6 months...i was up for a review and a raise...i asked her to explain what she, but she kept saying it just wasn't working out. okay first of all...my appearance is fine ( Read more... )

i have a 5 page paper due tomorrow at noon and OF COURSE ben has distracted me from doing it by being an ass...i can't concentrate now...so i am going to have to get up at like 5 am tomorrow to do the fucking paper and then i have to give a presentation!! only 2 more days though...then the semester is over!!!!!!!!!!!

in june. the 15th to the 21st. wooweee. it better be nice and hot there. and i better be able to go to sylvan beach. and everyone better be ready to party like it's 1999!!!!! (i'm such a dork for using that saying. oh well)

i just closed the store but we have an hour left...i thought it was 5...but it's only 4...goddammit. i'm super confused right now.

i've been feeling bored lately...but i haven't wanted to do anything. it is too cold and dreary outside at night when i am normally free...i think i do not like this city....

well..."working." it is super slow today...and i like that. sundays normally are really slow, we just have a lot of clothes to take out of boxes and hang. anyhow, today i am moving! moving back in with ben. o_O i was gonna move out of the place i am at now in may, and didn't expect to move back in with ben, but he asked me, and it just feels ( Read more... )