i'm so sorry

Brain and I are going to be friends with benefits!!! I'm so fucking excited! He wasn't sure about it at first cuz he said he would just end up hurting me but then he agreed wit me that it would be a fun thing to do. I love life! Well I ttyl! love you all. especially traci!

I had so much fun on friday night!!!! I was really glad that nobody drank because that would have put me in a really awkward position because I had decided I wasn't going to drink. I decided not to drink because I really want to go to the warped tour this summer and I cannot fuck up. Well I don't know what is going on with me and brian and darreyl ( Read more... )

I think I just confused chris but I don't know if he even believed what I told him. I just told him the truth. I hope he says yes to ana i just want her to be happy. Tonight is going to be so much fun! I'm so excited. Well I just hope that I don't get in trouble. I'm still debating whether or not I want to get drunk. It would be so much fun but I ( Read more... )

Look there is a lot I want to say but I don't know if there will be enough time for me to write it all. I cant feel anything except for hurt. I hurt because of a lot of things. Some of you can't even begin to understand the pain I feel. I have to live with it though. I wrote this poem yesterday ( Read more... )

"Perfect ( Read more... )

I went running tonight until it hurt. I loved the pain. IDK why wait, I'm fucked up that's why. I always make my friends feel bad. honestly I do more bad to them then actually helping them. Ana I don't see you as perfect and I hope you don't think I expect it from you. I love you for who you are not what you are, understand? I hurt so much today. I ( Read more... )

I don't understand why everyone feels better when I'm not around. They feel more comfortable and happy around guys when I'm not there. IDK. Whatever. I don't understand, it's not like the guys give a shit about me. They all love stephanie you know. I almost started crying after school today. I hurt so much not that anyone cares.

God my life sucks. So today was really pointless and kinda stupid. I found out a couple of things about my friends that are a little surprising. I wont say who though ( Read more... )

OMG. You guys probably don't remember but I wrote that poem about ana and darreyl. Well today I threw it away and hazelette took it out of the trash and read it. Then he got worried about me and sent it to my counciler and she freaked out and I had to go down and talk to her. I told her that I wrote it a long time ago and she let me leave. I can't ( Read more... )