Glee Angst prompt filled!

[ilovemckay]

Summary- Something bad happens to Kurt that causes nightmares, the nightmares get so bad that Kurt stops sleeping completely.
A/N- my first try at filling a prompt

Sweet dreams are made of these

How many hours has it been? He’d lost track, his sleep deprived mind just rolling in its terrifying thoughts.

Nothing new, however, this is the third week in a row that sleep has not come to Kurt.

Three weeks since….

With a shake of his head he stopped his thoughts and got out of bed.

Time to face another day, but how can you really face it if you can hardly keep your eyes open?

With a quick cold shower and some coffee Kurt forced himself into wakefulness, although it’s half hearted.

He promptly ignored Finn’s concerned looks from over his cereal bowl and downed a second cup of coffee, just enough to give him another zing before he reached into the fridge and stuffed two red bulls into his bag.

“You know those are really bad for you right?? I mean aren’t you all super anal about healthy food..??” Finn questioned as Kurt shut the fridge, “And you’ve been drinking those every day for like….the past couple weeks now…”

“Well someone is very observant this morning….” Kurt commented dryly as he leaned against the counter. He knew he got out of the conversation when he saw Finns brows draw together in confusion as he tried to remember what ‘observant’ meant, “Hurry up or we’ll be late.” He said shortly before he grabbed his car keys.
__________________________________________________________________

Kurt’s hands tightened on the steering wheel as they pulled up to the school. He didn’t want to go, he really didn’t. He knew he’d be back today.

Unfortunately, he had no choice.

He put the car in park and Finn slid out, grabbing his backpack. He glanced over at Kurt who remained completely still in the seat, his eyes locked ahead.

Finn followed his gaze and noticed that it came to rest on one of the jocks standing in the front of the school.

David Karofsky.

‘Funny…wonder why he’s back all of a sudden….I mean, absent for three weeks and then poof back just like that.’ He thought to himself as he watched the jock walk into the school.

Once Dave was out of sight he looked back to Kurt who had grown as white as a sheet.

“Kurt…you ok? You look kind of sick...” he said as he looked over kurts face with concern.

Slowly Kurt turned and looked at Finn, his eyes locking with his.
For the first time in a while Finn really saw Kurt and what he saw screamed exhaustion.

“Maybe you should go home and go back to bed….you could say you’re sick or something because you seriously don’t look good.”

Kurt let out a short laugh that sounded forced and cold before he turned off the car and hopped out, slinging his bag over his shoulder, “Well thank you Finn that makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside.” He replied sarcastically.

Finn rounded the car, “No seriously….you look really tired…” he tried again but Kurt just turned from him and strutted into the building.
____________________________________________________________________

The school day had been exactly how Kurt thought it would be-

Pure. Hell.

Red bulls just don’t seem to work anymore. All they do is give him a small jolt of energy and then nothing.

By the time it was time for glee practice he was absolutely drained.

He dragged his feet towards the choir room but a hand on his shoulder stopped him and yanked him back. That same hand clamped over his mouth as hot breath washed over his ear, “Missed me fairy?” a deep voice asked as he pressed Kurt tighter to him.

Cold fear shot through smaller teen.

Not again.

He couldn’t let this happen to him again.

But somehow he couldn’t get himself to move.

“I missed you….thought about our time together….seems so long ago…I missed you so much I could hardly sleep. Stupid school with their stupid rules and suspensions….” Dave whispered into his ear, “I thought about you all the time…”

Kurt could feel the press of something hard against his back and he already knew exactly what Dave wanted.

Please not again.

“How about round two??” Dave asked with a deep chuckle.

It was then Kurt mustered all the courage he had in him and yanked an arm free before he jabbed his elbow hard into the soft body behind him.

Dave grunted and released him in surprise at the sudden attack. As soon as the arms slackened he took off like a bat out of hell and rushed towards the choir room. His heart thudding hard in his chest, he could hear the thumping footfalls following him fast.

It was because of him that he has given up on sleeping. Every time he closed his eyes he relived the painful moments behind the dumpster.

Every thrust, every word said to him and worst of all the pain.

However maybe if he had gotten sleep he would have remembered one key thing….

He reached the choir room and flung open the door before running in.
Halfway into the room his heart halted to a shuddering stop as he remembered...

Practice was in the auditorium today.

All the way across campus.

A mournful sob tore from Kurt’s throat as he turned on his heel to come face to face with the teen of his nightmares.

“Aw, poor poor baby…did you get lost??” Dave asked in a sick tone as he approached Kurt slowly.

He had nowhere to run, nowhere to hide and there was no way he could fight Dave off. His limbs already started to feel heavy from the lack of sleep and the pending crash from the red bull.

“it’s gonna be ok…I’m going to take good care of that ass…”

Kurt let out a squeak as his back hit the wall. His body leaned against it and slid down to sit on the floor, his eye lids getting harder to keep open.

“Is baby tired? You must’ve been thinking of me too then huh?” he asked as he kneeled in front of Kurt, his hands sliding up Kurts legs.

“s…stop…” Kurt managed out as his body rebelled against him, wanting to give into sleep, “d..don’t touch me…”

“Oh but you want it….you want me to fuck you…make you scream…and beg…just like last time…’please Dave please’” Dave mocked him with a sneer and laugh as he cupped Kurt through his jeans, forcing him to get hard, “That’s it baby, nice and hard for me…”

A tear slipped down Kurts cheek as his body refused to work for him. He felt Dave go for his zipper when he heard the door open.

Kurt didn’t believe in god but this was a small miracle.

He lifted his tear filled and heavy eyes to the door to see Mr. Schue walk in and flick the lights on.

He spotted them right away and his eyes widened.

“What the hell is going on here?? Dave Karofsky what are you doing??” He demanded as he stepped forward.

Dave looked between Kurt and Will, he knew he was caught.

I mean, after all how can someone talk themselves out of a situation when they have their hand down someone’s pants?

“p….please get him away from me….g..get him off me…p..please Mr. Schue…please…” Kurt pleaded, his voice slightly slurred from exhaustion but the tears continued to fall.

It only took Will a half a second to go over and pull Karofsky away from Kurt and into the hall. He spotted Sue passing and told her to take him to the principal’s office and that he’d meet them there.

He turned and went back in the choir room where Kurt had now curled up and pressed himself against the wall. His shoulders shaking with silent sobs as he buried his face in his knees, his pants still undone.

Will approached Kurt cautiously, just to make sure that he didn’t scare him, “Kurt…you’re ok now….you’re going to be ok now…” he spoke softly as he kneeled down next to Kurt.

Kurt didn’t respond for a while, his tears choking him of his words, “h…how is it going to be ok….? H…how?” he finally asked as he looked to Will, his beautiful blue eyes full of tears and weariness.

Will was about to speak but was cut off by Kurt suddenly pitching forward, his eyes rolling to the back of his head before shutting. He just barely had time to catch him before he face planted on the floor.

“Kurt! Kurt! Can you hear me? Come on….kurt??” Will called as he shook the small boy in his arms, but he was out cold.
__________________________________________________________________

The first thing Kurt was aware of was talking.

Murmured voices sounding from all around him, all of which sounded worried.

The second thing he registered was something soft under him.

A bed.

He was in a bed.

He tried to focus on the voices but he heard one thing that stood out.

“He was molested by Karofsky, how does that say he’s going to be ok?!?But….it’s a good thing Mr. Schue forgot that sheet music”

Like a speeding car hitting him all of the memories returned and flashed in front of his eyes.

With a sharp cry he sat up, his eyes opened quickly and he looked around, scanning the room.

He was in the nurses office on one of the cots, the glee club was in various chairs around the bed. Mr. Schue was still in the principal’s office but Sue was there oddly.

Kurt looked from face to face, his breathing heavy and hard as he tried to get a hold of himself.

‘Not here…he’s not here….he’s not here…’ was the ongoing mantra in his head.

“That’s right Kurt…he’s not here…” Finn said softly as he stepped away from the nurse he was talking to. Kurt didn’t realize he was talking out loud.

He pulled himself to sit up fully and then pulled his knees to his chest.

Silence fell in the room; no one knew what to say. There was nothing that could have been said to make the situation better, no matter how much the glee club wished for it.

“Why didn’t you tell us that he was bullying you that hard core?” Britt suddenly spoke up in her out of it tone though it was clear she had complete understanding of what happened, despite her dimness.

Kurt sucked in a shaky breath, “b…because….he threatened to kill me….i…I was scared….h..he’s a sick…sick kid….a….after the first time….h….he swore he would destroy me if I told…”

“What do you mean first time porcelain?” Sue asked as she moved from her spot by the door. The glee club looked surprised; Sue normally went out of her way to make each kid at the school know that she didn’t like them unless they were Becky.

However they’ve noticed, with Kurt she’s always had a soft spot.

“i…I can’t…i…I can’t c..can’t….n..No” Kurt managed as his breathing increased. He started to hyperventilate and panic as memories of his “first time” assaulted him.

At first everyone was still, unsure what to do as the nurse stepped up but it was Artie that wheeled in front of her. He had a brown paper bag in his hands and he opened it up and handed it to Kurt.

“Breathe into this….slowly….and calmly ok?” Artie said gently as Kurt did what was advised of him. When he noticed the curious looks of the glee club he shrugged, “Even though I’ve been in a wheel chair for a while now….every now and then I get over whelmed. The brown paper bag method works, trust me.”

Kurt breathed into the bag slowly and calmly like Artie said. As he did so he felt Mercedes move closer and start to rub his back gently. He leaned back against her and took a deep breath, taking the bag off his face.

“You think you can explain now…?” Mercedes asked softly as she continued to rub Kurts back supportively.

“t…this wasn’t my first encounter with him….h….he….three weeks ago….h….he…”Kurt said, sounding similar to a stalling car before he finally got it out.

“He raped me behind the dumpsters.”

With his words it was as if all the air had been sucked out of the room as the glee club gasped. Mercedes hand stilled on his back and her eyes widened in shock.

Kurt wanted to shrink in on himself until there was nothing left as he ducked his head ashamed.

Sue without another word turned and walked out of the room, no doubt heading to the principals office.

“Boo….w..why didn’t you tell us?” Mercedes finally asked getting her hand to move again.

He inhaled shakily, “B…because I was disgusted with myself. He manipulated my body to work for him…he forced me to….he forced my body to enjoy it…..i…I didn’t want it….i…I really didn’t….b..but I don’t understand why my body would rebel against me so much? A…after it happened…i…I just kept thinking about it….i…I obsessed over it. I was terrified he was going to show up at my house in the middle of the night and do it again. I would stay up…s..so late at night looking out my window and every time i…I tried to sleep I’d see his face…looking over me as he….” He shuddered in disgust, “S…so I gave up sleeping….i…I don’t think I’ve slept in three weeks….at least not properly…” he paused, “if Mr. Schue never went into the choir room….oh god…..h…he would have done it again…i…I was crashing from a red bull when Mr. Schue stopped him….i…I was so tired…I couldn’t move….so I just laid there. Part of me was hoping I’d pass out and that would be that…i…I gave up….” His voice choked slightly as he put his hands over his mouth, “I gave up…”

Finn walked over to Kurt and put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it, not knowing what to say.

The room fell silent again as the glee club moved closer around Kurt.

No one said a word as they heard the sirens of police cars ring out or as they saw David Karofsky being carted out in handcuffs.

They just sat around Kurt protectively, each of them with a hand on him either on his back or his leg or arm, letting him know that they are there and they will never let him get hurt like that again.

It was then, Kurt finally fell to sleep.

END

A/N- tada???