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god.
my last entry was ages, ages, ages ago. i had to sweep some "agiw" here in my lj.many (actually, many is an understatement) things happened to me in the past couple of days and as much as i want to, i will not be able to write them all down here. but i'll try to do as much anyway. :)
i will list. probably, listing is one of the best things that i can do in life.
1. i have a job already. how cool. i'm working as an assistant training officer in pmrc, a prudentialife affiliate. and as far as my one week had been, i think that things are doing great and i hope that it continues to do well in the coming days.
- my work colleagues are crazy. haha. ours is no office set-up. it has this warm, funny aura and i like it.
- i had what they call my "baptism of fire" last thursday and friday and i am glad too that i was able to cope well with the conference.
- i also met JATA in that conference. he is one hot and kind middle-aged guy who leads our company. as cathy would put it, JATA is not kawaii, rather kakoii. honto ni.
2. i met a co-fangirl in real life that is other than my friends. the experience was cool. like it was some kind of instant connection. she loves tesshi. and she dances "cherish" and "hoshi wo mezashite". hahaha.
3. i've been quite tired recently. too tired to eat. too tired to open the laptop and check my mail. too tired to fangirl.too tired to write on my everyday journal. i often end up literally throwing myself to bed the moment i arrive and get a little nap so that i will have the energy to change my clothes and brush my teeth.
4. i realized, that really, i am no longer a student. last monday, classes were suspended due to typhoon frank and it struck me there, i am no longer one with those who will celebrate at the announcement of suspension of classes.
5. i might have my first salary tomorrow. haha. god, im earning. i no longer ask my mom for allowance and i buy my own stuff too now. geez, i am aging.
6. i'm happy that i am meeting new people and i am meeting lots of them. this really is a new world for me. eating with them, talking with them, working with them, it's so new. and refreshing.
7. i am referred to as the "baby" of the group because by age, i am indeed the youngest. and that is a first time as well, i was never referred to as a baby. haha.
8. corporate attire is no occasional stuff. it is an everyday thing and it's sucking up all my money. uniform onegai.
9. i,too, am experiencing separation anxiety from ryo and everyone. you know, during our breaks, i would have this emo emo moments of longing.(sobs)
10. just a while ago, i cried like it was the best thing that i can do in life in zettai kareshi's tenth episode. and it's been a while since that last time i cried as well. i wish i had a nightly series 01 model.
11. last friends ended a week ago. and although not everyone favored sousuke, he has a soft spot in my heart. poor sousuke. and kudos to ryo for the job well done. that breakdown scene after the rape scene was one hell of goodness. and goodness, take note,is an understatement.
12. novy is in singapore. too bad i wasn't able to tell her "have a safe trip etc". she will be back in a week though. i miss novy. and her straight hair.
13. i spoke to chary yesterday after a long while. and it's always a relief because things don't change. chary and i remain the same.
14. bans had her breast ope last saturday and it's a good thing that it went well. if i could just capture that moment where bans was slightly groggy from her anaesthesia pa.bans in a scrub suit or patient gown was such as scene. haha. love you bans.
15. i've been taking chances effortlessly, without much thought, like that has been the way i was since i was born. chary said the universe is conspiring. and that she has been praying for it. is god granting her prayer? why does it feel like He is granting her prayer?
16.i happened to have the urge to check my horoscope kanina and it said... "The zodiac wheel declares that first you will feel buoyant and filled with optimism then you will manifest the hard evidence of those feelings. so get happy now. the reason is coming." dear lord, i will talk to you tonight.
17. saturday early morning, about 3:30 am. it happened again. my soul separating from my body. and it really scared me. it really did.
18. it feels like water to human. as simple and easy as that.