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[iloveteddy]

For the last few months, Monday has been a day in which I go to the doctor. Today I did the endoscopy. As expected, I have gastritis. I still have to wait for the biopsy results. This exam will help to tell me what illness I have

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[high_priestress]

i have problems too. i want a therapist but i doubt a therapist would help me. i think that my therapist would say the same things my mother would say to me.

life is fun isn't it? its fullll of problems to solve.

[iloveteddy]

I think you should try to see a therapist or psychiatrist, maybe it's different from what you're imagining. What I learnt: only you'll be able to solve your problems... But I feel better to have someone who will listen to my problems and won't make me feel guilty... There are some things that I can't tell my mom...

[high_priestress]

yeah there are many things i cant tell my mother.

i told her about my panic attack.. she understood that. she told me its hereditary and she suffered from panic attacks all her life. i also suffer from another disoder called social anxiety. i still don't think she gets my social anxiety disorder. it came to the point where i don't do anything and i dont want to go out cause a) i mite get a panic attack in public and wont know what to do and im afraid someone might notice. b) im afraid of bumping into someone in public and i have no reason to be afraid yet i still am..c) i have trouble communicating with people or connecting with them and the list can go on forever. she thinks it's strange and its an illness. i think both of my parents think its all in my head. if it was all in my head it would be easy for me to make all these thoughts go away..but nothing seems to help me at all. im still in this house doing nothing but going to work or school. everything else im afraid to do. fun.

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