any minute now scott will be here so we can go talk...hmm i have no idea where this will go

its me again margaret...haha ( Read more... )

i'm feeling a bit better now-i got myself some ice cream and talked to ewing's daughter, zola who made me laugh a lot. plus i've been thinking and listening to some good worship songs and this relationship is not the desire of my heart, its not the love story i've dreamt of and prayed for...i've known that-just didn't want to face it. so this ( Read more... )

right now..i think scott and i are about to break up, i mean i guess you could see that coming but it still hurts. he just told me that one of the reasons we are still together is that he doesn't want to hurt my feelings---ouch. i asked him why else-he said i dont know-ouch. so i'm feeling pretty crappy right now. really bad actually, i ( Read more... )

sorry, that wasn't very funny ( Read more... )

i think scott and i need to take a break, a real break to get our feelings and thoughts together-and really i'm totally ok with the idea, atleast right now i am haha. i'm sure that might change but if it is God's will for us to step back which i believe it is, i think i'll be alright. i just know that my relationship w/God isn't what it should be ( Read more... )

well folks, don't have very many exciting things to talk about....again ( Read more... )

well, i've decided to try and learn html so this should be fun haha. hopefully i won't be a complete failure ( Read more... )

ya know, this just isn't what planned..
it was supposed to bring me joy, supposed to satisfy the longing in my heart-i was supposed to really be loved this time.

yeah but, i'm not joyful, my heart is still longing, and tho i hear the words, i don't see them or feel them, there is no love.

it hurts..

...

yeah.

well folks, its been quite awhile since i last posted on this little feller so i thought i'd give you guys something to read...lets see, whats been going on in my life. Well, youth last wednesday was absolutely amzing--i really pray that it as a turning point for some of them, it think that it was just what the doctor ordered so to speak ( Read more... )