oh my god! people are soooo fucking dumb!!!!!

[iluvjasona]

i don't know how many times i have said this, but my 'friends' can't get it through their heads....if you have a problem with me or have something to say about me, you need to talk to ME! and dont' wait until i have hinted and hinted and hinted until it's sooo beyond obvious that i know something's up. i do know that people are mad at me and i know

Comments

[masked_dancer]

Jess,
I've known you pretty much my entire life. I have to admit that sometimes everyone gets a little rapped up in the present and doesn't think about the past or the future. You've gone beyond a little rapped up. You've made these parties and these people the root of your entire life. You know they aren't. You know that anyone of the friends you hung out with before would stand up for you at any moment but it's hard when the things we're supposed to stand up for you for are things that we're not allowed to know about or things that we weren't there to see. I hate to say it, but if these people really cared about you they wouldn't let you get so drunk that you don't know what you're doing. I'm a believer in having friends that will look out for you, not ones who will look at you and think that what you're doing is funny. So, maybe you should think a little more and realize that no one is saying that it's wrong. More or less, we're all 100% worried about you.

umm..no rachael

[iluvjasona]

how has this suddenly become such a big deal?? they aren't the root of my entire life, they are a very large part of my social life and they are my friends. i have never been to a point that i didn't know what i was doing or where i was out of control. NEVER...so everyone needs to stop saying how worried they are about me because i have given no one a reason to be worried.

Re: umm..no rachael

[masked_dancer]

You've given a lot of reason to be worried. It's called underaged drinking..and darling, it's illegal. I'm not being mean....just merely stating that that's a cause for worriedness in itself.

Re: umm..no rachael

[iluvjasona]

well darling, yes it is illegal, but stop using your 'worry' as an excuse to talk to me the way you all have been or to say the things you have or to 'discuss' me. you're not there so you can't comment on my behavior when i'm drinking...the only people who can do that are my friends who 'don't really care about me,' katie, jessica, and heather. it's awfully funny that none of them seem to have a problem with it. well, heather might a little, but she's heather. hmm...that's odd isn't it...well, they don't have a problem because there is NO PROBLEM! i'm not mad that everyone is 'worried' about me, but don't talk to me like a child because i'm a very intelligent person and deserve to be treated like one with respect.

The Hurt that is Caused

[anonymous]

I think that everyone needs to take a step back and think about what is going on here. I think that attacking each other isn't what needs to be done. People are being hurt on both ends of this. On Jessica's end....she is being hurtful to herself by her actions and also b/c her friends are ganging up but on the other hand Jessica is hurting her friends by the way she is handling things...it is so childish to be fighting over this and not to think about it as adults. I am really scared that if people keep up the stupidness on the live journals what will happen and also what the world will be like with people acting like this running it. Take a minute and look at yourselves people.....this is something so small and stupid in your life. You have to think of how the decisions that you are making now are going to affect your life...if you think that drinking every weekend is going to help you down the road then you have a problem i think. stop acting like 5 year olds and grow up!

Re: The Hurt that is Caused

[iluvjasona]

well my god, everyone has an opinion don't they. and you are??? no, drinking every weekend won't help anyone down the road, but it's also not hurting anyone, so kindly stay out of my life. i am having a GOOD TIME!! and wether anyone else wants to believe it, it is harmless fun. i'm not intentionally hurting anyone(they're getting hurt because they don't accept me), i'm just having an awesome summer. and as much as they say that i've pushed them away, they've done the same to me.

my thoughts

[anonymous]

Jessica

Re: my thoughts

[meg698]

Ok... this needs to stop here and now. Speaking from the *new friends* perspective Jessica is doing nothing wrong. Yes underaged drinking is illegal.. whoops! We're being teenagers ok. But we DO watch out for each other despite what you may think. And just because someone makes *new* friends does not mean they have to lose the old ones. I don't see where the big deal is. Lets all just chill and let friends be friends. A friend is someone who cares about you and respects you and loves you for WHO YOU ARE and doesn't try to change or bad mouth you in any way. I love Jess and she's a BLAST to hang out with (*partying* or not.) And about as far from a slut as you can get. Come on guys... let things go.. you are all going to college in 2 weeks why leave things on a bad note? Keep hanging out the way you've been and understand that perhaps.. someday one of you will make friends outside of your little clique and will want to spend time with them. I had never hung with Jess before because I (like MANY others) had a very narrow

Re: my thoughts

[iluvjasona]

THANK YOU MARGARET!!! someone has finally said something that i agree with 100% you definitely hit the nail on the head especially with the first part. thanx sweetie!

this isn't going to be a bitchy comment

[ex_kozmic_bl256]

About the drinking thing......yes I know that everyone has done it sometime in their teenage lives. But it's not really the coolest thing in the world and sometimes it does get you into trouble. Just look at what happened to me. And when you do things like that all the time, rumors start to spread regardless of what you do. Also, I've realized, that when this starts to happen, you can't change everyones mind about you whether or not it's true or not. I'm not saying that you should stop drinking and never pick up another drink in your life.....but if it's causing all these problems with other people, maybe you need to calm down a little with it. You don't have to if you don't want to, but it's just a suggestion. You don't need alcohol to have fun.

why all this drama???

[hotgirlfdhs2003]

Hey everyone~
I just thought i would add my 2 cents in eventhough i am not there to see everything that is going on. From what i have read on here yall need to just get a long. Jess i know that lately you have been hanging out with your 1 group, which there isnt anything wrong with that but you should also spend sometime with your other friends too.(Make time for everyone!) Dont get mad at me for saying this but i am just being a friend and tell ya what i think. All of yall are going to be leaving and going to college and i would hate to see yall leave on bad terms. B/c i know i wouldnt have wanted to move on bad terms with any of my good friends. And far is the whole drinking thing i think that people can make there own decisions far as that. But i do believe that there is a certain extent of how much you should drink. Well i just wanna say hey to everyone!! Miss yall!!
<3Krys<3

This should stop

[masked_dancer]

I'd like to add the rest of my opinion now. I don't care if anyone's sick of it or not. Jess, you can say that you wanted people to talk to you about all of this, but from the way you're acting now, you would've probably been mad as all hell. I never said that you had to stop drinking and I don't think that you should. It's not bad to be exposed to alcohol before college. Where I get mad is when people flaunt it or talk about it a lot. I can't say that you talk about it 24/7 cuz I'm not around you that much...frankly some ppl may not want to be because of that. I can't answer for them. I can answer for only me. What you do does not affect the way I see you in any way. You're still one of my best friends and always will be. No one can change that but that doesn't mean that you can't take a little constructive criticism from people who obviously care about you.

Re: This should stop

[iloveboyz]

i completey agree with you rachael..... i feel the same way about everything you've just said. jess... remember when heather started to drink and talked about it to everyone, and you and i both said how it got old real fast?... well i still feel the same way.. but now you're the one talking about.. and i'm referring to some of your journal entries and when i've talked to you online, etc. ... so just remember how you felt when heather talked about it.. that's how the majority of your friends feel now. i also agree with rach on the whole being friends thing. we've had soooo many great times together. i consider you to be one of my best friends. this whole thing started with our convo from the other night. did i not say that it would probably blow up into some huge thing? i didn't tell you my problems because i knew what would happen. well when i did you got all mad at me. how come you got mad at me and not rachael and heather when they told you their problems? and don't say that it's because i never confronted you about it. i didn't for