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Today was a good day. Nicci is here with me and we have been hanging out and it has been a blast! After sleeping our lazy asses in we finally got ready and headed to Stevie's. Then we hung out for a while and then we decided to go downtown to the Rosegardens. That was AWESOME! and then we went to this absolutely adorable dessert and coffee house! ( Read more... )

So yesterday after chamber choir, Stevie and I flew to the 3Cities. After getting a ride home from Adam and then using my Dads car, we drove over to Walmart to waste time (and to find Steven some sunglasses). Then we went to CBC's jazz night. I don't know what it is, but something about CBC's Theatre and the atmosphere in there is HOME! There is ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated much because I have been so busy. Last Thursday I went with Steven and Brenna to Sutter (??) Lake, where Brenna had her interview for summer staff. It was a fun and picture filled day. Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE driving??? But Steven and Brenna made a fun eventful ride. When we got back later that day I hauled ass ( ( Read more... )

So I am the luckiest girl ever! Morgana hooked me up with a FREE hair appoinment at Toni and Guy this really hip hair salon in Portland! So my hair is gorgeous, and I feel like shit. How crappy is that ( Read more... )

Yesterday Mainstream did 3 gigs. All were pretty fun. Fiesta in Blue was a disaster both times we did it, which makes me sad, but hey what are you going to do about it? All the kids enjoyed our gigs none the less, so that is all that matters. I think that lonnie had fun hanging with us as well! Eric, Brice, and I were cracking him up at all times. ( Read more... )

So its been pretty regular every night, the past 3 weeks or so, that I have a restless sleep. Almost always caused by nightmares. I frequently have dreams that consist of me being in a situation where all my friends here in Portland disappear. I am with them one minute and the next I am frantically searching for them, but I can't find them. ( Read more... )

So yesterday will live as one of the most Memorable days I had with my boys. It started out with American Idol with Brenna, Natalie, Morgana, Eric, Stevie, and his mom. Then afterwards we hung out and talked while Steven and Brenna did their evening jog. Then afterwards, and everyone left, Steven, Eric, Colin and I went and got into the hot tub- ( Read more... )

Surprisingly today went really well. There were moments of "hail Mary" and "Please God, help us through this tune". But overall- I had fun! I always forget that music is the food of life, and it always has done me well. I close my eyes and forget about everything, but the music. So today made me very happy, and I really love being happy. love, love ( Read more... )

Sometimes things in life are taken advantage of. You forget that even though shit is going on that there are friends who love you for you and care about you more than words. But you sit there and stew in your hurt and anger, and instead of embracing the love and joy, you push it away and become full of hatred. I don't want to live that life anymore ( Read more... )