the sky's still far, but i am safe in here from the world outside.
so i don't really like this person, although i don't really know them. & that's not the right thing to do. but i feel like i should do it. so i am. i don't like them becuase i feel like they could take away what i care most about in a heartbeat. it scares me to death that i feel that way. i don't like it when "they" talk. although that is over-protective. i almost don't care. i don't think it's fair to me that he is talking to her. i know if we switches places, that he would get a little irked if i talked to scott or something like that for example. the fact that they tell you anything you want to know just kind of proves to me they would do anything for you. it's just vexing to have that feeling. that feeling that you might hide something from me. to keep from hurting me. like yesterday, when she IMed you. why didn't you just see what she said? was it becuase she might have said something i didn't want to see. who knows. i'm just so doubtful when it comes to her. i almost hate her. & that's the end of it. so annnyways, i really want a full. & am going to try & work hard for it at open gym. although bash isn't going to be there. so i will possibly try to just do it on the floor by myself. guh, i want it wicked badly. i will be pleased with myself for a little while after i get it. uhhh. my mouth hurts REALLY bad because i got my bottom braces on. i'm not to impressed. but it has to be done. i think that's all i have to say. uhm, oh. download whats her name by green day. it makes me sad & happy at the same time. yeah. bye?