yeah so i still hate myself...whatever..its all cool..i got to talk to john today..havent talked to him in ages..and i got to talk to midget..i love that kid! anyways, my sisters are upstairs freaking out because they have to go to bed early so they can get up early to go hunting....anyways, not too happy, but my b-day is in 12 days, and then a ( Read more... )

yeah so, i just realized that im a total lier when it comes to my feelings and very special people aka boys...i hate myself...on the plus side, i did get a really skimpy bathing suit that my mom hates to death...still hate myself...i need a boyfriend...and a date to prom...but whatever...u know that song by queen, and that line that goes "i ( Read more... )

yeah so here i am, sitting in the school library with my buddha..what a good shrimpy-poo i am! anyways, nothing to do, so thats why im posting..omg, its gonna be a fun time tonight...the love of my life, laura, and i are going to a monarchs game! what fun! she'll get to see her little man in action! she'll get to see me yelling at all the players ( Read more... )

yeah so nothing good happened today..except that it was an early dismissal..and ellen and i sat in the THS parking lot for an hour just talking..it felt so good to get all of my anger out..and i love ellen, she totally knows where im coming from with absolutely everything..oh yeah, when we were about to leave, stefan, trevor and some other ( Read more... )

yeah so im sitting here, in the school library..with laura, ashley, and charlie...updating my journal...where the hell is ellen??? as far as i know, shes not here yet!! and omg, i really dont want to be mad at amanda, but im not apologizing unti she does first because she was totally in the wrong..anyways, alex and sarah, just a heads up, my fam ( Read more... )

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hey all im back! dont think that i deserted you, i just got grounded for 2 weeks and then my comp wasnt working so we had to get a new one..my god, so many ppl have been stressing me out..but now, not at all anymore..(ellen knows what im talking about..thank god she does!) and i have been to church in like, 4 weeks..Alex, dont think ive deserted ( Read more... )

im happy..for the moment..anyways, i went to the mall today with my sister and spen like 34 bucks on underwear, shoes, little football helmets, and 2 cokes...but u know what really made my day???? i saw christian at the mall...and that made me happy cuz he saw me too and did the little head thing like "hey" and smiled...oooo that made my day! and ( Read more... )

whew..now that i actually got my feelings on this journal, im a little scared, lol...anyways, im chaperoning my sister and her friends at the movies on friday...i told her that i would sit behind them and throw popcorn at them, put ice cubes down their shirts, kick their chairs, and just made random noises at random times...she complained to my mom ( Read more... )

this is for alex..alex, i dont care if u dont like me back, but u have to know something..i never stopped liking you...i'll always like you..its more than that..i love you..now u know this..u have to let me know what is going on..i cant just sit around and hope anymore