Maybe when the room stops spinning it will all be clear ( Read more... )

I'm spinning in circles and don't know what direction I'll end up going...and I love it. I love not being able to plan things and figure out what's going to happen. For the first time, it feels good to not have control over the wheel...and have no idea who does.

Merry Christmas everyone...

Let loose a little, worry less...Let fate take over

I don't get it...I'd be a regret? Apparantly so. Especially since there's now dating type crap all over his myspace. Just give it to me straight: I don't want to date you. That's way better than: I just have a lot going on and need to focus on myself and I don't want a girlfriend right now. I'm not stupid okay...well at least in that I'm going ( Read more... )

S.O.S ( Read more... )

I hate how these are always just complaints for me it seems like...but I need a vent session and these are effective...feel free to ignore it, I promise not to be hurt or offended...just need a little outlet ( Read more... )

I might have to quit my beloved smoothie job. That really sucks. It was compeltely catored to my lifestyle and had great hours. The minimum wage was totally doable with the hours and all the extra perks. Someone's skimming off the top though and it's not me. I somehow am the one getting blamed for it. So my mom called el bosso this morning ( Read more... )

Dear anyone actually reading this ( Read more... )

I'm really sincerely hoping that I don't push a good thing away when what I really want to do is pull it closer...I'm tired of missing good things because I'm scared and setteling for less because I don't allow myself what's good ( Read more... )

So, the teeth are out (And gross as it may be, I've asked to keep the monsters). I did surpisingly well and they at least had some nitrous oxide to "calm me down." The vicadin, I'm not gonna lie, is helpfull and needed from time to time. It's not pleasant, but it's going much better than I expected ( Read more... )

So my resolution was to keep control. Care, but not too much and to keep myself as distant as possible for as long as possible because God knows I'm just going to crash and burn later on. Something will happen to bring it crashing to the ground along with my newly refurbished heart and feelings. And then I started thinking...what if it's worth ( Read more... )